I had no issues with that until I kept bumping into things and I have never been the clumsy type. But when it kept happening then I had to face the fact that I take up way more space and I have to account for that because I kept seeing myself as not that fat. But I knew I was fat when I broke a lawn chair
4 years
thatlost1:
What sounds like you need to find a partner that embraces your eating habits and someone to cheer you up after the feasts.
HungryAndConfused:
I have a partner who is not into it. It would be for my own pleasure if I were to get fatter.
If they were into it I'd be massive I bet
Then you might have to start seeing a future with someone who is into it. That is easier said than done but your frustrations will only get worse.
4 years
HungryAndConfused:
I've been into this fetish for years but never actually went through with it.
I'll eat alot and be super horny for a few days and then I never continue because I feel super ashamed and not sure I actually wanna go through with it. I know it's not a passing thing because I've been fantasizing about weight gain for years and havent gotten over it. I wish I wasn't like this, or had the balls to gain. Hate being stuck in the middle.
WideJuan76:
Don't be so hard on yourself; you are still young and you are starting to realize that this is a part of who you are. You are just at a crossroads; it is the anxiety of getting obese and how you have been taught that getting fat is crazy and that feels embarrassing but there is way through that because I felt the same thing before I went all in
HungryAndConfused:
So once you became fat, how did things change for you mentally?
WideJuan76:
You have to reframe it in your mind that you have a hanging gut now. You have to keep reminding yourself that you can feel your back fat grab your shirts as you wear them and that you move way more as you walk plus the fact that your walk has germinated into a waddle.
HungryAndConfused:
So accepting things as your new normal, ok, so maybe if I gained a bit of weight I could try and see if it becomes normal
Try it for yourself. Just imagine what it would look and feel like to be exactly how you see yourself in your imagination. Wouldn't that feel amazing not having to hide that ?
4 years
HungryAndConfused:
I've been into this fetish for years but never actually went through with it.
I'll eat alot and be super horny for a few days and then I never continue because I feel super ashamed and not sure I actually wanna go through with it. I know it's not a passing thing because I've been fantasizing about weight gain for years and havent gotten over it. I wish I wasn't like this, or had the balls to gain. Hate being stuck in the middle.
WideJuan76:
Don't be so hard on yourself; you are still young and you are starting to realize that this is a part of who you are. You are just at a crossroads; it is the anxiety of getting obese and how you have been taught that getting fat is crazy and that feels embarrassing but there is way through that because I felt the same thing before I went all in
HungryAndConfused:
So once you became fat, how did things change for you mentally?
WideJuan76:
You have to reframe it in your mind that you have a hanging gut now. You have to keep reminding yourself that you can feel your back fat grab your shirts as you wear them and that you move way more as you walk plus the fact that your walk has germinated into a waddle.
HungryAndConfused:
So accepting things as your new normal, ok, so maybe if I gained a bit of weight I could try and see if it becomes normal
You have to train your mind into slowly becoming that. I used meditation to help with that. Every day, I would lay back and visualize myself in that newer way until my brain had no choice to evolve and follow.
4 years
HungryAndConfused:
I've been into this fetish for years but never actually went through with it.
I'll eat alot and be super horny for a few days and then I never continue because I feel super ashamed and not sure I actually wanna go through with it. I know it's not a passing thing because I've been fantasizing about weight gain for years and havent gotten over it. I wish I wasn't like this, or had the balls to gain. Hate being stuck in the middle.
WideJuan76:
Don't be so hard on yourself; you are still young and you are starting to realize that this is a part of who you are. You are just at a crossroads; it is the anxiety of getting obese and how you have been taught that getting fat is crazy and that feels embarrassing but there is way through that because I felt the same thing before I went all in
HungryAndConfused:
So once you became fat, how did things change for you mentally?
You have to reframe it in your mind that you have a hanging gut now. You have to keep reminding yourself that you can feel your back fat grab your shirts as you wear them and that you move way more as you walk plus the fact that your walk has germinated into a waddle.
4 years
supergirl:
Question for the fatties who started out small - when did you (or someone else) notice that you started to waddle? I am curious how different people experience it.
Just recently my girlfriend commented that I waddled. Now, I don't normally waddle, it was just a few steps, an isolated incident - and I am not *that* big (about 275 lbs).
I know an ex of mine had a constant waddle at 350 lbs, but a previous ex wasn't really waddling at all and he was well over 400 lbs, so it is not just a size thing. It's got something to do with how you carry your weight, your build, and maybe your fitness too.
I didn't start waddling until I started to feel my thighs fully touch and my gut dropped into my lap and the fuda didn't help either but the transitional sensations were the best
4 years
HungryAndConfused:
I've been into this fetish for years but never actually went through with it.
I'll eat alot and be super horny for a few days and then I never continue because I feel super ashamed and not sure I actually wanna go through with it. I know it's not a passing thing because I've been fantasizing about weight gain for years and havent gotten over it. I wish I wasn't like this, or had the balls to gain. Hate being stuck in the middle.
Don't be so hard on yourself; you are still young and you are starting to realize that this is a part of who you are. You are just at a crossroads; it is the anxiety of getting obese and how you have been taught that getting fat is crazy and that feels embarrassing but there is way through that because I felt the same thing before I went all in
4 years
HungryAndConfused:
Yeah I have a bit of a fetish for "ruining" myself. I've been attractive my whole life and it would be hot to change that. Via weight gain or whatever
Yeah, I have dated women in the past who wanted the experience of what it would feel like to get fat and not be seen under the typical societal viewpoints of being "attractive"
4 years
I used to but I recently read this book by Dr. Gad Saad called The Parasitic Mind and it dealt with Idea Pathogens and how culture and our gullibility to believe fantasy based concepts comes from an evolutionary biological place. Shame and embarrassment are concepts taught to us by the culture from which we comes from and then that becomes even more solidified with our parents indoctrinating that to us. Our parents don't want us to make them look bad to their friends and society because that would mean that they failed but I moved away and went to a completely different town for the sole purpose of being that obese guy as I saw myself and the truth is that no one noticed because people are doing their own thing and could care less and because I was a stranger they didn't even know that I existed so as I gained people only saw me as the fat guy and that is what I wanted so learn to teach yourself the fact that shame and embarrassment are nothing but narcissistic thoughts that we think people care and even if some do then so what ? You have this one life; to hell with them and it takes internal work to get to that place.
4 years
I was an ex athlete and I used to show off to the crowd but that in and itself becomes its own addiction so eventually as I gained I started to realize that it was the shame and embarrassment that became a bonus that I didn't know existed with this life because it was exhilarating
4 years
