Bigdoug:
I have loved fat ever since I can remember. Obviously, a big part of my āfat loveā is not sexually motivated, since I was intrigued and attracted to fat as a child long before puberty and sexuality. I have always loved food and eating and in my childās mind I think I equated being fat with unlimited access to your favorite foods. And even now, although I am sexually attracted to fat women, I appreciate and find fat beautiful in all genders. I love fat as a sign of gluttony and abundance!
Yes, there is a reason I started loving fat and it goes way back. I grew up in a home where fat wasnāt demonized but lived in. My parents were both big, soft, and full of life. Mealtimes were sacred, loud, joyful. My grandma? She was the classic feeder, though we didnāt have that word for it then. Sheād pile my plate high and say, āEat, eat, youāre too skinny!ā And I was.
I was the thin kid in a fat-loving household, always looking up at my parentsā round bellies, how they filled space, how they moved with ease and fullness. It fascinated me. I admired fat before I ever understood desire. It wasnāt sexual back then it was symbolic. Fat meant comfort, security, indulgence. I saw it as proof that someone got to have what they wanted. And slowly, I started wanting it too.
As I got older, I stopped resisting. I started letting myself go and enjoying food without guilt, eating past fullness, giving in to the pull that had always been there. With each pound, I felt more at home in my body, more aligned with who I really was.
Now Everything changed again. Recently, I met a female feeder, someone who truly gets this side of me, who sees not just the body I have, but the one Iām becoming. Her encouragement, her hunger for my growth, has pushed me deeper into this world than ever before. Iām not just dabbling anymore. Iām in it. Fully. Iām on a furious, delicious journey to become really big. And it feels like everything Iāve always wanted is finally taking shape in softness, in size, in surrender.
So yes, Iāve loved fat since before I knew what it meant. But now Iām living it and growing fast hehe