Fantasy Feeder

Jekyll and hyde of gaining - anyone struggling as well?

StuffedWithSin:
I guess this is half a question half ??????
I am just not sure if this is a case of "go to therapy" or if there are others who feel similar and maybe know ways to make it better.

Basically, weight gain has been my biggest fetish since I can think. Especially belly focused stuff and teasing/humiliation.
Everyone in my family is super slim (genetics) and I grew up with some kind of body shaming from my maternal family side so I've always been very self conscious about my body. My best guess is also that this is where my kink combination came from.

Now, to this day I'm heavily turned on by verbal degradation and physical touching of my belly and the idea of having a bigger, softer stomach.
At the same time, anytime I start putting on weight I freak out.

It's like - I have those waves where I'm super horny for a week or so and get extremely into gaining, stuffing etc. And then suddenly I go back to "I want a six pack, let's go! Work out!"

I just don't think I really want to get fat all over, would live to be somewhat toned - but also really crave having a big, round belly.
I also dream of having a person to share this kink with but I am terrified of talking with any person who has the potential of meeting me irl.

Conclusion: I feel like I'm my own greatest enemy, blocking me from enjoying my kink in the physical realm and I don't know if there's a way to work this out.

Well. Anyone related?

I can say that I’m much the same.

And here’s the lesson I’ve gotten from all this: That even the ambiguity and the duality of your Jeckyll and Hyde mind can be amazing — and arousing.

This is a very complex fetish for you. It’s not as simple as for others, but learning to accept the inner conflicts and ambiguous feelings — and not just accept but embrace them — is what really has helped.

Because you get off on humiliation and teasing, as do I, you might find solace in feeling all this. It’s not something pathological. It’s just how your brain works with this fetish. Don’t struggle. Accept it. Enjoy the conflicting thoughts. They won’t hurt you. They are just thoughts after all. And they are as arousing and exciting as humiliation and embarrassment — if you’ll just let them be.

Anyway, that’s my take on this and how I’ve dealt with this.

7 months

GrowingLoveHandles

Winter storm gluttony

Ice is coming down here. Freezing rain.

When the electric goes out, I’ll have to eat up the contents of the fridge and freezer.

Yum. Oink oink. 🐷

8 months

GrowingLoveHandles

Winter storm gluttony

There is a winter storm raging across most of North America today and tomorrow.

It’s not an emergency yet, but I am lusting after my emergency snack stash like a hog eyeing a full trough.

How’s everyone else doing?

8 months

GrowingLoveHandles

Some old stories

AskDrFeeder:
By popular request I have just posted some stories I wrote a long time ago:

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You are my favorite from years ago.

“Self-Discovery” and “The Witness” are classical gems.

Why not post all your stories here so the young people can enjoy your writing?

8 months

GrowingLoveHandles

Getting turned on writing a fat fetish story

ChubbySnowgirl98:
Every time! If I’m writing a longer story I often have to take breaks during the writing process as a result of this uh, issue as it were haha.

The erotica writer’s curse:

Getting to the climax prematurely.

9 months

GrowingLoveHandles

Getting turned on writing a fat fetish story

I’ve read somewhere that erotica writer is a one-handed occupation, so I suspect this is a fairly common thing.

For me, I know being aroused from writing is normal.

Words can be quite powerful.

9 months

GrowingLoveHandles

How good are you with role-plays?

I think I’m good at it.

A lot of my stories here were originally based on roleplays.

I have literally tons more stories to write.

But I do prefer role playing.

Anyone interested, let me know. Maybe we will find some kinks in common.

11 months

GrowingLoveHandles

Ruined

BigPrincess23:
I would like to be ruined in every way possible. I want a feeder who will do their darkest and most depraved fantasies on me against my will.

I always am intrigued by this dynamic — the desire to fulfill another’s wicked fantasies being your own fantasy.

This is a disturbing — and hot! — discussion.

1 year

GrowingLoveHandles

Ff user who ruins people?

MitchHedberg:
A while back I read some posts from a user on here who confessed to "ruining men" by getting them addicted to the fattening lifestyle so much that it they become essentially useless and lose their partners,jobs, etc.

It was very dark but also quite a hot read and I'm wondering if anyone knows who that user was or where I can find those posts?

Back to the original post.

Has anyone found these posts? I’d love to read them.

1 year

GrowingLoveHandles

Sabotage and manipulative

LoraDayton:
I love elements like this! Like gosh, of *course* they like me as I am and just want to see me healthy! HEAS, no-bad-foods, anti-diet culture, etc... all the while their reassurances that my sudden extra bulkage isn't in fact, a bad sign of my progress!

Little do I know!

I love your enthusiasm for this, Lora.

You should write it.

And what does HEAS stand for? I tried looking it up but nothing seems right.

Happily Ever After Status?

1 year

GrowingLoveHandles