Masuli:
I can relate to that feeling alone on the site or outsider. Mostly this because of location + being older. I have been here so long.

On location wise this fetish seems to be quite rare and this makes tricky to find people to talk with.

Also being a male feedee, gainer that is looking for a feeder makes things harder.

I don't think that you are being autistic. I think sometimes we all feel being an outsider or not fitting in. My advice would be trying enjoy your own company, then you are never going to feel like being alone in the world.

Kitsune:
Thank you for the advice. Currently my life is overwhelming so I have the urge to talk to someone. I rarely go out very often and my online friends are either not online when I have those midlife crisis or I am afraid to bother them. Retail therapy used to be my dopamine to help cope but lately I am trying to save up for college so that's out the door. I still have urges to purchase something though.

Bobo:
Lexi...was overwhelming. i didn't know what to do with all those pounds. She was a little over 400 and short, so it was like being a mountain climber! Strange but what I remember most isn't her belly, which hung almost to her knees, but these dozens of light, gentle silver stretch marks on her shoulders and where her arms met her torso. I thought they were so sweet and sexy and a sign of gaining. I also liked the way she kissed me, I assume she liked mine as well. One hopes! We didn't actually have sex, just rolled around in bed and it was so explosive. She started out at around 150 chubby pounds and...oh, my!