Sleep eating?
He isn't because he can't afford it (our healthcare system overs part of the medication costs but not of therapy).
Since my appointment at the endocrinologist I'm a lot more depressed myself. Despite my best efforts I haven't lost any weight and according to him there's no medical explanation to my getting fatter so fast therefore I feel very hopeless.
I try to restrict myself but I only end up bingeing more on forbidden foods later in the day or at night.
Still on sick leave but I'll have to start working again soon. The mere idea of going back makes me want to quit because I just can't cope with any weight gain comments tbh.
Saw my mom for Christmas and it was obvious she noticed my fuller figure and was walking on eggshells and sugarcoating her words in order not to hurt my feelings... but I nonetheless started crying uncontrollably.
Since my appointment at the endocrinologist I'm a lot more depressed myself. Despite my best efforts I haven't lost any weight and according to him there's no medical explanation to my getting fatter so fast therefore I feel very hopeless.
I try to restrict myself but I only end up bingeing more on forbidden foods later in the day or at night.
Still on sick leave but I'll have to start working again soon. The mere idea of going back makes me want to quit because I just can't cope with any weight gain comments tbh.
Saw my mom for Christmas and it was obvious she noticed my fuller figure and was walking on eggshells and sugarcoating her words in order not to hurt my feelings... but I nonetheless started crying uncontrollably.
1 year
I gained 22 pounds in 2 weeks
Angelgluttony:
Hiya. I am 23 years old, female and over 600 pounds. I’ve been gaining weight very rapidly lately, and I think I have to do with me having an increased slow metabolism. I could eat one sandwich and not feel full at all yet I have 2 pounds in the process of eating one sandwich. I think a lot of my weight gain recently has really come from eating food that has starch in it. Within the last two weeks alone, I have gained 22 pounds unintentionally. I’m not mad about the weight game but I’m wonder if there are any other feedees/foodies here who also have a slow metabolism as well. Some questions I have:
- Do you think that it’s a plus to have slow metabolism, while also being a feedee/foodie?
- Do you eat more than you normally do to increase your slow metabolism, so that you gain weight at a faster pace or do you stick to your regular routine?
SumoSized:
As someone who has a really fast metabolism that sounds like an absolute dream. I've probably gained 22 lbs in the last year, and it's not from a lack of trying. My body just physically doesn't want fat on it right now, so I've thought I'm eating 3-4k calories a day the weight just won't stick
Hiya. I am 23 years old, female and over 600 pounds. I’ve been gaining weight very rapidly lately, and I think I have to do with me having an increased slow metabolism. I could eat one sandwich and not feel full at all yet I have 2 pounds in the process of eating one sandwich. I think a lot of my weight gain recently has really come from eating food that has starch in it. Within the last two weeks alone, I have gained 22 pounds unintentionally. I’m not mad about the weight game but I’m wonder if there are any other feedees/foodies here who also have a slow metabolism as well. Some questions I have:
- Do you think that it’s a plus to have slow metabolism, while also being a feedee/foodie?
- Do you eat more than you normally do to increase your slow metabolism, so that you gain weight at a faster pace or do you stick to your regular routine?
SumoSized:
As someone who has a really fast metabolism that sounds like an absolute dream. I've probably gained 22 lbs in the last year, and it's not from a lack of trying. My body just physically doesn't want fat on it right now, so I've thought I'm eating 3-4k calories a day the weight just won't stick
We should trade bodies.
1 year
Sleep eating?
(continued)
On a last note, my boyfriend knows about addiction as he's been smoking cigarettes and using cannabis since he was only 14. He also used to be an alcoholic, but has been sober for at least 2-3 years.
Since it is his apartment (I have my own upstairs, but I usually sleep at his place because I like to cuddle in bed), I have been extremely tolerant of things that come with his addictions: empty cigarette butts (he mixes the tobacco with the weed) and cigarette box cutouts (he makes the filters from them) all over his desk and on the floor, perpetually overflowing ashtrays, daily fits of coughing in the morning (sometimes to the point of vomiting) and the flegma he's been spitting in trash cans (sometimes he misses and they end up on the floor), in the sinks, in the toilet bowl...
I've always found spitting repulsive but I love him and I knew what I was getting into from the beginning. I close my eyes or turn my head away when I know he's about to spit.
I think he understands my eating disorders (restrict/binge cycles, weight fluctuations, body dysmorphie/dissatisfaction) aren't things I can control either, but his reaction to the mess I've made of his kitchen last night really hurt me.
He's at work so I stayed in bed all day, not eating but drinking flavoured fizzy water when I get thirsty. I wrote to him a text message (I don't know if he read it yet) saying that I would have to sleep at least the next few nights at my place where I can lock the food cabinets and fridge to keep myself from night eating (I keep the keys in a time lock box until the next morning).
I hope he'll come upstairs (my apartment in on the 3rd floor in the same building as my boyfriend's who on the main floor) some days to sleep with me, but it's the end of the school semester and he's been working relentlessly on his guitar and ukulele. Most days he comes out of his workshop only to have supper, smoke weed, brush his teeth and heads to bed. By then he's so exhausted I don't know if he could even walk upstairs to my place.
If he has school or is working the next day, he prefers to sleep at his place because all of his things are there and he has severe ADHD and tends to get so disorganized he often arrives late to school and work.
His boss told him the next time he comes in late he will be let go and if (when?) that happens I'm worried his mental health will take a turn for the worse. I know he's been having passive suicidal ideations (he says things like "I wish I would disappear" or "I can't do this anymore" ), but I'm worried and don't want want to lose my lover and best friend...
He's taking an antidepressant and has support from a social worker, but I can see it's hard for him to ask for help.
On a last note, my boyfriend knows about addiction as he's been smoking cigarettes and using cannabis since he was only 14. He also used to be an alcoholic, but has been sober for at least 2-3 years.
Since it is his apartment (I have my own upstairs, but I usually sleep at his place because I like to cuddle in bed), I have been extremely tolerant of things that come with his addictions: empty cigarette butts (he mixes the tobacco with the weed) and cigarette box cutouts (he makes the filters from them) all over his desk and on the floor, perpetually overflowing ashtrays, daily fits of coughing in the morning (sometimes to the point of vomiting) and the flegma he's been spitting in trash cans (sometimes he misses and they end up on the floor), in the sinks, in the toilet bowl...
I've always found spitting repulsive but I love him and I knew what I was getting into from the beginning. I close my eyes or turn my head away when I know he's about to spit.
I think he understands my eating disorders (restrict/binge cycles, weight fluctuations, body dysmorphie/dissatisfaction) aren't things I can control either, but his reaction to the mess I've made of his kitchen last night really hurt me.
He's at work so I stayed in bed all day, not eating but drinking flavoured fizzy water when I get thirsty. I wrote to him a text message (I don't know if he read it yet) saying that I would have to sleep at least the next few nights at my place where I can lock the food cabinets and fridge to keep myself from night eating (I keep the keys in a time lock box until the next morning).
I hope he'll come upstairs (my apartment in on the 3rd floor in the same building as my boyfriend's who on the main floor) some days to sleep with me, but it's the end of the school semester and he's been working relentlessly on his guitar and ukulele. Most days he comes out of his workshop only to have supper, smoke weed, brush his teeth and heads to bed. By then he's so exhausted I don't know if he could even walk upstairs to my place.
If he has school or is working the next day, he prefers to sleep at his place because all of his things are there and he has severe ADHD and tends to get so disorganized he often arrives late to school and work.
His boss told him the next time he comes in late he will be let go and if (when?) that happens I'm worried his mental health will take a turn for the worse. I know he's been having passive suicidal ideations (he says things like "I wish I would disappear" or "I can't do this anymore" ), but I'm worried and don't want want to lose my lover and best friend...
He's taking an antidepressant and has support from a social worker, but I can see it's hard for him to ask for help.
1 year
Sleep eating?
I haven't checked but I bet it's a side effect Dayvigo too.
I usually take it at 10 mg along with 1 mg of clonazepam, as prescribed by my psychiatrist.
Yesterday before bed I smoked cannabis, something I rarely do because I fear the munchies (even with the sleeping medication I still wake up multiple times at night to eat, which often results in a binge on foods I rarely allow myself during the day or in very small amounts).
If I smoke, I usually skip at least the Dayvigo (pretty sure I've taken clonazepam after smoking and was fine, meaning I still woke up and ate, probably more than usual and chose foods which aren't typical for me).
Yesterday I smoked cannabis before bed, took the clonazepam AND the Dayvigo and something a bit frightening happened...
I remember I was way more sleepy than usual during the whole process.
I was thirsty so I opened a can of San Pellegrino that must have been shaken a little because when I pushed the tab in it volcanoed EVERYWHERE. In my face (including my eyes), hair (which I had to wash this morning because it was all stuck together), on the countertop, bottom cabinet doors, floor... some even hit the ceiling.
I was so not expecting this I dropped the can, which I quickly picked up, but I was unaware the aluminum can punctured near the bottom when it hit the floor so the sugary liquid kept leaking and it took me a while to realize what was happening. I tried to wipe up the mess but in sleepy my cleaning attempt was not very successful.
I was also very hungry and I ate so much... I just don't remember all of it, there are pieces missing from my memory. A little like people drink too much alcohol and have blackouts?
When my boyfriend woke up and walked into the kitchen, he was shocked by the terrible state of it and asked me what the heck happened?
He seemed quite angry and I felt ashamed, as it was the first time he mentioned anything about the aftermath of one of my night binges (he most likely notices foods missing but never comments about it).
Binge eating is not like overindulging voluntarily, there's a lot of shame and self hate when you suffer from that type of eating disorder.
I remember eating half the block of cheese I had bought that day, handfuls of mixed nuts (which bag was behind a box of muesli I apparently tipped over, spilling all of its content on the countertop and floor - I have absolutely no memory of that happening), at least part of a bagel and a lot of honey...
I know I had cut some more of the cheese to make myself a honey and cheese bagel. I remember cutting the bagel, putting it in and starting the toaster and eating spoonfuls of honey from the jar while waiting.
What I am not sure is if I actually finished preparing the bagel once it was toasted, or if I just spread some honey on it and started eating it. I don't even remember if I ate all of the bagel or not.
I had bought huge chocolate chips and pecan cookies for my boyfriend from a bakery he really loves. I don't usually allow myself to eat pastries especially lately as I'm trying to lose the 20-30 lbs I involuntarily gained since last October after being put on Vyvanse for my ADHD.
Weigh loss is a lot more common with this stimulant medication, but in my case, I have so little appetite during the day I don't eat enough or forget to eat so I get ravenous in the evening and at night.
It's like my body is making sure I get enough calories in, regardless of if the foods are nutritious or junk...
In the morning, I was in shock when I realized I had mindlessly eaten both cookies in my half awake state.
My boyfriend mentioned something about chocolate which I don't actually remember eating any but I have a vague memory that I broke a row of his 200 g Lindt fruits and nuts bar (I'm not trying to fatten him, I'm merely trying to stop or slow down the weight loss he's been experiencing in the last months due to burn out, depression and anxiety - which is the same state I'm in but I've always been an emotional eater).
I'll tell my psychiatrist on my appointment wednesday but I want to stop the stimulant (which had been switched to Foquest in the hopes the longer duration of action would stop the night binges - they haven't, I feel they got worse) and the Dayvigo (which is ineffective for my insomnia anyway), especially if he confirms there's been reported cases of somnambulism.
I used to take Strattera with my Wellbutrin (an antidepressant I've been on for years without any weight issues). I hope things start improving soon because I just can't keep going like this...
I usually take it at 10 mg along with 1 mg of clonazepam, as prescribed by my psychiatrist.
Yesterday before bed I smoked cannabis, something I rarely do because I fear the munchies (even with the sleeping medication I still wake up multiple times at night to eat, which often results in a binge on foods I rarely allow myself during the day or in very small amounts).
If I smoke, I usually skip at least the Dayvigo (pretty sure I've taken clonazepam after smoking and was fine, meaning I still woke up and ate, probably more than usual and chose foods which aren't typical for me).
Yesterday I smoked cannabis before bed, took the clonazepam AND the Dayvigo and something a bit frightening happened...
I remember I was way more sleepy than usual during the whole process.
I was thirsty so I opened a can of San Pellegrino that must have been shaken a little because when I pushed the tab in it volcanoed EVERYWHERE. In my face (including my eyes), hair (which I had to wash this morning because it was all stuck together), on the countertop, bottom cabinet doors, floor... some even hit the ceiling.
I was so not expecting this I dropped the can, which I quickly picked up, but I was unaware the aluminum can punctured near the bottom when it hit the floor so the sugary liquid kept leaking and it took me a while to realize what was happening. I tried to wipe up the mess but in sleepy my cleaning attempt was not very successful.
I was also very hungry and I ate so much... I just don't remember all of it, there are pieces missing from my memory. A little like people drink too much alcohol and have blackouts?
When my boyfriend woke up and walked into the kitchen, he was shocked by the terrible state of it and asked me what the heck happened?
He seemed quite angry and I felt ashamed, as it was the first time he mentioned anything about the aftermath of one of my night binges (he most likely notices foods missing but never comments about it).
Binge eating is not like overindulging voluntarily, there's a lot of shame and self hate when you suffer from that type of eating disorder.
I remember eating half the block of cheese I had bought that day, handfuls of mixed nuts (which bag was behind a box of muesli I apparently tipped over, spilling all of its content on the countertop and floor - I have absolutely no memory of that happening), at least part of a bagel and a lot of honey...
I know I had cut some more of the cheese to make myself a honey and cheese bagel. I remember cutting the bagel, putting it in and starting the toaster and eating spoonfuls of honey from the jar while waiting.
What I am not sure is if I actually finished preparing the bagel once it was toasted, or if I just spread some honey on it and started eating it. I don't even remember if I ate all of the bagel or not.
I had bought huge chocolate chips and pecan cookies for my boyfriend from a bakery he really loves. I don't usually allow myself to eat pastries especially lately as I'm trying to lose the 20-30 lbs I involuntarily gained since last October after being put on Vyvanse for my ADHD.
Weigh loss is a lot more common with this stimulant medication, but in my case, I have so little appetite during the day I don't eat enough or forget to eat so I get ravenous in the evening and at night.
It's like my body is making sure I get enough calories in, regardless of if the foods are nutritious or junk...
In the morning, I was in shock when I realized I had mindlessly eaten both cookies in my half awake state.
My boyfriend mentioned something about chocolate which I don't actually remember eating any but I have a vague memory that I broke a row of his 200 g Lindt fruits and nuts bar (I'm not trying to fatten him, I'm merely trying to stop or slow down the weight loss he's been experiencing in the last months due to burn out, depression and anxiety - which is the same state I'm in but I've always been an emotional eater).
I'll tell my psychiatrist on my appointment wednesday but I want to stop the stimulant (which had been switched to Foquest in the hopes the longer duration of action would stop the night binges - they haven't, I feel they got worse) and the Dayvigo (which is ineffective for my insomnia anyway), especially if he confirms there's been reported cases of somnambulism.
I used to take Strattera with my Wellbutrin (an antidepressant I've been on for years without any weight issues). I hope things start improving soon because I just can't keep going like this...
1 year
Should i buy my gf new clothes?
Bodyofwater:
I'm glad she likes her clothes! If she barely eats and is gaining weight anyway, she should probably get her thyroid checked.
I'm glad she likes her clothes! If she barely eats and is gaining weight anyway, she should probably get her thyroid checked.
I saw the endocrinologist last monday and he basically said that there is no clear endocrinogic cause to my sudden and fast WG. He said:
- he's "not impressed" (this is actually the words he used although I imagine he meant "not worried" ) with my prolactin levels even if it was less than 15 two years ago and have been rising since March of this year (27 --> 30 --> 33)
- I can't have hypothyroidism (even if I have most of the symptoms and my mom has it) because my TSH, T4 and T3 levels are normal
- the symptoms I've had my whole life are probably related to an excess of androgens (he mentioned PCOs but doesn't seem to want the investigate or treat my for that) that was "hidden" by the fact I took the contraceptive pill from the age of 14 to at least 25 and now that I'm not taking it the male hormones are once again dominating
- I'm probably premenopausal and my body has been producing more and more estrogen to stimulate ovulation (basically describing estrogen dominance) and "it's normal for women my age to gain weight around menopause"
- the cause of my WG is "in my head" even if lately this is the other way around (gaining back the weight I worked so hard to lose around 2015 is severely impacting my mental health to the point I have suicidal ideations)
- my metabolism is slow because I lost almost 100 lbs during my 2015 anorexia relapse and unless I restrict myself significantly I won't maintain because any caloric excess will be stored as fat (he doesn't seem to understand I can't control myself at night and binge unless my kitchen cabinets and fridge are locked)
He prescribed more blood tests (and a mineral bone density at my demand) because his main concern is my elevated PTH and low calcium which are most likely due to the lack of dairy products in my diet (I'm lactose intolerant).
My next appointment will be in February but my hopes there was going to be a fixable medical cause to my WG has evaporated.
I cried so much after the appointment, I feel like the only thing I can do to prevent becoming obese again is restricting my food intake more and bingeing less... I'm getting so desperate I'm considering purchasing diet pills, progesterone cream or thyroid extract online to see if that can help.
1 year
College weight
Newenglander:
After giving this topic some thought, yes college attendees today are indeed heavier than their counterparts from prior generations. But has anyone noticed those in their early-20s becoming fatter in general?
Many cashiers and other workers in my local Dollar Tree, Stop&Shop, and Walmart for example are young but not likely to be college students. This much I deduced from seeing them at work when class would be in session. They seem much heavier than their predecessors from about 20 years ago.
This makes me wonder if college attendance is simply coincidental to weight gain. Could the real culprits be a combination of factors such as poor diet, antidepressant use, video games, and social media?
Also cigarette use is down significantly among this demographic. Nicotine being a stimulant often helped keep the weight off.
After giving this topic some thought, yes college attendees today are indeed heavier than their counterparts from prior generations. But has anyone noticed those in their early-20s becoming fatter in general?
Many cashiers and other workers in my local Dollar Tree, Stop&Shop, and Walmart for example are young but not likely to be college students. This much I deduced from seeing them at work when class would be in session. They seem much heavier than their predecessors from about 20 years ago.
This makes me wonder if college attendance is simply coincidental to weight gain. Could the real culprits be a combination of factors such as poor diet, antidepressant use, video games, and social media?
Also cigarette use is down significantly among this demographic. Nicotine being a stimulant often helped keep the weight off.
And most antidepressants which are prescribed more and more for anxiety symptoms can make you gain some (sometimes a lot of) weight.
1 year
Getting man boobs
MrOverstuffed:
I’ve had man boobs since I hit puberty, and I’m 22 now. It’s weird, I used to be really self-conscious about them and felt very uncomfortable at the abnormally large size of them, but it’s time went on. I’ve started to feel very comfortable with them. They’re not like big flabby boys, but if I wore a sports bra or something, you’d think I was a girl with small boobs. Man boob love!
I’ve had man boobs since I hit puberty, and I’m 22 now. It’s weird, I used to be really self-conscious about them and felt very uncomfortable at the abnormally large size of them, but it’s time went on. I’ve started to feel very comfortable with them. They’re not like big flabby boys, but if I wore a sports bra or something, you’d think I was a girl with small boobs. Man boob love!
My bf is very thin and has small man boobs, partly because he used to be much fatter, partly because that's his body shape. He doesn't like them but I do! I'm pan-demi-sexual so I like all genders body shapes (I'm just not sexually attracted to most people).
1 year
Predictions
Cattastrophe:
Hi so I'm an only child, and adopted and so I don't share genetics with my parents. And their both fit people so it wouldn't help anyway. My weight rn is 108lbs or 48.5kg and I'm trying to gain to 180lbs or 81.5kg. I'm 5' 7" and was wondering if any other girls have started at a similar height and weight and have gained that much. I am trying to guess how I will look or see people who have done what I'm trying to do. Or just looking for advice or what to expect especially since I've never been above 110 until this year. I am moderatly active and used to competitively run, but i don't think that's important.
Hi so I'm an only child, and adopted and so I don't share genetics with my parents. And their both fit people so it wouldn't help anyway. My weight rn is 108lbs or 48.5kg and I'm trying to gain to 180lbs or 81.5kg. I'm 5' 7" and was wondering if any other girls have started at a similar height and weight and have gained that much. I am trying to guess how I will look or see people who have done what I'm trying to do. Or just looking for advice or what to expect especially since I've never been above 110 until this year. I am moderatly active and used to competitively run, but i don't think that's important.
I'm 5'1" and used to weigh around 180 lbs which means my BMI was 34 (over 30 is considered obese).
I was very fat but most people didn't realize just how much because my fat accumulated on my limbs rather than belly and I had a thin-ish face with a small double chin.
At your height and 180 lbs, your BMI will be 28 (overweight). Depending on your fat distribution (which is hard to predict unless you've been fat before or have fat family members) and fat %, you could look anything from pudgy to pretty fat.
I wish you well on your journey. 💜
1 year
Dextrose + heavy cream is incredibly potent
Bigandbloated:
I'll admit I've been pretty half assed in the whole gaining thing, and most of the time I only get into it a few times per year on those days I'm by myself and feeling really horny. That being said those high calorie shakes I've had on those days were so potent they've given me belly fat that still hasn't gone away no matter how much I've worked out or how little I've eaten. It's true what they say in that taking maltodex/ dextrose with a ton of fat makes it all go to your belly.
Though obvs don't do it all the time because that's how you get diabetes.
I'll admit I've been pretty half assed in the whole gaining thing, and most of the time I only get into it a few times per year on those days I'm by myself and feeling really horny. That being said those high calorie shakes I've had on those days were so potent they've given me belly fat that still hasn't gone away no matter how much I've worked out or how little I've eaten. It's true what they say in that taking maltodex/ dextrose with a ton of fat makes it all go to your belly.
Though obvs don't do it all the time because that's how you get diabetes.
Not sure about diabetes but I'd worry about hepatic steatosis (fatty liver), Stuff with Afro doll corn syrup is especially bad for that Because your body cannot use this 5 carbon sugar as fuel unless it turn it into a fatty acid, which are stored in the liver. At least, this is what I remember from a course I took a long time ago...
1 year
Where are all the 40+ folks hiding?
Ayumi Orihime:
Maybe we are not hiding... but just hide our ages well? 😂
I'm 42, but most people estimate me to be somewhere between 25-35.
EIIe:
Same!
46, and most assume I’m in my 30s.
I also have a young playful demeanor and I tend to connect best with those in their 30s. I’m also a cougar and will hook up with those in their 20s, keeps me young!
I didn’t come to this fetish until a few years ago so I’m still a baby.
Maybe we are not hiding... but just hide our ages well? 😂
I'm 42, but most people estimate me to be somewhere between 25-35.
EIIe:
Same!
46, and most assume I’m in my 30s.
I also have a young playful demeanor and I tend to connect best with those in their 30s. I’m also a cougar and will hook up with those in their 20s, keeps me young!
I didn’t come to this fetish until a few years ago so I’m still a baby.
Same situation here, I'm 45 and dating a beautiful 33 years old guy. 😉
People give me 35 at most. I self identify as agender and ageless.
1 year
