You make a really good point, Morbidly, and there IS a difference in being a part of this community and wanting to be fetishized. This is part of the reason I don't post pictures. And for the life of me, I can't understand why a stranger would demand pictures from someone they have never met when there is a whole online universe packed with pictures of people with all body types and sizes.

Nah, I just needed to feel a full belly again!! It's a lovely feeling, and even diet soda bloats can't replicate it.

I've been planning to keep my weight in this general neighborhood, but I fell off the maintenance wagon hard last night at all you can eat sushi, and I have been eating ever since. Last night, I had 56 pieces with tempura vegetables and tempura shrimp. I woke up very bloated and also very hungry, and I have been eating continuously. It's so hard, when you were addicted to being overstuffed beyond your limits for a long time, to go back to regular meals. There was something so pleasurable about being packed like a drum, with my belly feeling bloated and sensitive, I haven't been able to stop myself. I've had around 14,000 calories so far today, and i know I'll gain some weight from this, but I'm going to give myself a day off from maintenance and get as stuffed as I want to. I've genuinely missed the feeling of physically ballooning outward from over indulgence. And tomorrow is another day!

I have had a lot of luck with biggerbras.com for size 8X and 9X underwear. Like anywhere else, super plus sizes will cost more, but the prices aren't obscene, and there is variety.

Ehhh, I've always been fat, and I was outgoing in school, so I seemed to find my crew pretty easily. I also had friends among the thin popular group. I think because I was so unabashedly myself, I wasn't too much of a target for teasing. It's hard to tease someone who either doesn't care or enjoys it

As an adult, I'm by far the fattest of our social group. One friend was probably 160-175 and got into fitness. She is now super lean. Another blew up when he got a desk job and now sports a big pot belly. They're still the same people they've always been though, and my weight doesn't really come up unless we are going somewhere as a group, and they want to make sure I would be okay in the physical setting.

YES. I want to feel heavy and full after I've eaten. I want my belly to feel swollen and stuffed, and I enjoy that stretched feeling internally.

I've always loved food challenges! These are my go-to's:

- McDonalds cheeseburgers-- no ketchup, add mayo-- I've eaten 19 before, but I could probably hold more now.
- Pizza-- When I was actively gaining, my standard order was two larges for a long time, and then went up to three plus cheesy bread. Now that I'm maintaining, I limit myself to one.
-Taco Bell-- One crunch wrap, two five layer burritos, two cheese quesadillas, and five soft taco supremes was my standard order when gaining. I once added three extra burritos and three extra soft tacos, and I successfully finished it all. That stuffing visibly bloated me more than any of the others.

Now I'm hungry, LOL.

I sometimes have to remind myself there are people everywhere who would not eat a large pizza by themselves, lol.

So good! Fried foods are such a weakness for me!

Realizing your idea of "cutting back" is still a ton of food to everyone else.

Example: Yesterday, my fiance and I went to eat and get beers with friends. My fiance ordered a Greek salad and had two vodka drinks. One friend got 6 wings, a side salad, and 2 beers; the other had a burger and fries. I had a double turkey burger, fries, a full size Buffalo chicken salad, two beers, and a piece of turtle cheese cake. I consider that a very modest meal, but my food was still taking up half the table!