curiousv:
1. Did you always desire to be fat, as far as you can remember?
No, I always loved fat and thought fat people were sexy, but I was skinny into my 30s.
2. Did your desire appear suddenly, or in a relatively short period of time?
My desire was inspired by my partner, who became my feeder. If she hadn't thought my getting fat was sexy, I don't know if it ever would have occurred to me? But she definitely was the motivator, and then I discovered how pleasurable it could be.
3. Did your desire grow slowly, from trying out a little extra weight, liking it, and going for the next "step"?
Sort of - I initially gained a small amount slowly over a period of time.
4. Did you gain unintentionally at the beginning, hated it, and later grew to accept it?
I gained unintentionally - just getting older, slower metabolism, getting more sedentary, not exercising, and all that. I wouldn't say that I hated it, but my knee-jerk reaction was that I should lose it - just because, even as a FA, I think that societal "norm" was burned into my brain. It was my partner who said, "Why? It's sexy, keep going!"