well my weight finally crept up to 350. i am still not trying to gain, but we've had some weeks of celebration and conscious over-indulgence so, ahem, it wasn't really a shock.

i like my body as i am. i like my lifestyle, and i like eating (and drinking!) this way... my biggest concern to be honest is not about weight, but about health. i am concerned about my blood sugar, blood pressure, cholesterol, etc. - because my biggest fear is that i will be told "you can't eat or drink that anymore." the thought of having to give up carbs (or beer) for health reasons is just too sad to consider.

it's not a problem now - i am still healthy. and my girlfriend is very good at "balancing" our diet with healthy food, most of the time i eat pretty health. just a lot! but i would feel better if my weight stabilized.

this is really good advice - especially cooling and heating! that helps a lot.

i have gotten into some yoga (i am a total newb, though) and some core exercises for just this reason. i don't do them enough, but i notice when i do i sleep better. my back pain was keeping me awake at night, so that is a good sign.

oooh, that stung!

and, ahem, something about people in glass houses and throwing rocks...

yeah, not being able to pull up shorts that i wore last summer over my hips/butt... that was a good reminder that i might have gotten a little fat.

hey trans people - we want to celebrate you!

today - thursday, june 24th - for toronto pride you can join the live stream of "F*ck Shit Up! A Trans and Non- Binary Cabaret" at 4:30-5:30 (eastern standard time zone).

the link to the event is here: prideguide.online/F-ck-Shit-Up-A-Trans-and-Non-Binary-Cabaret-1


and tomorrow - friday, june 25th - is the virtual trans pride rally & march!

it is at 3pm-4pm. more info is available at: pridetoronto.com/watch

for all events, you can link directly to the stream at: pridetoronto.com/watch

amazingem mentioned off-hand that there wasn't any activity on ff related to june's pride month, and she's right! so here's a happy #pride post!

pride is a big deal here in toronto - and this is toronto pride's 40th anniversary! unfortunately due to the pandemic (again!) most of the events are virtual - but that means anyone in the world can check them out! there is stuff happening all month, much of it by zoom, and you can see it here:

pridetoronto.com/

the toronto pride parade is one of the biggest in the world. it's no new york or san francisco, but it is pretty incredible. hopefully next year it will be a real parade again!

have an amazing pride month, fantasy feeders and feedees!

i met my girlfriend on wooplus, so i can attest that it works, at least some of the time! but i didn't get as much "traffic" as i am sure many others do, but some of that may just be due to my age (i suspect the apps are just more popular with people under 40, or people looking for someone under 40, from a numbers-game perspective).

the way i always look at relationships is, i don't need to see a *lot* of people, i was need to see the one, right (for me) person. so patience is important. as they say, good things come to those who wait!

when i started gaining weight to the point that i really noticed it in a way that really impacted my day-to-day, i was probably 220 or 250 lbs. up until then the 'inconvenience' was pretty minor.

the difficult parts like walking slower, not being able to stand for a long time, etc. are something that initially i kind of struggled against, thinking that hey i should still be able to do what i did before... life got much, much easier once i got past that and just "went with it" and listened to my body. i don't mind asking people i am walking with if we can slow down, etc.

do i enjoy them? on some rare occasions, usually in the right setting. do i enjoy how challenging stairs have become? no.

but is it worth it? yes! there are no activities (the gym, sports, etc.) that i miss enough to make me think i took the wrong path. the good at this point really outweighs (ha ha!) the bad.

wow, that made me hungry, lol! fish n' chips and london pride sounds like a good combination right now.

we've had wendy's forever in canada, and i never thought it was anything special. what i wish we'd get here is white castle, that would be really different from the chains that are prevalent here.

yeah, i initially got out of shape back when i stopped going to the gym, a few years ago...

but since the pandemic i have been working at home, and that has made me really, really out of shape - i totally underestimated how much exercise i got going to work.