Taco bell stuffing

Munchies:
I think every glutton should have an idea of how much food an average person eats to appreciate better just how much of a glutton they are.

On thing I love to do when I am stuffing my partner is to compare just how much he eats to what an average person would eat. It really heightens the experience.

Morbidly A Beast:
I guess I do get looks when I solo an appetizer and two entrees when I’m out to eat. The best is pizza people eat like 1 or two slices how about 2 large pizzas? Lol


Anything can be an individual serving if you try hard enough!!
3 months

Taco bell stuffing

Morbidly A Beast:
Same! Nothing beats soloing a party box of soft shells, I also love their chilupas I kill like 6 and a few beefy 5 layers XD all drenched in Diablo sauce


Stahp it!! You're making me crave a Taco Bell stuffing, and I can't do that tonight. LOL.

I LOVE Diablo sauce! I don't even think it's all that hot. Then again, I haven't found many things that are too hot for me, so there's that!
3 months

Back for being overweight...

Glitter Jelly:
It's official, I'm fat again...

Not fat as in "I feel fat today", fat as in medically overweight (BMI > 25).

I was a chubby kid and as an adult I used to be much heavier (180+ lbs) but after loosing a lot of weight about 10 years ago I was proud that I had managed to keep most of it off.

For the last few years, my weight was pretty stable, fluctuating between 115-120 lbs. Last October, I was 121 lbs.

In March, after noticing some of my clothes (non-stretch dresses and jeans particularly) were getting noticeably tighter, I decided to step on the scale and cried when I saw I was 125 lbs.

I started being more sell conscious and adopted a more restrictive diet, which was easy as I had been prescribed a stimulant ADHD medication in September.

Then I started waking up at night to eat, sometimes multiple times.

Some nights it would be only a fruit and some cheese, but other nights I would eat a large slice of banana bread, spoonfuls of nut butter right from the jar, half a brick of cheese, handfuls of candy, chocolate...

It wasn't long before most of my XS-S wardrobe either didn't fit or was uncomfortably tight to the point I felt embarrassed to wear them in public.

Reluctantly, I weighted myself again in August and had a huge meltdown when I saw I was 139 lbs and had gained 15 lbs in only 5 months!

My depression has gotten really bad because I'm terrified my weight is going to climb faster and faster until I'm as fat or fatter than I used to be. Maybe this time I'll cross the line into morbid obesity.

I just bought a keyed lock for my fridge and replaced all the knobs on my kitchen cabinet for handles so I can lock them with wire locks. I'm going to keep the keys in a timed lock box with no override.

I'm hoping this will help me lose some of the extra weight or at least stop or slow down the weight gain... I'm not delusion, however, so I already started selling all my XS clothes because it's very unlikely I'll ever be that thin again as my metabolic is ruined from years of dieting.

None of this is going to help me when I sleep at my boyfriend's place (more often than not), as he doesn't want to lock his cabinets and fridge.

I suspect he likes my new curves but I sure don't. I don't recognize my body when I look in the mirror and feel very disconnected from it.

I've been on sick leave since May so my coworkers will undoubtedly notice my fuller figure even if I try to hide my fat under loose clothing.

I dread their comments, especially from those who used to praise me for / envy my formerly thin body. I used to wear pretty dresses everyday and now none of these fit me anymore.

Can anyone relate? Any advice / kind words will be appreciated.

ETA:

I know how crazy this sounds coming from someone who identifies as a FA. Yet, while I find beauty in bodies of all shapes and sizes, I struggle to see it in myself. Maybe this is PTSD from the relentless bullying / body shaming I suffered as a child?


This doesn't sound crazy at all, friend. There are many ways to enjoy your interests as an FA. For some of us, it's our own obesity; for some, it's feeling stuffed; for some it's feeding someone else and making them fat; for some, it's fantasy and stories and visuals. All of these things are perfectly okay.

The important part is, taking care of your mental health. Your body is no more or less lovable at a lower weight than a higher one, or vice versa. I will say, I wish there were more resources there for those of us who struggle. The six Employee Assistance Program visits that are standard with most employers are a nice benefit if you're exploring care and trying to find a provider. As far as restoring mental health and addressing trauma... Well, that's not going to happen in 6 hours.

Nevertheless, be kind to yourself. If you do choose to lose weight, make sure it's a positive thing to you, and not a punishment. You haven't "let yourself go" and you sure the heck haven't done anything wrong.

I hope you are continuing on a journey to self-love. You are very reflective, and you're asking questions. Those are good things. Seek out people who encourage you. And know that, while some real creeps lurk around this community, there are plenty of genuine people who will support you too. Many of us are kind, multifaceted people, who may share a common interest but are also so much more. I'm proud of you for seeking support.
3 months

Going swimming when you've gained weight!

Alex7:
Oh funny I love it. Did the brothers-in-law survive lol

BigBallBellyGirl:
Yes! No injuries reported. Not really able to do many stairs at this size, so the pool steps were a challenge. I definitely wouldn't advise standing behind a 570 lb person though. After all, if we fall, we'll just knock you over like a bowling pin.

Op User:
Were the pool steps the build in steps at the side of the pool with a handle used in recreational pools in hotels or the aluminium removable set of stairs used in swimming pools for competitions?


Built in concrete steps. There was also an aluminum ladder, but those are way out of the question for me. If by some miracle, I did manage to get on it, I'd be too afraid of pulling the whole thing down.
3 months

Super massive stuffings!

Shopo:
Happy Birthday!


Thanks so much! It was a really nice birthday weekend!
3 months

Super-sized travel tips?

JohnT:
My girlfriend is over 550lbs and we keep going on holidays though not as often as in the past when she was smaller. We plan well ahead, asking for a bariatric wheelchair which i push because we don’t want to overburden the airport staff. We buy three seats between us and we ask for a seatbelt extender. We also carry her oxygen mask with us just in case because her breathing tends to be more elaborated in higher altitudes and we make sure she wears full compression for her lymphedema otherwise her legs will be extremely swollen and painful. When booking a hotel make sure the bed is reinforced enough to stand your weight and that you can fit in the toilet/ shower. There’s nothing worse as paying for an expensive holiday only to realize that you can’t use the bathroom. Being this big is a bit challenging for my feedee but she still has quality life and a great time, and we will always strive for that no matter how massive she gets

Op User:
How can you make sure the bed is reinforced enough to hold the weight of the couple?


That's the one box I feel like I can't completely check off. I did call, to ask about general accessibility. I have an accessible room with a roll-in shower. It does have a shower chair, but I'm not sure I would trust that. We thought about ordering a bariatric shower chair from Amazon and having it delivered directly, but I think I'll be able to make do standing. I was candid about my size, and I was told that shouldn't be a problem with a king bed and that most guests of size find it adequate. I'm not sure if they were fully considering the weight of a nearly 600 lb person in it, but I think we're just going to have to trust that that works.
3 months

Going swimming when you've gained weight!

Alex7:
Oh funny I love it. Did the brothers-in-law survive lol


Yes! No injuries reported. Not really able to do many stairs at this size, so the pool steps were a challenge. I definitely wouldn't advise standing behind a 570 lb person though. After all, if we fall, we'll just knock you over like a bowling pin.
3 months

Going swimming when you've gained weight!

Now that my custom-made bathing suits are here, I swam front of others for the first time this year and also for the first time at this weight. Yes, I'm late in the season, but I also had literally nothing to wear, and I can no longer order retail.

It felt nice to move freely and have a lot of mobility. I walked around and stretched in the water for hours at a time. Getting out of the pool was challenging though, because you feel like you suddenly have gravity pulling you down.

My brother in law, bless his heart, got behind me and said, "How can I help?" I laughed and warned him that being behind a 570 pound woman on steps may not be advisable for his personal welfare. 🤣
3 months

Another reason to get fat..

Morbidly A Beast:
That was me kinda when I crossed the threshold of 300lbs after failing diet after diet I couldn’t exercise like I used to

Like I was fat and I didn’t realistically have an objection to it so I just learned to accept and love my body as it was

Now I’m fat fat, fat people can be like damn your fat


Same!! At 570, a person half my weight is 285, which means they're already quite obese (unless they're a completely ripped extreme body builder maybe). I think around 400, I crossed over into being "fat to most fat people".
3 months

Super massive stuffings!

I had my first stuffing in nearly three months Friday night for my birthday. I can't do an all-dayer like I used to (not is this the beginning of a new gain), and I have to watch my salt because I'm a heart patient. I did get pretty full though, and I felt pretty heavy and stretched out.

The birthday dinner was:
- Large chicken, strawberry and walnut salad
- Two XL baked sweet potatoes
- 6 crab cakes
- 1 pound of grilled shrimp
- 6 biscuits
- Family size asparagus
- Large serving of brown mushroom rice
- 1 pint of sugar free caramel ice cream
- 1 sugar free cupcake
- 1 gallon of sugar free tea (to fill any space left!)

It was amazing to feel that tight-as-a-drum feeling in my stomach again, and to get a birthday belly rub while super bloated.

Before dinner weight: 566.8
After dinner weight: 575.4
Weight today: 570.1
3 months
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