kaia wrote:
The irony is that I usually experience nausea and pain every night after my bedtime snack, which makes for a very fitful night's sleep. It's hard to find a comfortable position when that full.
I'm trying to eat more during the day so I don't have to scramble to meet my daily calorie goals before bed (my late night snack is usually about 2-3k)
You may want to change your nighttime snack a bit. Try something different, perhaps blander foods like bread or cheese. Also, going to sleep in a sitting position after such a huge snack is better for you -- and less painful or nausea-inducing!
10 years
kaia wrote:
I think what I feel when I don't eat enough is anxiety rather than guilt. I beat myself up for not eating enough, and get anxious that I'm not going to gain as a result of my undereating.
You are young, Kaia. Don't beat yourself up over this! At your age, don't worry. Soon, that metabolism will slow, and you will have the time of your life with greater gains than you have ever imagined.
10 years
I appreciate your saying that, TG! I think one reason Christians have so much to fear here and various places on the internet is that we allow others to stereotype us and categorize us.
We need to show people that yes, there can be such a thing as a Christian FA, feeder, feedee or FFA! Why not? What in the Bible specifically forbids us from enjoying good food and our bodies?
Even Jesus was accused of gluttony by the powers-that-be of his time. Notice how much time is spent on the discussion of food and feasting in the Gospels. There was wine, fish, bread for all! While fasting has a place in many Christian traditions, Jesus was all about overabundance, plenty, feasting, consumption and joy in eating and drinking.
When Jesus changes the water to wine, he makes more than enough for all! When he produces the loaves and fishes to feed the crowd, they fill their bellies, and still there is plenty left over.
And the Song of Solomon and Psalms definitely affirm the notion that our bodies were meant for enjoyment and physical pleasures.
We should not allow others to pigeonhole us as right-wing crazies or fundamentalists simply because those are the Christians who are making the most horrific noises in our society.
Christianity is certainly about much, much more than the narrow definitions some want to cast, and it has nothing to do with the hatred spewed by racists and misogynists who shout into megaphones in the public square.
There are those of us who are quieter and more reflective, as our religion calls upon us to be. We are those who see in Jesus not a call to judge but a call to love. The 10 commandments do not forbid gluttony or self-love or the enjoyment of feasting. Neither does Jesus's great commission to love God and love our neighbors as ourselves. Indeed, this is an acknowledgement that we should love ourselves aplenty, but also love our fellow human beings just as much.
Sorry for getting all preachy here, but people like you and I, TG, need to fight the preconceptions that others have about us -- much like peaceful Muslims who must fight against the prejudiced narrow-minded notion that Islam is inherently violent.
Best to you, and again, sorry for such long posts, but I find myself determined to assert that God -- whatever your religion -- is love, and the Christian God is all about love, love for self, love for others, and the serving others, and allowing others to serve and feed you, etc.
In conclusion, there is really nothing in Christianity which prevents us from enjoying gaining weight, eating good food, enjoying our lovers' bodies, serving our lovers delicious foods, and all the other hallmarks of feederism.
10 years
Elanor wrote:
What is this God-thing you speak of?
God is a dyslexic's best friend.
Joking aside, I know there are many Christians here who face all kinds of discrmination/hatred for being hedonstic decadent joy-loving fat-growing "sinners"!
Gawd, I wrote so much! Anyway, just trying to put "sin" in perspective for those who suffer through Lent.
It should not be a time of suffering but a time of reflection and change - change for the better, and I don't mean losing weight or giving up donuts!
10 years
Many here are observing Christians, and we find the way the church and society approach Lent to be something anti-fat, anti-eating, anti-weight gain.
But it doesn't need to be. As we prepare for Easter, this can still be a time of reflection and joy as well (in eating and gaining)!
I hate that so many people view Lent as something in which you must deny yourself of something pleasurable to the body -- sexual activity, food, smoking, drinking, drugging, etc.
But really, doesn't the Christian God call us to sacrifices that have more to do with our souls and hearts than our bodies.
I think the notion that we need deny our bodies pleasure is one reason so many turn from religion.
It doesn't have to be that way, and really it isn't.
One approach to Lent is to make your sacrifices positive rather than negative -- promoting some soul-enhancing activity instead of denying some "sinful" activity! This could be as simple (and as complicated for some) as random acts of kindness, handing our $20 bills to the homeless, serving others in some reflective way, keeping a "blessing" journal of all your blessings, reflecting upon your personal gifts of grace, hugging your kids more, loving your loved ones more, mending fences with those who you have disagreed with.
How much more in the spirit of Christianity all those "sacrifices" would be than something as mindless and corporal as giving up chocolate or coffee!
I found the following poem/prayer to be most instructive on these notions. Let us fast against our hatred/prejudices, and let us feast upon our joys/loves/heart/soul!
Here is the poem/prayer. I just came across it, and I don't know the author's name and have found it listed as "unknown":
"The Fast Life" or "True Lenten Discipline"
Fast from judging others;
Feast on Christ dwelling in them.
Fast from fear of illness;
Feast on the healing power of God.
Fast from words that pollute;
Feast on speech that purifies.
Fast from discontent;
Feast on gratitude.
Fast from anger;
Feast on patience.
Fast from pessimism;
Feast on hope.
Fast from negatives;
Feast on encouragement.
Fast from bitterness;
Feast on forgiveness.
Fast from self-concern;
Feast on compassion.
Fast from suspicion;
Feast on truth.
Fast from gossip;
Feast on purposeful silence.
Fast from problems that overwhelm;
Feast on prayer that sustains.
Fast from anxiety;
Feast on faith.
May all have a wonderful Lent! Give in to the joys of life! Don't give up your dark chocolate! Give up your dark moods/emotions/behaviors!
Have a great day, all, and keep living life to the fullest!
Zonker
10 years
TheGreedyFox wrote:Mmmm some of the ideas I'm reading here are so hot, I'm loving every word of it
My girlfriend is really into the whole concept of force feeding me and wants me tied down to a chair so she can forcefully stuff rich tasty food into my mouth until I'm so full I literally can't eat anymore.
We're sort of in a long distance relationship at the moment and I only visit her every month or so for a weekend at a time so she wants to make it all count as much as possible towards my gain. We're aiming for around 10,000 calories per sitting which I'm not even sure is possible!! Guess I'll have to find out ey?!
She wants to do it so that before I even finish chewing what's in my mouth she'll stuff something else in there, and if I ever hiccup or choke she'll wash it down with good ol' eggnog. I'm really excited for it and the whole idea of her restraining me and having to just sit there and take really turns me on <3
Congratulations!
You have just made one of the hottest threads on here even hotter!
10 years
SkinnyCollegeBelly wrote:
One of my fantasies is to have a fit and cute girl fatten me up with all of the delicious things in life. She wants to eat them so badly and decides to take it out on me by feeding it to me. Every dip and side dish, every eclair and brownie, and every heavy dark beer that she is just dying to have being forced on me. Then as the pounds slowly pile on she starts teasing me about how thick I'm getting and how soft my body has become. How all of those nights of three course meals have added to my waistline and how my belly looks bloated at all hours of the day. She'll think she's in control, but the jokes on her because once I'm big enough, all of those months of Pilates and running won't mean a thing when she has 220lbs of me in bed. 220lbs of stretch marked fat that she'll be too weak to push me around in bed. The only way she'll have any say in the bed is if she starts packing on some pounds. Then once she puts on enough weight to throw me around a bit, I'll just start to put on more so she has to keep gaining if she wants any sort of domination in the bedroom.
You should write a story detailing this fantasy. I love the table-turning aspects of it!
10 years
zturn23 wrote:So does that mean I can make a guy eat tons of pork and he'll wear a piggy nose!?
"Porking out" on "pork" so you can get "porked"?
Sounds like a lot of fun!
I will add here the notion that eating round and soft things will make you round and soft:
donuts
cookies
cakes
pies
They also make one sweeter!
Mmmm, maybe that is why I become so grumpy when eating bitter chocolate?
10 years
Ghouliette wrote:
I love the idea of playfully teasing a feedee about eating them, or some food play (Apple in the mouth, tied up, that kind of thing.)
Another thing that really gets me is the idea of a feeder having perfectly innocent intentions, but the feedee/friend of feedee suspects the feeder of fattening them for a meal.
I love that last idea also, the fear/uncertainty -- "Why is she/he so interested in my eating? My weight? Why does he/she appear to be licking his/her lips all the time."
This combined fantasy appeals on so many levels:
Both for feeder and feedee -- being fattened to become a meal, and the anticipation of fattening yourself upon another.
Animal/livestock -- Becoming a pig or a cow. For some, the notion of "prey" or "predatory" is exciting.
So related to various sexual acts symbolically -- the "eating" of your lover/oral sex. Being prepared for a "feast"/foreplay. Put in the "oven"/obvious penetration, being inside a "hot" place!
All very exciting stuff...
10 years
lighthousecouple wrote:
Cow play is definitely an interest of ours. We bought an electric breast pump Friday night and have started pumping to induce.
Wow! Now this is where it gets interesting, does it not?
Because it's one thing to "Moo" or wear a cow's tail or outfit, get down on all fours, etc.
But this is something I suspect many of us desire -- the women who wished to be milked, to have creamy milk gushing from their "udders" and the men who wish to perhaps enjoy "milking" their partners.
Who all likes this aspect of this fetish enough to pursue it to these ends?
I think I do.
If only I could find the right girl . . .
10 years
