I have a pretty cynical view of the long distance feeder "relationships" that currently comprise the lion's share of the online connections made in the community. The true real life, committed partnership seems to be far and few between when girls say they have a feeder "relationship"...

That said, I absolutely do go in waves of interest as a feeder. Sometimes I just like to relish how heavy my wife currently is - I'm not trying to get her to be some 500lb cow. Other times it's because she's in a feedee wave where she's dictating the eating out and constantly stuffing herself wherein I can finally sit back and watch her go.

But there's always an inherited selfishness about it. It's almost always the selfishness that renews my passion to get her pushed past a plateau. Usually it's when her clothes are crazy tight and she doesn't want to buy new ones. She'll make it clear that she temporarily doesn't want to gain any more weight. It's moments like these where I feel selfish and go into pamper mode to see her easily cave and put on another 10lbs to get her moving up in pants.

As every good feeder knows "new pants = new gains"!

Is this some long distance feeder simply shuttling you money or a legit partner that you spend real face-to-face time daily bonding with and sharing life together??

Aside from the visuals really enhancing the female form, for me it's the reality that the person is "out of control" or is submissive – they're overpowered by their own gluttony and the power of food. There's something inherently kinky about it.

Even as I child I was always turned on by kinky mind control stories. It's a very large genre in literotica and has many ties to feederism IMO. MCStories.com is a great site btw.

Heavy people may try to hide their fatness, get teased for it...or they may be super confident, highly successful in their career and seem like they have it all together....but at the end of the day, inside everyone knows, that person is going home at night and submits their mind and body over to food. They can't stop it. And the evidence is plain to see as they grow and grow....their gluttony literally transforming their body and face.

Just read patient reviews of Zyprexa (Olanzapine). 3 Million people on it in the US alone. Gaining 15lbs the first 3 weeks and 100+lbs the first year is very common. And these are folks often fighting the weight gain the entire time. They truly read like WG fiction how much the drug makes you obsess about food.

And of course the freshman 15 is real because of alcohol. Not only massive in calories, but essentially stunts your metabolism.

I had an ex-girlfriend who didn't start partying hard until her sophomore year. That fall she was putting back easily a 12-18 pack of beer everyday. From Sept to spring break she put on 75lbs - ALL beer weight. On Facebook, she is absolutely massive in photos now – always a beer in her hand.

You'll need to add a fiber supplement like Metamucil to help with digestion. And do your best so the majority of the calories aren't coming from dairy (if you're doing this long term). It's hard on the digestive system after a couple months. Olive oil and peanut butter are just as calorically dense, healthier and much easier to absorb.

I've mentioned before that my skinny fit wife became a web designer. She was initially on the marketing team as a designer where it was predominantly gorgeous young women and a daily beauty contest of one-up man ship. Segueing into web design, the web team was...... a little different.

She made fun of how all her team members were such stereotypes: severely overweight, sloppy, web coding nerds that order donuts everyday. She even once made a statement "I can't believe they can eat that stuff all day."

6 years later, she's now totally slobbed out, fat, wears glasses and brags about volunteering to pick up the Krispy Kremes so she can order a couple special donuts for herself with the corporate card each morning. Has empty vending machine trash on her desk like the rest of them. Eats all of the same junk for lunch with them. Even started watching a couple of of the same sci-fi Netflix series as them.

It's funny how much your coworkers can influence your habits. Being around obese people has definitely "normalized" behavior to her that I never could have done as a slim feeder.

Don't expect a miracle. Many here have tried apetamin and thought it was a waste.

No, there's really no difference other than cyproheptadine lasts longer. But it's FAR more expensive unless you can get a script.

It doesn't work on H2. H2 was initially brought up when we were discussing the 'mother of hunger drugs': Zyprexa – which alters H1 & H2 & Ghrelin: all of the appetite signals.

It controls appetite as well. But Gen 1 anti-histamines don't effect it though. This is why stronger drugs that affect both receptors are responsible for much more weight gain.

Only affects H1. Two standard adult doses a day are fine. I would structure them around times where you can eat and the drowsiness will not be a nuisance. H1 histamine receptors control both appetite and alertness. So the more appetite inducing...the more sleepiness.