StuffedWithSin:
I guess this is half a question half ??????
I am just not sure if this is a case of "go to therapy" or if there are others who feel similar and maybe know ways to make it better.

Basically, weight gain has been my biggest fetish since I can think. Especially belly focused stuff and teasing/humiliation.
Everyone in my family is super slim (genetics) and I grew up with some kind of body shaming from my maternal family side so I've always been very self conscious about my body. My best guess is also that this is where my kink combination came from.

Now, to this day I'm heavily turned on by verbal degradation and physical touching of my belly and the idea of having a bigger, softer stomach.
At the same time, anytime I start putting on weight I freak out.

It's like - I have those waves where I'm super horny for a week or so and get extremely into gaining, stuffing etc. And then suddenly I go back to "I want a six pack, let's go! Work out!"

I just don't think I really want to get fat all over, would live to be somewhat toned - but also really crave having a big, round belly.
I also dream of having a person to share this kink with but I am terrified of talking with any person who has the potential of meeting me irl.

Conclusion: I feel like I'm my own greatest enemy, blocking me from enjoying my kink in the physical realm and I don't know if there's a way to work this out.

Well. Anyone related?

Fatkiwi:
Eaten a family sized meal at mcdonalds

Ultimateaaron12:
This question is for those who went from rail thin to super fat. how did you keep up eating consistently? I find it very stressful trying to make sure I eat enough to reach my daily calorie goal, does it eventually become second nature to eat loads without having to put much thought into it?

Munchies:
Do little things consistently, and you will see changes over time. If you struggle to get enough calories in you, start small. Switch to whole milk. Add sauces and cheese to everything. Always flavor your water. Drink juice. Have snacks in easy reach.

Over time, you'll realize you've started to eat quite a bit without forcing yourself.

Frogman:
I cannot say for certain that I do or don’t regret gaining. Mostly I don’t because I love feeling fat and it’s (auto)erotic, but there are also times when I wish I was thin and fit again—like when I have to exert myself. I have a theory that gaining may be more challenging mentally for some who start thin, because we’re not accustomed to being “a fat person”, living as one, and being treated as one.

Being fat was a desire of mine since I was a teenager. I tried padding first, which was fun but ultimately unsatisfying, so I tried gaining on and off for years. My size fluctuated between “very skinny” (when I was addicted to opiates) and “a little bit chubby” when I tried gaining.
By the time I was 30, I couldn’t suppress my burning desire to become fat any longer. I decided to gain 100 lbs. I embraced the feedee/gainer lifestyle, avoiding exercise while eating as much as possible, and eventually I was successful in my goal—plus ~20 lbs. I went from a “normal” weight to “class III obesity”.
Right now I’m not really in a position to continue gaining (I would if I could), so I’m just maintaining, trying to enjoy myself around food, and occasionally overindulging my appetite.

Viktoshka:
Thanks for sharing your story! It sounds like this journey has been about so much more than just changing your body - it's about true self-expression. You say you can't actively bulk up right now, but if you had the chance, do you have a goal you'd like to reach?

Frogman:
You’re welcome.
If I had the chance, I would love to grow to 350-400 lbs. I feel that’s a realistic goal for a very short guy. But the problem with goals is that when you achieve them, sometimes you think: “Now what do I do?” I often fantasize about what 500-600+ lbs. would be like, but for me those are just fantasies.

Viktoshka:
350-400 lbs sounds like an impressive goal, especially if you can already imagine how it will feel! What excites you most about the idea of ​​500-600+ lbs? Even if it's just a fantasy right now, it's interesting to know what it is about that weight that excites you so much.

BigBellyBurgerBoy1:
Can someone more video savvy help me find the original video that this gif belongs to?

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haha that's what funny, can you share with us the video you found?