Truth is, either way I still look like Fat Albert so I will put it in when being formal while letting it hang when going to the store to let the gut breathe. Lol.

But such is the benefits of this "gift"; your vantage point changes and when you were smaller the main goal was to become intimate with someone body to body and when you date ssbbw's like I do now. You both now have fat barriers between the both of you while you are technically touching each other because you are too superobese to do it for oneself.

It depends on whom you are referring to giving you the negative comments. I could care less what some random person thinks and says because I used to get upset when I first started this but eventually that self consciousness goes away and what comes is the excitement of people saying about how fat you have gotten. It gets better as you age because once I got near forty I stopped caring about it because you realize random folks who don't know you don't really matter

I call what we have the gift because it germinates in people differently. I live the food but my addiction came with the getting fatter and building subcutaneous fat (the flabby kind). I had always been somewhat chubby and wearing compression shirts to hide the moobs and slim the gut but when I realized that I had never been cut so being that was unrealistic when I was always chubby so the crazy idea got into my head that I wanted a gut. Then after that, can I get it to the point where it would hang ? Can I go from a 38 in jeans to a 48 ? Can I get to a size 52 in jeans ? So, I hide taken the obsession of being a damn near pro level athlete to can I be that lard ass that I saw in my dreams but was too self conscious to actually try and be so that became an obsession all onto itself...

Ask yourself if this lifestyle is something that you truly want and can you practically do it. So many people want the lifestyle without fully knowing what comes with it. You will have to choose if you want a one level house or if you want an apartment it has to be on the ground level because as you gain too many steps become your archenemy. As far as your boyfriend goes, once you isolate that this is something you really want then it won't last long. The biggest pink elephant in the room is dating folks who don't get our lifestyle and the confusion that comes with it because there will be comparison anxiety there. Your family may or may not judge you and they have their own goals for us but we have to lead our own life. I have two on and off situations with folks in our lifestyle and I had always wanted the experience of moving away and getting as fat as I could and that taught me that if you can't get your family on board then screen and select your own COTERIE who reciprocate to you what you give to them because sometimes families don't come around. Mine didn't and that is all good but I just waddled to those who could get it and appreciate it.

Yeah, there is an addiction there. Whether it is the addiction to eat non-stop or the addiction to seeing yourself ballin; it comes with it when you cross that bridge to eating yourself into oblivian. Your neighbor is activating her need to nurture which it at the core of some women who like enabling the fat addiction.

Added to the fact that most won't tell you that they get off to the embarrassment of it. It shows to them that you have become a creature so intent on your addiction that you have traded the desire to mate with the desire to expand.

Yeah, but it was the fat that I was gaining which was subcutaneous fat which is the softer type of fat and that was the entire point to take up space and to see the flabby fat move almost at all times.

I recently met an ex who had some of the exact same behavior and she taught me about how some women SUBCOMMUNICATE and that some women will show that they have concern for you but it was actually concern for the social status that they will have being with you because in our social climate; being an obese man isn't a status symbol nor is it status worthy for some of them. This bit of information taught me to date those who come from a culture in which fat is seen as a positive and it has helped me tremendously.

I have always liked bigger women ever since I was a child. Whether it came from watching eighties sitcom and having the female character gain alot of or from just having a fat character there; just to see one made me realize that I liked bigger women. Fast forward to my college days was when I felt that I could date whom I wanted with confidence. I was brought into this lifestyle by women I dated but what I learned then as that for most this was just a part time fancy to get off to and not a full lifestyle. After years of trying to meet women whom I liked in the lifestyle to no success; eventually I turned it inward. It started eating more than usual in private and I didn't think anyone noticed but when I moved away was when it went full fledged because no one knew me there and the crazy idea popped into my head that I would be that neighborhood fat man and it took off from there. I even see myself moving again and expanding even more.