I do it out as well I just can't help it.

I do it all the time but more when I am eating.

Everybody is different so there is no rule as to how much you can gain.
Gaining weight takes time so wanting to gain weight fast is a bit unrealistic.

I love when people ask questions that don't really have an answer.

Sometime fantasies need to be left as just a fantasy.

Weight loss takes time and effort on your part.

If its a secret why have a symbol?
Next will be a decoder ring.LOL

Basing everything on looks is indeed very shallow.
If you have to lose weight for health reasons by all means do so.

Its a big decision really.
Lots to think about as far as family and friends and what they will think.
There will come a time where you figure out that maybe you should do what makes you happy.
Gain some and see how you like it. If you don't then lose what you gained simple as that.