Angelette:
I am thinking of quitting my job today. I can't wait any longer. But I don't know I should I explain to my dad. Right off the bat I assure he will get pissed at me because he does financially depend on me.

Angelette:
I am feeling suicidal right now. I have no access to therapy. It's dark out anyways and I have work in the morning.

I feel foolish for eating dinner. Because I don't deserve it. Since I can't go anywhere alone. I found a way to disappear. If only I had the guts. That is to starve myself.

I love to eat so it won't be easy. I probably won't succeed anyways. But well I now let my thoughts out. I assure some people will get mad at me but oh well. I've been scolded a lot of times for being mentally ill.

The Ultimate 1992:
But how can you be depressed and live in America, it's the place of dreams.

You know how many people in England want to see America but so many are too poor to travel there and the people who do are the talk of the town.

In 2006 I visited Florida for 2 weeks and it really was the best holiday ever, since then I have being pining to go back to see more states and get even fatter.

I hope your in a relationship with a good person right now because you need that when ill with mental health.

Munchies:
1. Go take a long walk off a short pier.

2. Not you out here being too stupid to understand how depression works.

3. You should go read a book or the newspaper on what living in America is actually like.

You are impressively dumb and heartless. "You can't be sad because I went on vacation once in your country and had a good time." That's like me saying to you "You can't have problems because you have free healthcare."

You make me sick. It's people like you that drive already depressed people to suicide.

The Ultimate 1992:
Maybe you should read the message properly before saying I'm a troll or being sarcastic, I travel 4-5 times a year mate so I'm pretty sure it's you that has no brain if you have nothing better to do than bad month smart people on here.

I'm pretty sure you don't need Millions of pounds to have a good life in America, everyone was so nice and happy in Florida in 2006 and I', pretty sure they weren't all Millionaires.

Maybe you should get some help and quit being such a little pussy! there was nothing wrong with what I said and if people are depressed or just think they are because they haven't got what they want they need to grow a pair and sort their life's out!

Go back to college, get better degrees, get a better job instead of coming to the internet to complain like a 12 year old!

Angelette:
I am feeling suicidal right now. I have no access to therapy. It's dark out anyways and I have work in the morning.

I feel foolish for eating dinner. Because I don't deserve it. Since I can't go anywhere alone. I found a way to disappear. If only I had the guts. That is to starve myself.

I love to eat so it won't be easy. I probably won't succeed anyways. But well I now let my thoughts out. I assure some people will get mad at me but oh well. I've been scolded a lot of times for being mentally ill.

The Ultimate 1992:
But how can you be depressed and live in America, it's the place of dreams.

You know how many people in England want to see America but so many are too poor to travel there and the people who do are the talk of the town.

In 2006 I visited Florida for 2 weeks and it really was the best holiday ever, since then I have being pining to go back to see more states and get even fatter.

I hope your in a relationship with a good person right now because you need that when ill with mental health.

LydiaFatPuppy:
this sarcasm right please tell me

I know dont if you had too much to drink or dont have brain to think the usa is the dream

USA is only a dream if you have high paying job and few millions in the bank

you cant be serious or you a troll trying to get your rocks off

The Ultimate 1992:
Maybe you should read the message properly before saying I'm a troll or being sarcastic, I travel 4-5 times a year mate so I'm pretty sure it's you that has no brain if you have nothing better to do than bad month smart people on here.

I'm pretty sure you don't need Millions of pounds to have a good life in America, everyone was so nice and happy in Florida in 2006 and I'm pretty sure they weren't all Millionaires.

I bet you've never even been to America and are you just following all the other depressing people who bad month other country's when they haven't even been.

If people are that broke and sad they should have worked harder at school/college and then they might would be living the good life

Munchies:
It sounds like she's okay with being thick or a little chubby, but nothing else. If that's her hard limit, make sure you respect that. And also respect if she wants to lose weight or work out to have some level of definition.

I have an unrelated question. You mention a husband. Is she married?

SalS:
Certainly. I just think part of the reason a woman might not like to gain weight, is because of internalised shame and fear of what people would say. So to the extent it's reasons like that, id like to reassure her past them so she can eat as much as she would really like to. I would actually encourage her to lift weights and power walk with me since it's good for her, id just make sure to feed her at least as much as she burns

Haha no shes not married, the husband question was hypothetical since were the ones planning to get married

Ferro1987:
That’s amazing! I can only dream of that kind of gluttony. I’m half your weight and maybe managed 15k over the course of three days. Saturday and Sunday I was barely hungry but still tried to eat “normally” so I wouldn’t lose much progress. I can’t weight myself but clothes that fit comfortably two weeks ago are much tighter.

Thank you for sharing!

BigBallBellyGirl:
It sounds like you're making good progress! Clothes are an excellent indicator of how much you're gaining and how your weight is distributing.

I can say, even though I took a break for a couple of days after Thanksgiving was said and done, my giant stuffings stretched my stomach even more. I packed away about 20,000 calories yesterday without ever feeling uncomfortably stuffed. I'm going to have to be careful to begin tapering off when I get within 10 lb of my upper limit, which is 500. If I don't adjust, I can easily see scenario in which I kept blowing up and ended up with some unintended consequences.

SalS:
1 - Before i came out, id been asking what her favorite foods are (answer: pizza, hamburger, chawarma, tacos, chicken). And showed pictures of foods she's less familiar with (donut, milkshake, chocolate cake). Her responses were always enthusiastic; "that looks delicious!" or saying she loves X and Y foods. She sent a video of some small pastry she was eating, and when i said i wish i could make burgers and feed her with them, she said "yeeeees, i love that". Ive explained how much i like a woman who eats a lot, she always responded that she likes to eat but is tired of the traditional African foods she grew up with. I asked her if that's why she's slim and she jokingly said yes.

2 - A couple days ago i "came out" for real. I asked if itd be a big problem for her, if she gained weight and she knew her husband liked it. And how i already like her but want to be honest about my preference. Then i sent 6 pictures of big women: photos.app.goo.gl/kJB5fpFPRoFyvxhu5

3 - She said she would like to gain weight one day and be a little bigger, but not like those women. She picked one of the women out and joked that if she was like her, i wouldnt be able to lift her anymore. Then she joked that i want her to be like them so therefore i must be prepared, because im going to lift her up. I responded that if she was like them i would let her break my back, it would be worth it, and i work out so i can definitely lift her, even if she was a lot heavier. She laughed and said that's good.

4 - I then showed her 2 pictures of smaller women: photos.app.goo.gl/1dSFoJGg8wziyxQz8
She said those were fine. The only major "drawback" was her saying she wants to always guard her size.

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Thanks for reading if you made it this far! I have zero interest in anything remotely near immobility. I would just like her to indulge her gluttony, without worrying about getting as big as the first 6 pictures i showed. It would be a dream if one day, i really would struggle to lift her. Ive searched the forum and it seems trust, patience, encouragement and a comfortable environment are the key ingredients in general, which of course makes sense. But based on your experience, do you have any specific advice for me?

Roni2241:
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So obviously I want to eat straight lard as a way of gaining.
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Weetabix:
Lard and cream are actually very healthy foods, the Keto and Carnivore eaters lose weight eating them.

However there is a very important caveat, NO CARBS. When you don't eat carbohydrates the body will try and burn fat as fuel hence it's weightloss effect. If you do eat carbs then the fat gets stored because of the body's insulin respose.

For us then what we want is a mixture of carbs and fat in large amounts. Pastry is one such food, very tasty and loads of variety such as various pies and cakes.

Cooking with lard is good, as is frying bread in lard. Eating it straight will get boring fast.

Cream is the most edible of pure fat but even then it's better to pour it on apple pie than try and drink it from the jug.

You can use cream instead of milk when making any kind of gainer shake. Top up with milk to suit your taste. The idea is to consume the maximum amount the easiest way possible.

Leptine:
Lard, as animal fat, contains large amounts of saturated fatty acids. They are not healthy for us in large quantities.

The topic of eating pure lard used for frying is borderline fetish death-feederism - dark side.

In my opinion: try to find a lard substitute that, when consumed, can provide a similar experience 🤔

MrOverstuffed:
I’m not talking about carrying 450lbs with a massive belly. Let take me for example, I’m 6’2 and weigh 195lbs. If I were to reach a weight of 275 or 300lbs, would that legit be bad for my health? I know there are so many fatphobic people that’ll tell you “stay under 200lbs, I look healthy now, fat is unhealthy, increase in heart attack and this and that.” Idk if the world is generally against fat people or if there’s evidence that if you carry more weight than what the average person, you’ll be in danger.
I’m sure the only true way to remain healthy is to remain active with my doctor to make sure nothing bad is happening.

Angelette:
My house is poorly insulated so I can relate. Even when outside I admittedly don't have good quality warm clothes. Some of my garments are falling apart. I really need to update my wardrobe.

Someday I will invest in warmer good quality clothing. The Uniqlo Heattech leggings I ordered is a good start.