Like what exactly?
Why don't you put what you feel fits you the best and leave it at that?

Jeff Scott Soto,
Eclipse,
W.E.T.

I agree with Edxl.
My ex husband and I had marital problems (his cheating) and I gained 60 lbs basically just to spite him.
His" lady" had to be fit and trim is what he always said.
Being seen with a chubby wife with a big muffin top and fat ass was his worse nightmare.
I loved the extra weight and finally having curves.
A few years after our divorce I let go and really got into gaining and I don't regret it one bit.

Not sure Torrid carries anything in a 40.
Check Woman Within's website.
When I was a 40 I bought from their site quite often.
Catherine's is a store I shopped it a lot and they went up to 42.
As far as I know Catherine's has closed some stores but still might have a web site you could buy from.

Never really gave it any thought.

I have eaten all over the USA and the South by far has the best food.
Not saying the North east is bad food its just the attitude of the people serving it.
The South west food is amazing and Northern California has some great food.
You would be surprised how many people have the same kink as you but they won't admit it, At least you will and thats a good thing.

I remember Kelli from back in the beginning she was such a sweet person to chat with online.
I kept a thinner face as well until the last few years so I would say its a genetic thing.
Why people keep thinking you can choose where the fat goes because you can't.

Absolutely do not tell your parents at this point in your life.
They really don't want to know about your fetish or kinks.
I don't understand the young folks these days feeling they have to tell everything to their parents and even strangers.
You are 19 and still at home so you are constrained to some degree and thats just the way it is right now so hang in there until you can get out on your own.
I know its tough we have all been thru it.
Just keep your emotions on all of this in check for now and don't discuss it with them because you are going to make things worse than it needs to be.
I used to be so hard headed growing up and caused most of my problems with my parents so trust me I have been there.
I was about 28 when I really started gaining and even then my Mom was always commenting on how fat I had gotten.
Truth be told I didn't tell her I was a gainer until my late 30s.
It was pretty obvious because I was 300 pounds by then.

I have been here off and on for al least 12 years and this site is a lot different than it used to be.
Seems to have turned into a pay to play kind of thing.
That has brought the guys that assume I am here to service them with naked videos.
Also guys that travel and ask if I travel thru where you live can we have dinner and sex?
They don't seem to realize how cheap that makes a woman feel.
The guys here back in the day at least had some class.

Thanks !! LOLOL