It also has to do with blood-sugar levels. Naturally after you stuff they increase, and after a stuffing they go through a period of continued elevation. But eventually they decrease, and quickly. The blood-sugar crash is what makes you feel ravenous a few hours after a stuffing.

And metabolically speaking, depending on how much else you've eaten that day, you're also looking at a new pound of fat.

I just finished The Stand about three days ago. And now I'm reading The Wind Through the Keyhole.

Kind of on a Stephen King kick right now.

Has a bitchin' avatar. Also has amazing taste in Rock 'n' Roll.

I never felt the shame as acutely I guess. Maybe part of growing up fat? I dunno.

I've known ridicule on account of my size but it's never incited anything other than anger from me. (Perhaps because even as a young child I knew I liked the way I felt? Again, not sure.)

As for having humiliation and shame twined up in the eroticism, not so much. A little light teasing is alright but not heavy ridicule (or names like pig or hog). That's more likely to make me angry than turn me on.

At one point in my gaining I relied on shakes pretty heavily. But they were all sort of "impromptu shakes" that I slapped together out of available ingredients. (Generally things like heavy cream, peanut butter, ice cream, etc)

I've never actually included "weight supplements" in them. But I imagine making your own "fatty shake" and adding a carbohydrate based weight gain powder would enhance the effect nicely.

I've often felt like a freak because of my desire to gain weight. But...I don't think I ever really hated myself for being fat.

When I first "looked my desires in the face" (as it were), at the tender age of 13, I went through a long period of wishing I could just bury them. Or throw them out. I would often wish I could just wake up one day and be thin.

But those feelings are mostly gone. Replaced with the knowledge that I'd probably never feel "right" if I wasn't fat.

True...if I had easy access to it I'd probably use it. I think I heard you have maybe three days of flu-like symptoms before it abates or something like that. Small price to pay in my opinion.

Wow...someone within an hour of me. I was actually in Lynchburg today. I went to the Barnes & Noble with my brother and sister to get the first four books in A Song of Ice and Fire.

Small world eh? I live about 60 miles from Lynchburg. Small town called Callands.

On me, I'd prefer to retain my current shape basically. Just for it to grow bigger.

I'm not sure which of your descriptions apply to my belly but I'd say it's definitely a solid (not firm, just unbroken) roll in the front.