Angy523:
I forgot to mention that he told me I didn't notice he gained 2kgs. I did a big mistake here, I know I should've told him that I noticed and I love it, but I just didn't say anything. I tried to fix it later and remind him how much I love his belly.
And this is why I say communicate
Yes I am from America. However, despite our sexualized media, we tend to be a bunch of prudes. The average American often will not have an open and honest conversation with their partner about their needs, wants, and fears in the bedroom.
I see it all the time. It becomes a comedy of errors that strains the relationship. And from the outside looking in, it could be so easily resolved if they just talked. I promise you, we are not as ahead of Russia as you might think.
Still, relationships where you can have open and honest conversations about anything and everything tend to last longer than the ones that don't. And that is because it's so much easier to strengthen the relationship and head off potential problems that way.
I know you say you can't talk about these things because of your culture. Frankly, that's not true. And I know this becuase your boyfriend shows all the signs of being willing to talk.
You are just scared. Plain and simple. Every single time you mention a desire of yours and how you can't tell your boyfriend about it "because we don't do that here" he always turns out to be okay with it. Even excited to do it.
I say communicate because it works. I do it with my feedee all the time. Even though I am his domme, I am not afraid to be vulnerable with him and tell him what's going on. He does the same thing with me as well. We comfort each other and figure out how to navigate our concerns.