I'm not sure. I suppose it's along the lines of social acceptance. She wouldn't understand that I actually enjoy this.

It's no secret that I've gained weight. Hard to hide when you gain 64lbs in 8 months. But I hold my cards close to my chest in regards to talking about gaining.

I am going on vacation next week and needed to buy a couple shirts because my summer clothes are way too tight. I've recently graduated to the big boy store because I don't fit into clothes at normal stores. I was able to find a few things, but not as many as I hoped.

Today, I mentioned to my wife that I will have to buy some clothes while we're on vacation. I opened up that I need to go to plus size stores because I can't find anything that fits me. I had never discussed that before. She's good with it, not that I expected anything different. But as I mentioned, I don't talk about my gains.

I like being big and don't see that changing any time soon. But even just by saying I need bigger clothes, I felt a big relief. I don't know why I'm not comfortable discussing it with her, but I'm glad I did. She doesn't care, she's seen me big and small and all points in between.

All this is to say, that after I tall with her, it made me feel better. I've eaten a ton today and can see myself gaining more now that its more in the open.

Something I've noticed in my current gain compared to previous ones is most of the gain has gone to my gut.

Last time I weighed this much I was bigger all over my body. This is especially noticeable in my legs and calves specifically.

I don't know if it is because of the speed in which I've gained (almost 60lbs in 7 months). Whereas before I had a quick 30lbs and then slowly gained the rest...or at least slower.

Will lugging around this extra weight eventually build up my legs? I know weight gain is mostly calories in and calories out, but could I gain more weight from that extra muscle? Or would my body just redistribute the weight I have? All assuming, of course, I eat more or less the way I have for the past 7 months or so.

My name is fairly straightforward.

NoMo(re)YoYo(dieting).

I've gained and lost weight so many times over the years, I lost count. I just want to gain and then maintain. I don't want to lose any more.

Plus its a fun little rhyme.

I had this happen just last night. It's never happened to me before. I guess I'm getting pretty fat.

They sure are!

Try gaining a bit. Then decide whether you like it and go from there.

My original goal when I decided to gain again was to take it slow and steady. Well, that didn't work.

Even when I thought I levelled off a bit, I didn't. I just kept gaining at a faster pace than I hoped.

Now that I'm about 12 lbs from my previous high weight, I just want to go for it. I want to get heavier than I've ever been as soon as possible.

I know this probably isn't the best idea, but it feels right.

After that? Who knows? I still have my ultimate goal of 275-280...which is only 20ish lbs more than what I'm aiming for right now.

Long story short, I'm gonna get fatter soon.

I'm kind of torn. I really did think I had this under control. From the get go, when I decided I was going to gain again, I thought I'd do it in a slower, more responsible manner.

Nope, I've gained 50+ lbs since July.

But I do like it. I like being a big boy. It shouldn't be too surprising that I've gained this much, this quickly. What is surprising is that its my gut that's taken on most of the new weight. The weight hasn't distributed itself yet.

I'm still under my heighest weight ever, though inching closer. But when I was 260lbs, the weight was spread out more. I don't know what the difference is this time. Perhaps its the speed in which I've gained. I've had rapid gains before, but they generally top out at 30lbs and then slowly continue. This has been 50 pounds in a bit more than 5 months.

The levelling off part has gone out the window.

I haven't got on the scale since my Dec 1 weigh-in, but I guarantee my gain this month won't be the 5-7lbs it has been the past couple of months.

All of a sudden, I feel huge. My gut has exploded the past week or so. Today especially I feel really fat.

I've been eating a ton. Ahh well. I guess its just what I'm meant to do - Be a big guy.

The plan was to gain a lot over the course of a few years. I've been gaining a lot since I started this gain in July. I might reach my goal much sooner than I had hoped. Oopsie. Probably also explains my ring being stuck.

No I haven't. I'll give it a shot tomorrow.