FAMGM:
During my first gaining period, I went from 176 to 282 lbs in 4 years.

Having a fast metabolism, when I stopped and resumed nornal eating, I shrank back to 185 lbs — my new hard bottom weight.

In my second gaining period, I covered 185 to 282 lbs in 12 months, and pushed on to 320 lbs in a further 4 months.

Again, I stopped, resumed normal eating, shrank back to 213 lbs, and could not get any lower.

In my current gaining phase, I’ve gone from 213 to 273 lbs in THIRTY THREE DAYS.

Now, this is partly because I also know how to gain. Once I used to buy a bit extra McDonalds and think I was being a glutton, whereas now I’m on a 10,000 cal per day diet.

Jelly Rolls:
So I’m not proud of my little fatphobia habit. I know I have hurt people yet I feel this compulsion to hurt people (fat acceptance and fat proud people) because I have this deep internalized disgusted feeling towards my sexuality. I have always harassed fat people and told them that they are fundamentally wrong for being ok/being positive about being fat. I do this because I think the fact that I am a feeder and feedee is fundamentally and morally wrong. I just feel a release of guilt when I put happy fat people down. I can’t stand myself for being into this stuff, yet then I am so drawn to it and think it’s so sexy. I just feel that I am a broken person and I like to repent for it by “doing what’s morally right” and bullying fat positive people into hating themselves and believing that they are bad people like me. I just don’t know how to cope with all this hate. I wish I felt free but I know that the world hates me like I hate myself. I wanna be fat and flabby and enjoy it but I can’t help but think I am disgusting.

Munchies:
You are disgusting, but not for being fat. You are disgusting for going out of your way to hurt people because you are hurting.

You need some therapy and do some soul searching. You are an emotionally stunted person who needs to grow up.

Secretlyfeedee:
My friends are always offering to do sports with me-my sister has PCOS so she points out that she thinks I must have it too since I’ve gained weight. I don’t really talk to my parents but my grandmother said “you’d be so pretty if you lost weight” lol.
I model for artists as well so they all pointed out how big I’ve gotten since I first started years ago. One of them said “you’ve doubled in size”.
It’s not really an environment that encourages weight gain. I also live in the city so I walk everywhere and it’s hard to gain without stuffing constantly. I also can’t afford it really because I’m poor I just like fancy things.

Secretlyfeedee:
I’ve recent gained about 40 lbs in a month. I think I ought to pace it out more but it’s nice to feel huge quickly.