Porking Up wrote
Thanks for the responses.
Well, I have to say that the only thing that can make me ejaculate is the thought of a girl fattening up and loving it or a girl at least loving being fat. I have had sex before, but never with a girl who loved being plump, hence I have never come before from sexual intercourse. I don't fantasize about sex during masturbation, either.
Sex is important to everyone, but less so to me, I think. I would actually be happy to be in a relationship with someone I found attractive yet wasn't chubby or gaining and have sex just to get her off...with the added bonus of her knowing that I wasn't going to get off first and leave her hanging. Still, virtually everyone I have talked to said that that won't work, that the girl would figure I was either secretly gay or that she just wasn't sexy enough to do the job...it's even worse being a guy since guys are always seen as easy to satisfy.
I admit that gaining myself turns me on, but I have decided not to pursue it though my goals are/were modest. I am 6'3", about 250 lbs, and at most I want(ed) to be 275. However, I can't deny the discomfort I feel on hot days and when I was at my biggest (about 10 lbs heavier than I am now), my calves would ache if I walked farther than eight blocks. What's interesting is that while I am only turned on by chubby girls, I would be able to get off dating a skinny girl if she loved me fat. However, after a lot of deliberation, I just don't think it's a good idea for me.
Last night after posting this question, I went from being very depressed and thinking "Well, guess you probably won't ever date again" to thinking to myself, "Well, there ARE a lot of plump girls out there...there HAS to be one who's attractive and confident about being chubby." I'm still not totally convinced...while they ARE out there, it still frustrates me and I can't help thinking "Why do you have to have this stupid fetish? Why can't you just get off from normal sex like most others?" It's not even that I think this is a sick or perverted fetish, but rather an inconvenient one.
I presume, then, that if I AM going to date again, sex is going to have to be a part of it, sex with mutual satisfaction. Anyone have any dissenting opinion based on the info I placed above?
Wow Dude, you're saying things here that I believed only I had ever thought, good to know i'm not alone in the way I feel about this whole thing. Hope it all works out for you.