Sounds like you are burned out on the fetish you have.
Find something else to get into and occupy your time with.
Its pretty common to get burned out on things.
Its happened to be several times.
I had passed the 330 pound mark and had to lose weight to have ankle surgery.
I lost 125 pounds and kept it off for a couple of years Had my surgeries and healed up over that time frame only to get into gaining again the following year.
Gaining was much more fun the second time around.
You may get back into love of the full feeling in time after you time away from it.

WideJuan76:
Yeah, being four hundred is a different threshold of fatness because everything becomes a chore[/quote]

It sure does Juan just putting shoes on was a chore.

I'm 5'4" and I remember when I hit 250 I was so proud of being and actually feeling fat.
When I past 400lbs I felt like a whale.

Deff the fattest in my immediate family.
2nd fattest among my close friends but she is trying to lose weight currently.
She says I was a bad influence on her LOLOL.

No way of knowing for sure because it depends on your metabolism and how it reacts to the change in your eating habits.
Doing it for one month is hardly enough time to have your metabolism react to the changes and actually change how it has been working all your life.
I think you are over thinking all of this with X number of carbs and X number of calories.
X number of calories does not equal Y number of pounds gained.
As much as some will say and try to prove it doesn't work that way in reality.
I ate like a pig for 6 months and only gained 10 lbs when I first started trying to gain.
My metabolism took forever to adjust to my eating.
Its different with all people so no cut and dried answer actually works.

A high IQ doesn't mean you are smart or have common sense.
My IQ has been tested at the college I went to and I rated up there pretty high but ask me a question about pro football or base ball and I appear as dumb as a rock.
All I know its a bunch of guys in tight pants chasing each other on a field with lines on it.
Deductive reasoning is my strong suit I can take something apart and put it back together and it still works LOL.

If you like your body as it is then you have answered your own question.
You need to understand its a fantasy you have and that doesn't mean you have to act on it.
Just leave it a fantasy.
I don't know why people have such a hard time figuring stuff like this out.
I have noticed mostly with young people that it seems to be the popular thing to claim they are conflicted about something or they have trouble dealing with simple things in life.
Seems to be a need for attention perhaps.

Now don't think what I am saying is that your feelings aren't real because they are and I am not discounting them at all.

Everyone's metabolism is different so to say X number of calories in equals Y number of pounds gained is not really applicable in most cases.
I have been at the gaining game for a long time and I have never seen that calculation actually hold true 100% of the time.

She is really pretty and I hope she gains all she wants.
I don't go there much but my BF really likes that site and he showed me her thread.

I think I saw her name on Curvage is that right?