To me, it isn't real until you meet somone (and even then there is no guarantee.) I have had people who I was very friendly with (not romantic) just disappear after chatting with them every night for months. Many people are not honest. Even basic things like age, gender, martial status, etc.

Many sites (including CL) will throw the ad out if you mention feederism. So, you sometimes have to use phrases that only someone else in the community would understand. Use a phrase like, looking for for a BBW for a "growing relationship." Be sure to mention that you are looking for someone who likes to dine out.

This kind of reminds me of a relatioship I had many years ago. The woman was a lesbian, but wanted to put up "straight front" in front of her parents, priest, friends and family. She was not honest with herself or me. Nothing seemed to work out.

Obviously your boyfriend wants to put up a front of dating thin women. If one gets fat, then it wasn't his choice, "it just happened," and it's OK. But he has a fetish for fat women.

You can dump him and blame him, or you can mutually decide to break up. It really doesn't matter because you two just don't belong together.

I doubt if she would ever understand or appreciate your fetish, and after the newness wears off, you probably won't be happy if you can't keep gaining.

If you are not sure of the reaction, you can always kid around and see her reaction. Say something like, "If I order dessert, I'll gain ten more pounds (or 4 more kg)." See if she wants you to, doesn't want you to, or doesn't care either way.

Why not buy women's jeans that look like male? The fabric will be bigger in the butt in these jeans.

Why don't you write to her on YouTube? Then she has the option to answer or not. And as someone said, don't come off as super excited.

People are free to gain or lose, but I don't think you can have it both ways. Gainers come here because the admirers/feeders/encouragers are here to admire, feed, and encourage. That is their preference.

If someone joins a website for a particular religion, and they change their religion, they can't expect to get the same reception they once had.