I've wondered about it too, I don't know why I'm drawn to being fat or why I like fat guys. The funny thing is that I'm raising the bar as time goes by and as I gain.
I have some favorite xtube videos and still photos of guys that at one time I thought were really obese that I found orgasm-inducingly hot, but now I think "hmm y'know, they're not that fat". Though no less orgasm-inducing.

I don't think it's strange. This fetish is all over the map with what people like.

Fatboy, what else!?

I haven't brought up deliberately gaining w/ my husband but he's got to suspect from some of the things I say. For example:

1. About my pain specialist - I had a lumbar fusion - he points to my belly and chastises me. I tell my husband "I worked hard for this" (pointing to my belly).
2. "I'm tired of dieting and 'eating right'. I want eat what I want to eat, and if I get fatter so be it".
3. "Looks like it's time to buy some 44s".

I'm "raising the bar" too, as it were. I imagine being 300 lbs, my belly 54-56", drooping over my belt and rippling, and how I'd look in public rocking that belly. I never thought I'd imagine or want to be that size, but the fatter I get the fatter I want to get, which gives me some awesome orgasms.

This says it pretty much for me, except that I did like physical activity: weight lifting, running, biking. I did it because I like it, though I'm limited now, not by my weight, but by back surgery.

It was really only in the past few years that I let myself gain weight and like how I look being fat. I've always been a fan of bhm. I realized there are too many good looking bhm for there to be anything wrong with it or be ashamed of.

As much as I used to dislike being overweight, ironically, I'm having a hard time gaining. As for why I like it, I have no idea. All I know is that fat guys turn me on, and I get aroused identifying with them.

I'm really getting to love them. The more fat I'm gaining the more they're drooping. They're not really big but they're getting soft.

Me.

Around 1993 I was 137 lbs. Around 2007-2008 I was 230 lbs. I'm currently 223, trying to get past 230 again. So, that was 93 lbs gain in 14 years.

I came to appreciate fat rather late. By the time I decided to cut loose and deliberately gain I knew gainers, feeders and feedees existed. So I never thought I was alone in it.