Wife and I are both back sleepers primarily. She starts off on her side but always ends up on her back with what used to be her neck sinking into an ocean of fat that is her chest. Belly pokes up straight into the air as her shirt rides up :-)
2 years
Breaking toilet seats is a thing in our house. Wife and I have ripped a few off their bolts with the size of our growing bodies :-)
2 years
Karenjenk:
Never in my wildest dreams or fantasy did i imagine i would end up like this.
I have struggled with gaining, mentally, emotionally and physically. I have almost completely accepted that this is how i am for the rest of my life and plan to reach my LAST goal weight within the year. 400 lbs
I like several things about my body. 1. everything about me is soft. My lower stomach feels softer than a breast and its smooth and cool.
the feeling of being so full that i cant move at all is erotic. its hard to get to this point by myself though.
shame - as much as it disgusts me to admit this.. there is a part of me that feels the need to be shamed. the way people look at me sometimes makes me wither , especially people who knew the before me. whispers about how i need to... eat a salad... push away from the table... mooo...pop... so many hurt on multiple levels but also excite me. which makes me feel worse.
About a week ago i went to a MS transition ceremony. It was a small class of about 250 students about to move from MS to HS.
We were almost late and had to sit near the front which meant walking down in front of all those people right as the music played for them to walk in.
My BFF laughed at me and how i looked. she took a pic of me while we stood up and turned to see them all walk in. Her son was in the group of graduates. she sent the pic she took of me to me and i was shocked at how gross i looked in the dress. I couldnt even blame dinner before the ceremony for making me look like a pile of different sizes of michellen tires squeezed into a light green balloon.
I fought back tears through the ceremony as she quietly apologized.. backhanded apologies are the worst.
manage to put on a smile for the kiddo afterward and tried to stear clear of the pics
You’re probably quite beautiful and shouldn’t be shamed like that. Could be time to find some friends that are a bit more accepting of peoples’ weight choices?
2 years
Judging just from this thread, I’ll stick to my faves from the Coen Bros. and anything with Paul Giamatti in it :-)
2 years
Sounds like you have a good plan going. Indeed it can be intoxicating to let things go, But it’s probably for the best you try to maintain now. My wife is about 340 pounds you could probably get up to 500 as well, but we are wary of how difficult it can be to get around at that weight. All the best in maintaining!
2 years
Wifey increasingly enjoys running her belly and upper thigh areas when laying flat on her back in bed or on the sofa. Her shirts always ride up, showing the burst-can-of-biscuits effect with her belly rolls :-)
2 years
My wife and I don’t let it bother us. The best buffets in our area happen to be Asian fare. So we scarf down all the sushi, fried rice and more that we can handle :-)
2 years
Ditzy:
I have noticed gainers going all out for a year or so get to a point they just look like they don't feel so good.
Mostly the fast food junkies.
They gain a lot for sure.
I could never eat at the golden arches without getting sick so that tipped me off that something in the food wasn't right.
I have to agree that home cooking is best :-)
2 years
