I completely understand. I've gained and lost the same weight too many times to count, and this pandemic gave me a license to indulge in my fantasies. I'm currently at the highest weight I've ever been, and It's been a very erotic experience. It's almost inevitable that I will need to step back and take a breather, though. Do what you need to do to take care of yourself.

47. My goal weight will put me at exactly 50

@petitefeeder I'm like your roommate. I binge before and during my period. I have little to no appetite the following week.

These are always fun!

1. Been fed IRL
Yes

2. Ate myself to sleep
Yes.
3. Had sex while being fed at the same time
Yes
4. Stolen food because I�m just a piggy
No, but I've sneaked extra at social functions
5. Been called a fat name in public
yes
6. Had a stranger pat or poke my belly
no
7. Been fatter than my current weight
yes
8. Ripped clothes or popped a button
Yes. Buttons.
9. Broken furniture because of my weight
Yeah.
10. Seen an actual pig and got turned on
no
11. Fantasized about immobility
no
12. Ate until I threw up
almost
13. Got stuck somewhere because of my size
yes
14. Posted nudes of myself online
no
15. Been fed online
no
16. Been told I need to lose weight by a family member
yes
17. Had a partner who worshiped my fat
yes
18. Started rubbing my belly in public
yes
19. Been called a pig
yes
20. Been weighed and measured by my partner
no
21. Been in a gaining competition with another gainer
no

These are always fun!

1. Been fed IRL
Yes

2. Ate myself to sleep
Yes.
3. Had sex while being fed at the same time
Yes
4. Stolen food because I�m just a piggy
No, but I've sneaked extra at social functions
5. Been called a fat name in public
yes
6. Had a stranger pat or poke my belly
no
7. Been fatter than my current weight
yes
8. Ripped clothes or popped a button
Yes. Buttons.
9. Broken furniture because of my weight
Yeah.
10. Seen an actual pig and got turned on
no
11. Fantasized about immobility
no
12. Ate until I threw up
almost
13. Got stuck somewhere because of my size
yes
14. Posted nudes of myself online
no
15. Been fed online
no
16. Been told I need to lose weight by a family member
yes
17. Had a partner who worshiped my fat
yes
18. Started rubbing my belly in public
yes
19. Been called a pig
yes
20. Been weighed and measured by my partner
no
21. Been in a gaining competition with another gainer
no

I used to eat at restaurants a few times a week, so that has changed. I eat a lot more delivery now. I also eat more fast food for the same reason. Otherwise it's pretty much the same. I go through periods of gluttony and restriction. That's why my weight fluctuates so much.

I'm 5'3". I'd always considered myself chubby when I was younger. I stayed between 130-145 in high school. It took moving away from home for me to get fat, though. I started feeling fat around 180.

Honestly? The first time you moved the finish line was when it became beyond your control. I'm a fan of setting limits, and if I go over the line I cut back and lose. Thing is...I never lose all of it. The result is a more gradual weight gain.

There are parts of numbers 5-8 that I recognize as part of my experience, but I'm most likely somewhere between 5.5-6