Yeah, I have dated women in the past who wanted the experience of what it would feel like to get fat and not be seen under the typical societal viewpoints of being "attractive"

I used to but I recently read this book by Dr. Gad Saad called The Parasitic Mind and it dealt with Idea Pathogens and how culture and our gullibility to believe fantasy based concepts comes from an evolutionary biological place. Shame and embarrassment are concepts taught to us by the culture from which we comes from and then that becomes even more solidified with our parents indoctrinating that to us. Our parents don't want us to make them look bad to their friends and society because that would mean that they failed but I moved away and went to a completely different town for the sole purpose of being that obese guy as I saw myself and the truth is that no one noticed because people are doing their own thing and could care less and because I was a stranger they didn't even know that I existed so as I gained people only saw me as the fat guy and that is what I wanted so learn to teach yourself the fact that shame and embarrassment are nothing but narcissistic thoughts that we think people care and even if some do then so what ? You have this one life; to hell with them and it takes internal work to get to that place.

I was an ex athlete and I used to show off to the crowd but that in and itself becomes its own addiction so eventually as I gained I started to realize that it was the shame and embarrassment that became a bonus that I didn't know existed with this life because it was exhilarating

Truth is, either way I still look like Fat Albert so I will put it in when being formal while letting it hang when going to the store to let the gut breathe. Lol.

But such is the benefits of this "gift"; your vantage point changes and when you were smaller the main goal was to become intimate with someone body to body and when you date ssbbw's like I do now. You both now have fat barriers between the both of you while you are technically touching each other because you are too superobese to do it for oneself.

It depends on whom you are referring to giving you the negative comments. I could care less what some random person thinks and says because I used to get upset when I first started this but eventually that self consciousness goes away and what comes is the excitement of people saying about how fat you have gotten. It gets better as you age because once I got near forty I stopped caring about it because you realize random folks who don't know you don't really matter

I call what we have the gift because it germinates in people differently. I live the food but my addiction came with the getting fatter and building subcutaneous fat (the flabby kind). I had always been somewhat chubby and wearing compression shirts to hide the moobs and slim the gut but when I realized that I had never been cut so being that was unrealistic when I was always chubby so the crazy idea got into my head that I wanted a gut. Then after that, can I get it to the point where it would hang ? Can I go from a 38 in jeans to a 48 ? Can I get to a size 52 in jeans ? So, I hide taken the obsession of being a damn near pro level athlete to can I be that lard ass that I saw in my dreams but was too self conscious to actually try and be so that became an obsession all onto itself...

Ask yourself if this lifestyle is something that you truly want and can you practically do it. So many people want the lifestyle without fully knowing what comes with it. You will have to choose if you want a one level house or if you want an apartment it has to be on the ground level because as you gain too many steps become your archenemy. As far as your boyfriend goes, once you isolate that this is something you really want then it won't last long. The biggest pink elephant in the room is dating folks who don't get our lifestyle and the confusion that comes with it because there will be comparison anxiety there. Your family may or may not judge you and they have their own goals for us but we have to lead our own life. I have two on and off situations with folks in our lifestyle and I had always wanted the experience of moving away and getting as fat as I could and that taught me that if you can't get your family on board then screen and select your own COTERIE who reciprocate to you what you give to them because sometimes families don't come around. Mine didn't and that is all good but I just waddled to those who could get it and appreciate it.

Yeah, there is an addiction there. Whether it is the addiction to eat non-stop or the addiction to seeing yourself ballin; it comes with it when you cross that bridge to eating yourself into oblivian. Your neighbor is activating her need to nurture which it at the core of some women who like enabling the fat addiction.

Added to the fact that most won't tell you that they get off to the embarrassment of it. It shows to them that you have become a creature so intent on your addiction that you have traded the desire to mate with the desire to expand.