Waking up in the middle of the night for the sole purpose of topping off with food, after going to bed stuffed to the brim. Then waking up in the morning and eating again immediately. That was back in my 25,000 calorie a day era!

I'm not too tall (5'3" and about 640 pounds currently. Once I reached about 600, mobility-related issues piled on, and while not confined to bed, I do rely on my husband for many things. I have a very large girth and a round belly, so much so that I haven't been able to reach my belly button in a while. To get everything thoroughly clean, I use assistive tools, like sponges and loofahs on an extender, as well as a special handheld shower head, to clean up. I'm too big to fit my whole body in conventional showers, so I sit on a bariatric shower chair and turn as needed. The process of showering and getting dressed takes about two and a half hours every morning. I also have special tools for when I potty as well as an elevated bariatric toilet apparatus with heavy duty handle bars. I'm no longer able to use bathrooms away from home.

I no longer drive, which is definitely a downside. We have a minivan, and in the past year, I've gotten too big to be comfortable in the front passenger seat, so I have to sit in the second row. Getting a ride share also presents challenges. An Uber XL is necessary, and even then, I have to play with the app until I get a large vehicle like a van or Chevy Tahoe. On more than one occasion, I've had an Uber Driver "arrive" and then pull away after seeing me. That one stings s little, but oh well.

Clothing is a challenge. I have two websites that sell 10x's. Those can be tight on my belly depending on the cut, so I choose fabrics and styles very carefully. It's also quite expensive. If I want something other than loungewear, I've found hiring someone online for custom made pieces is my only option. I also choose carefully so I can dress myself. I have four custom pullover sundresses I can put on without help.i use a grabber with a little claw if I wear underwear.

Finally, because my mobility is so restricted, it's SOOO easy to gain weight. My husband has been helping me eat clean, but even staying at my recommended maintenance calories, I easily gain a couple of pounds a week without realizing it. I'm not trying to lose, but because of mobility, I also don't want to get much bigger. My husband helps me with fitting exercises, including a little weightlifting, to keep strong.

Yes, I'd agree with JohnXYZ. A 28W usually equals a 3XL. By the time someone is in these sizes, they are usually guaranteed to be more than just "regular fat".

This is so very accurate. When I was at the height of my stuffing habits and weight gain, I was packing in as much food as I could possibly hold repeatedly during the day and topping off every time the pressure eased up. Eventually, I perceived not being completely engorged as being hungry, and I couldn't sleep unless my belly was stuffed tight. Of course, I blew up and struggled mightily with easing up, but those were incredible times!

When I was actively gaining, I'd always, always eat before going out to dinner, and particularly if going to dinner at someone's home. That didn't preclude a fast food stop on the way home either.

My non-food-related fat habits include choosing outings based on seating, looking extensively at photos of the interior of restaurants to make sure chairs look sturdy enough before committing to go, and shaking chairs to make sure they're sturdy before deciding to transfer from my scooter.

I'm well over 600 pounds, and I never actually intended to have the mobility issues I'm experiencing. I like the way I look at this size, so I'm not saying I have regrets. However, I do find there are a lot of things I miss out on because I no longer drive, tire easily, and find many public spaces I can't navigate. I'm also no longer intentionally gaining, but my weight is still going up even with regular portions and seated exercises. So I guess to answer the question, my obesity and fat are a turn on to me, but not the immobility.

I wouldn't get all worked up over Ozempic. I was on it for my Type 2 diabetes, and I still put on weight without intentionally overeating

Honestly, years of overeating and stuffing were probably a factor. At the time, I also often pushed my belly capacity when I was stuffed by chugging soda. Doing so daily led to an enormous appetite and wild weight gain.

I think your experience is incredibly common. I was obese throughout childhood and my teen years. A few years ago, I intentionally lost weight, at one point reaching 190 lb, which was the smallest I'd been since middle school. Of course, compliments poured in, but I wasn't happy and felt like a stranger in my own body. When I decided to regain intentionally, I truly threw myself into it. The first 50 pounds I regained gave me an enormous rock hard potbelly, and I loved it. Previously, my weight was more distributed, and I was enamored with the fact I was gaining differently. I wanted to get bigger and see how far I could push it. I got into super stuffing, which rapidly increased my appetite and belly capacity (decreased my bank account significantly though!) During my most aggressive gaining spurts, I would regularly eat more than 20,000 calories a day, more if I was pushing myself. If I had a day in which I only ate 5,000 calories, I felt very hungry and deprived. Still, I was enjoying getting fatter and fatter, and I didn't want to stop until I had a medical emergency. I've made lifestyle changes since, though I've definitely had periods of indulgence and probably will in the future. Now though, my weight creeps upward regardless, even with cleaner eating and maintenance calories. I have some major mobility issues, and that contributes.

Do I have regrets? Yes and no. I love my body, and I like the way I look. I also wish I didn't have some of the health issues I live with. I know some of them could be addressed if I committed to lose weight and stuck with it. I haven't wanted to, so far, because again, I love being this fat .. but I'm aware it may be medically necessary in the future.

I said all that to to say, gaining is absolutely addictive and it can become very difficult to stop. I know for some folks health issues and immobility are a turn on too, and to each their own! But if that's not something you're interested in, I recommend pacing yourself, which you seem to be doing ,and keeping your muscles strong. I didn't, not consistently anyway, and now the trade-off is my lifestyle is much more limited than most. 30-year-olds.

I'm pretty obese, and you don't get to be my size without some softness and jiggle, but I still have a surprisingly firm belly for someone super sized, as though some squish is stretched tightly over a giant ball. I've also noticed, during my most extreme gaining spurts, the weight has almost exclusively gone to my gut. During more gradual gaining periods, I've gotten softer. This may not be the case for everyone, but I truly do think there may be something to the rate of gain