Stormfury_4000 wrote:So I'm really getting tired of this whole feederism fetish.
First of all, let me just say that I am proud of my love for curvy girls - I am now and always will be a big girl lover. I won't discriminate between skinny and thick chicks and would be proud to have a girlfriend of any size (barring anorexic girls). Curves are a sign of health to me

My issue lies with wanting a girl I'm with to gain weight - as I'm sure you all have figured out, 99.9% of the population wants nothing to do with gaining weight on purpose in the first place, let alone doing it for enjoyment or sexual reasons. Nevertheless, seeing or getting a female to grow fatter and eat a lot is pretty much the only thing that will really turn me on. And I'm sick of this.
An old friend of mine, who is on Facebook, had dropped a few pant sizes and proudly displayed pictures of that loss. But my first reaction wasn't happiness for her - it was a deep bitterness that rooted itself in my heart every time I thought about that. As a result, this is what I now associate her with and while it has not (yet) tainted my friendship with her and I think she's a great girl, I am having an extremely hard time dislodging that dissapointment I feel.
So basically, the problem is this: I have a fetish that goes against what almost everyone believes in healthwise. People I've developed relationships with (aside from a few) have said it was "interesting" at best. Granted, I am still a virgin and have had relatively little sexual contact with women, but I am at least a little experienced in that area. And I'm sick and tired of both women who hate their curves and want to loose them, and my interest in expanding those curves and not wanting a girl to loose them. Weight loss is one of my huge pet peeves, and while I'm better now than I was before, it still pissed me off.
ARGH. *Headdesk* I suspect my conflict with this is not limited to myself. I'm sure lots of people here have the same issue, but it doesn't make it easier to deal with. I know I'm stuck with this fetish/interest, and I know there's no way out. And I'm not going to be able to change it, ever.
Sorry for the rant - I know there's no real solution to this. Just wanted to get it off my chest.
The best possible way to deal with this is to make sure that you know what your feelings for this girl are. If you are feeling bitter and getting bummed out about it every time you think of her then maybe your feelings need to have a second look. If you want to keep her as a friend then it would be best to have no confusion at all as to what she means to you.