I have decent aerobic fitness still, but my muscles can't do shit now except perhaps my legs which are quite strong.

I can't do a single pushup, but then again, I've weed arms that couldn't do pushups when I was a totally skinny skeleton either weighing 125lbs with a BMI of 15.

Forgot to mention, I broke one of my arms in late 2023 in a bike crash so I don't have much strength to do pushups anyway.

I actually have no idea if I have a double chin, because I have a beard, that disguises it, if it even exists. I personally don't want one. I have a receding chin anyway, so it would look pretty bad, hence why I have a beard.

1. Do you ever regret it?

No because I wanted to see and feel what it's like.

2. Do you frequently regret it?

No because I wanted to see and feel what it's like.

3. Do you have mixed feelings about it?

Yes because I am health conscious and also a bit of a hypochondriac so as soon as I get any ache or pain I think I have diabetes or kidney failure or some shit. Anyway I limit my gains because of this. As for the "social" side of it, I couldn't give a shit about that.

4. If you had it to do over, would you still do it?

Eh maybe not now at my age.

5. If you had it to do over, would you have started gaining even sooner?

Not sure.

6. Do you plan to gain more in the future, stay the same or lose weight? Or are you just going to see what happens?

Most likely will lose it after reaching this goal.

A true belly (fat rather than bloating) grows gradually enough you don't suddenly notice it. I noticed the first bits of fat on the lower belly which turned me on feeling it and looking at it. Now it is a ball of fat in its entirety rather than a slim torso with a pooch but I'm used to it as long as I make extra holes in my belt of course.

1. Been fed IRL

Can't remember. I think I did one time a while back.


2. Ate myself to sleep
Sort of.


3. Had sex while being fed at the same time
I think so ages ago.


4. Stolen food because I�m just a piggy
No

5. Been called a fat name in public
Yes, but when I was skinny.

6. Had a stranger pat or poke my belly
No.

7. Been fatter than my current weight
No

8. Ripped clothes or popped a button
Yes but not as a "fat" person.

9. Broken furniture because of my weight

No as in not necessarily cos of my weight but cos I just break shit anyway somehow.

10. Seen an actual pig and got turned on
Uuuuh no.

11. Fantasized about immobility
Um no.


12. Ate until I threw up
Ew no.


13. Got stuck somewhere because of my size
Yes but when I was skinny, it was just too small of a space.


14. Posted nudes of myself online
No.

15. Been fed online
No


16. Been told I need to lose weight by a family member

Yes

17. Had a partner who worshiped my fat
Not exactly....


18. Started rubbing my belly in public
Yes

19. Been called a pig
Told I have the mind of a pig.

20. Been weighed and measured by my partner
Yes a while ago.


21. Been in a gaining competition with another gainer
No

Today's readings.

Height: 6'4"
Weight: 232.2lbs

BMI: 28.3

Verdict: Scrawny little dweeb. Must try harder.

Getting a cute little pair of boobies.

More rolls of fat on sides.

Rippling effect on thighs I see sometimes.

Skin is slightly shiney and smoother (it was already very smooth mind you).

Belly jiggles during certain movements.

Indeed I'll have to try that!

An annoying thing for me is discomfort lying on my front in bed now.

You see, my belly is so fat, such a fat blob, that when I lie on my front, the fat pushes into my stomach and organs. Seems it gives me some sort of indigestion I don't get otherwise.

The other night, for example, I heard a loud "squeak" coming from my belly which woke me up. I had inadvertantly rolled into a front sleeping position and my belly didn't like it so it squeeked. So I changed position.

Thanks! I'll try my best. Same to you.