Yeah, but it was the fat that I was gaining which was subcutaneous fat which is the softer type of fat and that was the entire point to take up space and to see the flabby fat move almost at all times.

I recently met an ex who had some of the exact same behavior and she taught me about how some women SUBCOMMUNICATE and that some women will show that they have concern for you but it was actually concern for the social status that they will have being with you because in our social climate; being an obese man isn't a status symbol nor is it status worthy for some of them. This bit of information taught me to date those who come from a culture in which fat is seen as a positive and it has helped me tremendously.

I have always liked bigger women ever since I was a child. Whether it came from watching eighties sitcom and having the female character gain alot of or from just having a fat character there; just to see one made me realize that I liked bigger women. Fast forward to my college days was when I felt that I could date whom I wanted with confidence. I was brought into this lifestyle by women I dated but what I learned then as that for most this was just a part time fancy to get off to and not a full lifestyle. After years of trying to meet women whom I liked in the lifestyle to no success; eventually I turned it inward. It started eating more than usual in private and I didn't think anyone noticed but when I moved away was when it went full fledged because no one knew me there and the crazy idea popped into my head that I would be that neighborhood fat man and it took off from there. I even see myself moving again and expanding even more.

I agree with Ditzy that you have to get used to it. We really think at first that people are really paying us attention but most people are dealing with their own problems and they could care less. My ex is a college professor and she actually introduced me into being a feeder but over time I became a feedee and I got over my embarrassment and I had to own my fat instead of feeling judged by it

Dolkite:
I remember loving the scene in The Little Mermaid when Ursula turned back into her octopus form and the wedding dress ripped right off her.

quiverdream:
This scene x100, I'm happy I'm not the only one who thinks of it. Plus later in the movie's climactic scene where she starts huffing and puffing and makes herself grow and grow. Goddamn, someone at Disney animation studios had something going on. (Also yes to whoever was talking about Spirited Away . . . both when the parents turn into pigs and then later when No Face has eaten people and everything in the resort, and has grown to be the size of the big room he's in, his body sloshing around.)

I remember a few instances. My earliest exposure was to the Nutty Professor with Eddie Murphy of all people; I was maybe three or four when I was watching that and I still remember how that ridiculous movie made me feel.
A classmate's mother was also morbidly obese. She would do substitute teaching sometimes, and I still recall that she was so heavy, some very soft looking flab would stick up over the tops of her flats.

Then in college at one point I was paying the most innocent of compliments to a guy who was *way* too slim to be called "fat", and someone said "maybe you're a chubby chaser". Everyone else got a chuckle out of it but I was stammering and blushing, because they'd inadvertently given me that "bingo!" moment, and it wouldn't leave my mind for months until I started coming to terms with it.[/quote] Yeah, the Nutty Professor scene in which he got so fat that he kept expanding made me realize that I wanted to be obese. I had always been attracted to characters who got fat in scenes in the future and that started everything for me. When I went to college was when I realized that I liked bigger women because I had a associate professor who was around four hundred pounds and I had the craziest crush on her.

It is mostly a social and cultural thing. Because we here in the States have a Eurocentric culture so most of what I perpetuated is folks being direly think when in Black culture especially southern culture there are plenty of women who do nothing but feed their men so it depends on the subculture and where dudes are actually located at.

Most don't know what it takes to navigate the psychological landscape to purposely eat oneself into oblivion. Hell, we were academics so we even asked nutritionists about what fat could I gain so that it would be the kind of fat that would hang and sag.

She used it her benefit because she knew that I knew that she was in control of how I released myself because I couldn't sexually release without her help. It was playfully sadistic. Lol

It was a wonderful experience and yes, you need a cold shower. Just imagine how it feels that you have to depend on someone else to get you off because even if you lay back; I was way too obese to reach myself. 🐽🐽🐽🐽🐽

My stomach has always been a problem area for me since my days as a football player but when I got with my ex and she took my down the rabbit hole called Feederism; it has morphed tremendously and to go from one extreme to other is a quirky experience. I went from a ball belly to a hanging gut and the fat I gained was extra squishy due to all of th subcutaneous fat that I agreed that I would gain due to her wanting to be my feeder to the point I surpassed her. Not only did I develop a hanging fat apron; the fat in my hip, thighs and crotch area grew tremendously so once you lay back and can't see past your gut to then dig your member out; I knew then that I was in a territory of extreme obesity but I knew that one day if I kept this up that I might be one of the people on My 600 Pound Life and that turned her completely on but scared me because sexually I was completely dependent on her to get me off and she would use it to her advantage. She had a reward system that if I didn't eat what she gave me then I would not "get off" if she had anything to do with it. Lol.🐽🐽🐽🐽🐽🐽