ChubbyKisses:
It is okay to be uncertain about what you want. It sounds like no matter what body type you choose, you’ll always come across something you don’t like. I think you should go with the option that is the least stressful for you. It is not your fault that you have this kink, so try to accept it as a part of who you are. If you decide to lose weight, you will always have the pleasure in fantasizing about being bigger without actually being fat. If you decide to stay fatter, then your fantasies are your reality and only you can prevent yourself from enjoying the lifestyle. Hearing rude comments from family members can definitely hit your ego, but maybe you can turn their remarks into a positive thing. If you like gaining weight, maybe you’re actually succeeding since people have taken notice of your gain. And I think that the actual amount of girls who like big guys are not accurately reflected in this website’s population. There are definitely more women out there who love guys like you! It must also be hard knowing your girlfriend does not appreciate your weight gain. You say she didn’t sign up for this, but she is still making an effort to be by your side even after knowing about your kink. And even if it doesn’t work out, fear not! When you’re ready, the right person will come to you. Life really is too short to worry about how others feel about your body. It’s your body! Own it! But also, do what you think is the best option for your day to day lifestyle. Do you see family often and constantly get comments about your weight? Or do you think you can let it slide if you only see them every now and then? Do you want to change your body for yourself, or are you doing it to please others? It’s a lot to think about because your body is a representation of yourself, so in other words, who do you want to be? (Or maybe you can be in the middle and be both haha)
I love this answer and fully agree with if. I'm actually one of these "women" (I'm AFAB but identify as agender) who loves fat men (and women and everything in between). I wrote here about how my bf used to be big and how I wish he would gain the weight back, but I respect his decisions about his body.
6 months
I know.
Thank you for doing that, even if I admit the ED part of me gets extremely angry when you write I'm not fat.
I've read many of your messages here and it's obvious that your interventions not only with me but with so many other FF users are well intentioned.
I sure you can find understand that noticing the slightest change in people's attitude towards me tends to validate my conviction that, from an outside perspective, if I am not fat yet I'm definitely on my way and people are noticing.
As I grew thinner I had noticed that I got more attention from men and even some women were nicer to me. Like, I could jay walk across a street and cars would hastily stop to let me.
Or during traffic time if I wanted to merge into a congested car lane, some people would look at me, smile and allow me.
Now there is less of that, the same way there was less of it before I lost the weight. I'm losing thin privilege and, as a formerly fat child, teenager and young adult who had never benefited from it before I entered dangerously thin territory (especially considering my high starting weight) this is very hard to accept.
In the episode "Tell me I'm fat" of the podcast "This american life", a woman working on that show who lost over 100 lbs on phentermine, talks about many instances where she was surprised that she could get away with being a full 10$ short to pay for her grocery (when acting like she was trying to decide what to eliminate from her basket she would be told "just take it" ).
Or when other thin people started looking her body up and down and nodding approvingly at her...
When she was heavy those things didn't happen to her and I can confirm it's true because I've had very similar things happen to me.
I imagine it's hard to believe if you haven't experienced it for yourself. The best way I can describe it is it's like you're a completely different person.
So, despite knowing the very real health risks, she kept taking the phentermine for over 10 years after her prescription had ended, buying it from the black market.
I can't blame her, I would have done the same if I'd lost my weight that way.
In my case, I happily remained in quasi-recovery from my anorexia for close to 10 years (until last October I was still significantly restricting my caloric intake and demonstrated many orthorexic behaviours) because I was terrified a full recovery meant getting fat again and most likely overshooting my highest weight (I had a BMI of 34).
It seems those fears were justified, if what's been happening to me lately is any indication of what's to come.
It's not that I suddenly embraced recovery and took steps towards healing my relationship with food and my body.
Despite my best efforts to restrict, I inevitably end up stress eating and bingeing on "forbidden foods" (like cookies and pastries which I had strictly been avoiding since my relapse except when I was forced to have them while in treatment), especially at night when my self-control is at its weakest.
This was not only unacceptable to me, I felt I wouldn't be able to keep on living if that happened. I had actually decided on a weight at which I'd have to kill myself if I ever reached it.
Well, this somewhere between last March and last August and, although my mental health significantly deteriorated, I'm still alive. I'm at least 10 lbs over that number by now and hate myself for letting myself go like this (even though I didn't chose to have so many stressful events happen back to back in the last few months and the hormonal imbalances might have contributed to my WG).
I'd be lying if I said I don't feeling like dying when I catch a glimpse of my reflection in the mirror or outgrow another favourite piece of clothing.
I struggle with ED thoughts (after I overeat or indulge in certain foods I often feel compelled to purge but I don't... it's a constant battle) and body dysmorphia.
I'm working on these issues as best as I can, but without the help of ED specialists I'm not sure I'll manage to get myself out of the hole I dug myself into.
6 months
Munchies:
If it's super uncomfortable, consider slowing down. That way, your body will be able to adjust to your capacity and you won't hiccup as much.
Mind you the downside of hiccuping on an overful stomach is that you can vomit it all back up. A waste of calories imo, but you do you.
Glitter Jelly:
Glad I found this thread this morning...
I got up late so I hadn't have time to eat breakfast this morning so I was having thin slices of turkey breast and swiss cheese in my car while driving to my destination.
I didn't overeat (at least I don't think so) but I ate so fast I had a few hiccups and then it felt like the food was stuck somewhere in between my mouth and stomach. It was more than uncomfortable... painful almost.
I thought maybe I should drink something to help wash it down but I didn't because was too afraid I'd vomit in my car (yucky and triggering to me because I used to purge when I was anorexic).
I stopped at the rest area and prepared for the inevitable but as I was hunching over to puke... nothing happened. I felt relieved that the food stayed down.
I have 2 slices to go but I'll have small bites and take time to swallow instead of rolling them, barely chewing and swallowing... I've had my lesson.
Is it possible that my belly roll when sitting in pushing up some on my stomach and makes it more likely that this will happen?
I've always been a fast eater even during my ED, and this had never happened to me (but back then I was so skinny you could actually see my stomach stretch out when I ate more than a few bites).
Munchies:
I say this with peace and love, but you need to get out of your head. You are not fat. You are not close to fat. At most, you are midly overweight.
Your belly roll is not impacting your physical welbeing. You are nowhere near fat enough for your belly roll to impact anything but your clothes being too small and maybe not being as bendy flexy as you could be.
In your case, you at too fast. Your body got confused as to if you were swallowing or breathing and bugged out. This would have happened at any size.
I'm sorry, I didn't mean to freak out.
This had never happened to me in the past and I've always been a fast eater, regardless of my weight.
I'm just happy I didn't get sick but I arrived late to the workshop I had signed up for.
When I joined the group, I was relieved to see most of the women attending were overweight or obese because some of the exercises we did made me feel very self conscious.
I might not be fat but at 5'1" the last number I saw on the scale (and I
might have gained a few lbs because my clothes feel tighter) my BMI is over 25 so I am medically overweight.
Since I've been aware of this, as much as I try to ignore it the ED voice in my head, it has gotten really loud and mean.
6 months
Munchies:
If it's super uncomfortable, consider slowing down. That way, your body will be able to adjust to your capacity and you won't hiccup as much.
Mind you the downside of hiccuping on an overful stomach is that you can vomit it all back up. A waste of calories imo, but you do you.
Glad I found this thread this morning...
I got up late so I hadn't have time to eat breakfast this morning so I was having thin slices of turkey breast and swiss cheese in my car while driving to my destination.
I didn't overeat (at least I don't think so) but I ate so fast I had a few hiccups and then it felt like the food was stuck somewhere in between my mouth and stomach. It was more than uncomfortable... painful almost.
I thought maybe I should drink something to help wash it down but I didn't because was too afraid I'd vomit in my car (yucky and triggering to me because I used to purge when I was anorexic).
I stopped at the rest area and prepared for the inevitable but as I was hunching over to puke... nothing happened. I felt relieved that the food stayed down.
I have 2 slices to go but I'll have small bites and take time to swallow instead of rolling them, barely chewing and swallowing... I've had my lesson.
Is it possible that my belly roll when sitting in pushing up some on my stomach and makes it more likely that this will happen?
I've always been a fast eater even during my ED, and this had never happened to me (but back then I was so skinny you could actually see my stomach stretch out when I ate more than a few bites).
6 months
Captain Cake:
Help! Because of the shape that my fat has proportioned, I can't seem to keep my jeans or trousers up properly at all, even with a belt. My underbelly pushes them down, and my back kind of slopes down to my bum so the jeans just slide down all the time. Does anyone have any tips on where or how to best wear jeans when you're getting fatter?
I find myself in a similar situation. Pants which are comfortable at the waistline when I did keep falling down when standing up. I need a belt ASAP, because people be noticing that I keep pulling up my pants.
I found a pair of very high waisted Stradivarius jeans which are particularly stretchy (they are meant for someone at least 2 sizes smaller than I am) in a thrift store. They are the only ones that stay put but I hadn't noticed the previous owner's thighs had pretty much destroyed the crotch area... There is a hole on the right side from my legs rubbing together. 🤦♀️
I still wear them for now, as I have no other acceptable pant options.
6 months
Snackster:
Yes, even after several years of having a belly, I‘m still adjusting to it being there. Sometimes when I put my hands in the pockets of my jacket, I‘m still surprised at how round my belly feels inside my jacket. When I feel my belly rolling over my pants or the seat belt, I often put my hand on the roll of fat, just to be surprised at how substantial and soft it feels. Similarly, I‘m always surprised when I put my hands on my hips and instead of the inward curve of my waist, I feel my thick love handles bulging out.
Oh yeah. My experience exactly. Even laying on my back I can't quite believe this expended figure is actually me. It feels a bit surreal.
6 months
Chubbybellygirl:
I went for my drivers license renewal and the lady looked me up and down and said she said, "So do you still weigh 125lb?" I think it's obvious I don't. I'm at 168 now. So yes, I'm gaining. In fact I'm almost painfully stuffed right now.
I was very anorexic when my password picture was taken (around 92 lbs) but I gained about 50 lbs since then. I look so different, I can just imagine what border agents must be thinking. If any of them is info this kink, I must be a treat for the eyes, especially lately. When sitting I have a very visible belly roll.
6 months
Bobbybob:
I was wondering, what causes one to have a lean face yet a fat body? I personally love this on girls. Some people do look better with a fat face, however, I do prefer leaner faces when it comes to larger people. Some people look completely different when they gain and some still have their general face shape. What do you guys think about it all?
I finally decided to be a dedicated gainer-all by myself though :,(-but I would like to keep my face leaner.
I'm that's kind of fatty. Had to cross into obese category before I got a double chin and even at a BMI of 34 you wouldn't have been able to guess how fat the rest of my body was especially if my head was at the right angle.
6 months
I wonder why so many people here write they are 100 lbs when they are obviously WAY over that weight?
Is there a hidden meaning to this number I'm not catching on?
Last time I checked even Mochiibaby's profile here stated she was 100 lbs!
6 months
The story above reminds me of gainer fiction I've read on this website.
The way she was eating, maybe her WG was intentional and she acted like it wasn't so people wouldn't know?
The popularity of GLP-1 agonists is proof that anti fat bias is still a thing and undoubtedly fueled diet culture.
In this context, it makes sense that not everyone feels comfortable openly associating with this kink...
6 months
