Jelly Rolls:
So I’m not proud of my little fatphobia habit. I know I have hurt people yet I feel this compulsion to hurt people (fat acceptance and fat proud people) because I have this deep internalized disgusted feeling towards my sexuality. I have always harassed fat people and told them that they are fundamentally wrong for being ok/being positive about being fat. I do this because I think the fact that I am a feeder and feedee is fundamentally and morally wrong. I just feel a release of guilt when I put happy fat people down. I can’t stand myself for being into this stuff, yet then I am so drawn to it and think it’s so sexy. I just feel that I am a broken person and I like to repent for it by “doing what’s morally right” and bullying fat positive people into hating themselves and believing that they are bad people like me. I just don’t know how to cope with all this hate. I wish I felt free but I know that the world hates me like I hate myself. I wanna be fat and flabby and enjoy it but I can’t help but think I am disgusting.

TacticalMilk:
Has anyone on here gone from fit to fat due to too many protein shakes/bulking shakes whether on purpose or not?

Also if anyone knows any good and affordable chocolate protein shakes let me know as well,in trying to put on weight with excess protein

Munchies:
Be careful with that because too much protien can mess up your kidneys.

TacticalMilk:
Does it matter if I work out or not and how much is too much?

TacticalMilk:
Has anyone on here gone from fit to fat due to too many protein shakes/bulking shakes whether on purpose or not?

Also if anyone knows any good and affordable chocolate protein shakes let me know as well,in trying to put on weight with excess protein

Chubbybellyguy:
I tried finding a female feeder but they are so rare seems impossible 😂

MalyPrinc:
I'm Czech and I'm athletic too. I think it's advantage to be athletic. In Czechia there are 67 % of men overweight or obese, so ideally 67 % of women should prefer overweight or obese men, but this number will be lower.

Btw, it's nice to see how many beautiful girls prefer athletic guys.

Munchies:
Of course lower physical attraction doesn't negate love. However, the way you went about it was a bit ... emotionally oblivious.

Don't get me wrong. You did the right thing telling him that you will support him losing weight. But your reaction was a bit ... demoralizing.

Everyone wants their partner to love them and find them attractive. To say, quite viscerally, that you will find your partner less attractive after he worked up the courage to tell you he wants to lose weight stings. And you know he worked up the courage to tell you because he was shocked that you didn't try to argue him about him losing weight.

Imagine if he told you that he'd be less attracted to you if you lost some of your curves. It would hurt even though you know he loves you.

My boyfriend is about 500 lbs. He wants to lose some weight for health and comfort related reasons. He's already joined a gym and goes 3 times a week.

He knows I love him, but he feels secure that my attraction to him will be the same. How did I manage that? Because I found several different reasons to find him attractive. So even if he lost one of the things I found attractive about him, I have several other reasons to be attracted to him.

Angy523:
I agree with almost everything you said, but not that he worked up the courage to tell me. If you judge only by this, I agree it could look like that, but it's not the first time he says something like this. He told me a lot of times in the past the same thing and even when I tried to hide my fetish and he actually tought I would prefer him skinnier (which I still think he partially thinks) his behaviour was the same as this time, eating more or not doing anything to actually lose weight.

If this was the first time he told me something like this, I wouldn't act like that and I would try to hide my emotions better. But from my point of view, he used to tell me he wants to lose weight often in the past because he thought I would prefer him like that. Last time he told me he wants to lose weight and he was really sad he got that fat I made it very clear I found him really attractive like that and he was very happy and enjoyed food more than ever. Now I am suspicious he has doubts again (he asked me lately about a boy with 6 packs if I find him attractive and my answer was yes...I know you'll tell me is not ok, but me and my bf have this rule of always telling the truth).

Anyway, he is the kind of person who makes anything if he really wants to. So I can judge by his behaviour in the future if he actually wants to lose weight or he just told me like he told that many times in the past. By now he didn't act like he actually wants that...it was the opposite to be honest

Morbidly A Beast:
If I had roast it was made in the crockpot and it always lost all the flavor and was super unpleasant to eat, at least for me. It always comes as odd when people get excited about roast but maybe it’s just me? My mother was a really good cook, she’d make all the good stuff but roasts just wasn’t it haha.

Angy523:
I really don't understand him sometimes. Maybe somebody here does. He told me again he wants to lose weight... I said "ok" and he was like "is this all you say? You won't try to stop me?" So I told him I won't ask him to look in a certain way and I would support him to lose weight if that's what he wants. And he told me I shouldn't worry because it won't be much and he just wants to be 177lbs. I know it was wrong, but my reaction was something like "yak" and he was like "shut up, you will like that" and I told him it's not true. I explained to him that when he lost weight I wasn't as attracted to him as I am now. But he told me it's not a big difference. He told me back then he was 182lbs and now he is 192lbs (which is not true, he 200lbs or close, idk why he hides his weight). I just told him it is a difference, but it doesn't matter, I will support him even if he wants to lose more weight than he said. After that we changed the subject, but all day he ate more than the usual and I'm really confused...does he really want to lose weight or did he just wanted to check again if I like how he looks now?

Also, I really want to mention, in case somebody feels the urge to tell me I don't love him if I'm not attracted to him at any size, I don't need this kind of opinions. I know I love him, he knows I love him and both of us know that attraction isn't equal to love. Of course I am and will be attracted to his personality, but physical attraction is something else and it's totally fine to have preferences, this doesn't mean you love your partener less.

Jstraw22:
If you truly give in and intentionally gain more than 20 lbs or so its gonna be really hard to lose the weight and even harder to keep it off. Also, intentionally gaining 20+ lbs is a pretty good sign that this fetish has more control than you think. I've always known I had this fetish but never thought I'd actually give in. Covid was the perfect excuse to let go and here I am 60 lbs heavier than I was 3 years ago. The scariest and most exciting part is the realization that I'm fat now and always will be.