Letters And Numbers:
Not trying to be rude or dismissive, but maybe a fetish website is not the right place to learn how to express yourself online. Why not start with a space that’s about hobbies or something less heavy?

Estil17:
Because I do feel passionately about my eh, special interests in my profile (I don't know if "fetish" is exactly right). I already have a couple of forums I frequent for my "normal" hobbies.

Letters And Numbers:
My guess would be that trying to learn how to communicate one-on-one with people on a fetish website is doing it on hard mode. Just get used to the idea that people get cold feet and disappear off this site, or will think you’re into weird sex shit in a different way than they’re into weird sex shit and get spooked. Or that fundamentally there are people on here because they can’t have this fetish be a part of their real life and don’t want to blur those lines. The word fantasy is right in the title.

I guess my one other tip would be that you’ve made your grief (which I’m very sorry for, I can’t even imagine) the main character across half a dozen threads this morning. That’s heavy stuff, man. Posting in the forum is fun, post more often about stuff that isn’t always so heavy. You don’t need to hide your loss but it doesn’t have to be so up front. I know it’s harder around the holidays. (You can post in the Story of the Month threads whenever you like! They’re nice!)

Munchies:
So, what is your goal? What do you want?

Estil17:
To ultimately find my Princess Charming and live happily ever after of course! No matter how long it ends up taking...

Munchies:
I have ASD and PTSD. I struggled a lot with relationships because of it. So I took a 5 year dating hiatus to work on myself. I struggled to understand social cues, so I learned what they were and how to communicate effective to smooth out misunderstandings. I have PTSD, so I learned healthy coping mechanisms as well as dealing with my trauma.

I'm not 100% better. More like 60% to 80% depending on the day. And I am always trying to improve.

It doesn't sound like you are ready to date yet. It's not because of your mental illness. Instead, it doesn't sound like you've learned to self regulate.

Estil17:
Oh I'm nowhere near the "dating" part yet...for right now I'm just trying to find to get good at the online part!

Letters And Numbers:
Therapy doesn’t just stop when you don’t click well with your therapist. That just means you need to try someone else. Give it another try.

Estil17:
I don't know what it is they could tell me that I don't already know...and I don't think they'd be much help on these kind of matters.

Estil17:
No but I do have mental/emotional issues (ADHD, Aspergers, PTSD to name a few) and I do have to take a few prescriptions to help it. I'm also legally disabled (SSDI) as well. I have tried therapy but it doesn't seem to do much good and worse, sometimes I come there and have nothing I can think of to talk about.

Forgive me I'm not very good at explaining things in such a way that doesn't come out wrong...

BigBallBellyGirl:
I am! I absolutely love holiday food. I pre-stuffed today to expand my belly as big as possible. Among my stuffings were four stacks of eight pancakes and two large pizzas. My partner and I began prepping for a Thanksgiving meal for six for us to share Friday, although he eats clean and doesn't overindulge. Tomorrow, I'll load up at my parents house and also snack some at home. Last year, I gained 9 lb over the 4-day Thanksgiving weekend. I plan to outdo that this year, and I can't stop thinking about apple pie, stuffing, and mashed potatoes for days.

Nycfa:
After reading many of your wonderful posts, it sounds like you feel a tremendous sense of accomplishment when you manage to consume what even you would consider a ridiculous amount of food. So, maybe use this weekend to dip your toe into the “fantasy” you described in your post from the other day. Ask your partner to promise that at any time you’re awake, you will be eating. Ask him to promise to not give up if you say you’re stuffed. Not to stop if your belly hurts or if you can’t take a deep breath. Say you want to push your very limits. Be at the mercy of your belly. Dizzy from literally being able to feel your stomach stretching as you refuse to let your unrelenting over consumption abate… see if you can gain 20!! 🥰🥰🥰

BigBallBellyGirl:
I probably came as close as possible in real life to fulfilling my fantasy. I consumed around 30,000 calories Thursday but well over that on Friday. I'll be taking a bit of a break today, because I have a lot of bloating and swelling and my hands and feet, and I want to let my body recover. I haven't weighed yet, because I know I'm not going to get an accurate reading, but I can tell my gain will be significant, perhaps a record for me.

Friday, on our stuffing day, I had:

- 3 chocolate glazed donuts
- 12 eggs, scrambled with cheese and mushrooms
- 4 pieces of cheese toast
- 1 9x13 pan of stuffing
- 2 8x8 pans of mac and cheese
- 3 servings of whole cranberry sauce
- 1 9x13 pan of broccoli and cheese casserole
- 4 pounds of turkey with gravy
- 6 buttermilk biscuits
- 3 dinner rolls with heavy butter
- large serving of squash casserole
- large serving of wild mushroom rice
- large serving of roasted brussel sprouts
- 3 loaded baked potatoes
- 2 plates of corn casserole
- 1 apple pie
- 1/2 cherry pie with a pint of ice cream
- 1/2 pumpkin pie
- 1 gallon of milk
- 4 liters of orange soda
- 4 glasses of wine

My sweet partner has been waiting on me hand and foot, and even this morning, I'm still having issues with balance and getting from a sitting to a standing position. I'm excited for him to help measure me at the conclusion of the weekend to see how much "damage" I've done!

Estil17:
There is a major problem I seem to have and it really frustrates me as I feel like I keep making this same mistake over and over again. I often come on too strong too soon (online I mean) and I end up scarring the other person away :,(

Like, there was someone here who was really one of a kind, one in a billion, thought she might be "The One" but as I often do I stupidly came on too strong and she ended up ghosting me, even after she reassured me (because I kept asking to make sure I was doing everything right) that "You are fine" and she would say "I appreciate that". I mean, I thought maybe I had some appeal for her but...as I often do, I blow it. :,( And of course I've had more than my fair share of catfishers too I'm sorry to say.

I wish I could somehow learn from my mistakes and do better...I've been quite depressed and lonely lately (seasonal changes probably don't help that any) and it might be that it will soon be 2 1/2 years since my wife passed away. Still, can anyone help me be as appealing and persuasive and all that as I can? And try not to come off too strong too soon? I know that's my main problem by far...

Estil17:
Sadly it and especially Christmas is just another day for me. My grandma long ago retired from doing the Christmas Eve thing at her house, I lost my wife almost 2 1/2 years ago...I don't even bother putting up a tree/decorations in my apt. And it was always my favorite holiday by far...I just hope someday I can find that very special someone so I can have reason to properly celebrate and enjoy holidays again.

MrOverstuffed:
I’m super interested in trying to expand how much I can stuff my belly with. I hate when I feel like I haven’t eaten enough despite feeling as full as can be, if possible I wanna make my belly more susceptible to expanding even when it’s comfortably full. Does soda help with this? And is that even something that a belly can do?

Fatfrog88:
It just isnt what it used to be back in the day! I wish i had cool people to chat with and encourage me to eat without needing sex all the time