Old beck was so gooood omg ?si=Zf81Fn-nQOrzR3ZA

I also saw suicideboys before they got really big now they sell out stadiums I saw them when the crowd was like no more than 500 people in a smallish venue it was hype the mosh was wild

I used to really enjoy going to shows but I think after years in my industry my ears have gotten hyper sensitive to loud noise and I find the whole thing very overwhelming, it also certainly doesnt help how big I am getting around in a large crowd isn’t as inciting as it used to be.

I went to alot of edm shows those were alot of fun, but I think I kinda grew out of that type of music also and retreated back to more indie stuff. I saw cigarettes after sex a while back that was a lot of fun, and I didn’t feel as overwhelmed

I have been pretty lucky on most furniture (knock on wood) apart from an office chair that just wore out the up and down feature broke, probably from plopping down on it to hard one to many times but the chair itself was fine just say really low, and 2 box springs mattresses back to back ever since I got my metal frame I’ve been fine tho.

I didn’t get fat to spite at least not consciously subconsciously maybe a bit or at least it shaped my relationship with food later in life. But I was a wrestler and my dad was like a coach a lot of the time in grade school I’m some of high school, I had to make weight and a lot of times I had to cut weight, meaning no solids and in a lot of cases not even water; but I liked and enjoyed it, but as i got older and more out performed I lost interest.

I didn’t get the comments I thought I would at all, my weight wasn’t a topic until I was quite heavy at which point I just given up on trying to drop weight and I explained that my weight wasn’t a topic of discussion and that was pretty much the end of it not a peep about it since.

Thanks! Facts tho, People have been giving me double takes in my building lol

I shaved my beard off and I always get nervous when I’m about to shave because how it might look underneath and I gotta say I’m not bothered this time by my face fat so much I was really feeling it

I had never considered it struggling but I love buttered tortillas with a bit of cinnamon and one of my favorite meals is red beans and rice with a pound of hamburger

Congrats on accepting this part of yourself, that’s awesome hope you start enjoying it!

Part of me thinks that the feeder/fat admirerer to feedee/gainer is sexual imprinting from the fetish basically you want to fatten someone so badly you become the one being fattened, but also part of me thinks that deep down people like you always wanted to be fat but didn’t find it in themselves to let themselves go but did so vicariously through a feedee/fat person. It’s intresting for sure

I find that my belly hangs the lowest when I tend to be lower in weight but stretch marks fade a bit, when I’m getting consistently stuffed all the time it’s more drum like but more stretch marks