The struggle

RegularGhost15:
Hello all! I'm not new to the fetish, but I am new to trying to gain weight on purpose.

So I've been trying to gain weight since before Thanksgiving. To be fair, I wasn't going that hard until last week, but I have spent years on being fit and keeping my caloric intake at about 1600-1700 to maintain my body. So I figured it wouldn't take much to pack it on, and after spending a month letting go of my diet (eating a slice of pie after dinner, letting myself have an extra soda a day) and a week of actually going out of my way to take in more (eating at least am extra 500 calories a dat), I've gained...

Nothing!

Needless to say, I'm really shocked and disappointed.

I have a history of ED, so I guess the perception that my gut was softer and fuller is just a symptom of that. I have gained not one single pound.

To add salt in the wound, my partner, who is aware I'm trying to gain weight, has also let his diet go, I guess. But I have definitely been eating more than him and he's gained 5 pounds.

I don't know. I'm just feeling discouraged. I couldn't lose weight by cutting calories and I can't gain weight by adding them. It's like my body is cursed.

Kacchan:
FIRST of all - you deserve big praise for the hard work you are doing in battling an ED. This is something to be very proud of, and it's something that I wanted to give you credit for before anything else. (Hugs and high fives!)

Second - it can be discouraging when you are trying to gain weight if you don't see the scale move, because we often use the numbers on the scale to validate success. However, if the process of eating more food and feeling softer feels good, then you are enjoying the journey and the experience.

From my own experience, I sometimes get frustrated when I wake up some mornings and feel like I've put on 10 pounds overnight, but the scale says that I've actually LOST half a pound. To be kind to myself, however, if I track progress over a longer time period, I would say that I do more of a "slow climb up to a plateau, then another slow climb up to a plateau..." type of gain.

I had a point in my life when the math was the everything - weight was something that I could control with numbers, up or down, so I focused entirely on calculation and numeric outcomes. This behavior - while successful in weight loss and gain for me - ultimately led to an obsessive mindset that actually sucked the joy out of what I was doing and made my efforts entirely about the mathematical outcomes. I ended up feeling validated by a set of numbers more than by how I emotionally and physically felt about my own body. (So... I've been there, if that's kinda how you feel.)

It can be discouraging, but just keep enjoying what you are doing. If you feel squishier- enjoy the squish! If you are turned on by the extra slice of pie - enjoy it! Try to focus on all the amazing aspects of the weight gain journey, because your body will catch up eventually!!! "Feeling" fat is a mindset that can be independent of the body - it's a wonderful feeling regardless of any physical or mathematical measurement.

Hope this helps, and keep at it. The weight will come - try to enjoy the experience more than the numbers themselves, and try not to compare yourself to anyone else. Your body is unique and your own!

Now go get some more pie! smiley



If, on top of eating more, you're also less active, your body composition could change without your weight increasing. If you gain fat and lose muscle, you could even lose weight and be fatter because fat is lighter than muscle. That's why I go by the feel in my clothes more than the number on the scale to monitor my body. If you feel your clothes are getting tight, it might not be in your head.
2 months

Back for being overweight...

It's official, I'm fat again...

Not fat as in "I feel fat today", fat as in medically overweight (BMI > 25).

I was a chubby kid and as an adult I used to be much heavier (180+ lbs) but after loosing a lot of weight about 10 years ago I was proud that I had managed to keep most of it off.

For the last few years, my weight was pretty stable, fluctuating between 115-120 lbs. Last October, I was 121 lbs.

In March, after noticing some of my clothes (non-stretch dresses and jeans particularly) were getting noticeably tighter, I decided to step on the scale and cried when I saw I was 125 lbs.

I started being more sell conscious and adopted a more restrictive diet, which was easy as I had been prescribed a stimulant ADHD medication in September.

Then I started waking up at night to eat, sometimes multiple times.

Some nights it would be only a fruit and some cheese, but other nights I would eat a large slice of banana bread, spoonfuls of nut butter right from the jar, half a brick of cheese, handfuls of candy, chocolate...

It wasn't long before most of my XS-S wardrobe either didn't fit or was uncomfortably tight to the point I felt embarrassed to wear them in public.

Reluctantly, I weighted myself again in August and had a huge meltdown when I saw I was 139 lbs and had gained 15 lbs in only 5 months!

My depression has gotten really bad because I'm terrified my weight is going to climb faster and faster until I'm as fat or fatter than I used to be. Maybe this time I'll cross the line into morbid obesity.

I just bought a keyed lock for my fridge and replaced all the knobs on my kitchen cabinet for handles so I can lock them with wire locks. I'm going to keep the keys in a timed lock box with no override.

I'm hoping this will help me lose some of the extra weight or at least stop or slow down the weight gain... I'm not delusion, however, so I already started selling all my XS clothes because it's very unlikely I'll ever be that thin again as my metabolic is ruined from years of dieting.

None of this is going to help me when I sleep at my boyfriend's place (more often than not), as he doesn't want to lock his cabinets and fridge.

I suspect he likes my new curves but I sure don't. I don't recognize my body when I look in the mirror and feel very disconnected from it.

I've been on sick leave since May so my coworkers will undoubtedly notice my fuller figure even if I try to hide my fat under loose clothing.

I dread their comments, especially from those who used to praise me for / envy my formerly thin body. I used to wear pretty dresses everyday and now none of these fit me anymore.

Can anyone relate? Any advice / kind words will be appreciated.

ETA:

I know how crazy this sounds coming from someone who identifies as a FA. Yet, while I find beauty in bodies of all shapes and sizes, I struggle to see it in myself. Maybe this is PTSD from the relentless bullying / body shaming I suffered as a child?
2 months

Drinking peanut butter with beer

Premier654321:
Figured something out yesterday that I’ve wanted to try for a while. I got a box of Jif Portable Squeeze Creamy Peanut Butter - 20oz / 4ct. Four squeeze tubes of peanut butter. This is 3040 calories, 256 grams of total fat and 336 percent of my total fat daily value. I put these four squeeze tubes up against my space heater set on the highest heat and fan speed. While waiting about 10 mins for them to warm up, I chugged three pints of beer, then, one by one, started picking up each tube of peanut butter, and was able to suck down all 4 tubes in about 6 minutes, chasing them down with my fourth beer. The feeling was so hot to be able to drink down that much fat while hammering the beer at the same time.

Munchies:
A bit unorthodox, but at least this is safer than chugging butter.

Honestly, peanut butter and other nut butter are good for weight gain.


I can attest to that! I've gained 15 lbs since March because I wake up at night to est spoonfuls of nut butter straight for the jars. I've outgrown most of my XS-S wardrobe and had to buy M and sometimes L clothes. I feel so out of control.
2 months

Fast gain

FluffyBhm:
I want some new strech marks. Does anyone of u knows a way to gain as fast as posible or anything that make you feel more Appetit and let you eat mor food.


Yeah... Do like me and wake up at least once every night to eat peanut butter right out of the jar... I've involuntarily gained 20 lbs since October (15 lbs since March). None of my XS-S clothes fit anymore, I have to buy size M and sometimes L. I'm freaking out TBH...
2 months

Unexpected signs and side effects of weight gain

Ditzy:
Underwear is a constant struggle for me.
I think elastic has gotten worse over the years.
Never seemed to ever wear out now after a few washings and they seem to lose strength.

CatgirlEva:
Same here. I’ll have to buy new underwear within a few months because either the elastic looses it’s elasticity or the waistband just starts separating from everything else. Also, finding underwear that properly fits a growing big girl is harder than one would think!


See above!
1 year

Unexpected signs and side effects of weight gain

CuppaJoe:
Wow - DoubleFrosted, I hope that realization was exciting and awesome for you. Yet another visual confirmation that you're getting bigger - and definitely a good share so anyone gaining can monitor their wardrobe! (As if any of us gaining weight didnt have enough worries wardrobe-wise!)

This might be TMI, but I was NOT prepared for how uncomfortable tight underwear can be. Most of my pants have a little room, or drawstring/elastic waist so I can expand them as my waistline dictates.

Despite an elastic waist, though, I think I've sufficiently leaped an underwear size... and it is freakin' annoying to sit all day in tight undergarments. Don't neglect to upsize your boxers, briefs, and bikinis, folks!!! 🤣😋

Doublefrosted:
Oh my goodness, I totally agree! Few things ruin your day the way too small, too tight underwear can. It's just as bad when it comes to outgrowing bras and not realising how much until you've already left the house and the band, wires and straps start shifting, bunching up and digging in to make your day miserable.

And yes, the cause of the mysterious shiny marks on my clothes was an exciting realisation for me. ☺️


I love MeUndies underwear, they are so comfortable! I wear size XS in clothes but I buy my hipster undies in size S or M because I get self conscious in underwear that are too tight.
1 year

Finally overweight!

Growinggut89:
My bmi is 28.5 now I’m finally overweight and going ever closer to obesity how should I celebrate??


Are you kidding me? I would never have guessed your BMI wasn't over 30! You will be HUGE when you reach that number then!
1 year

Appetite stimulants

Wat:
I tried Periactin which is a medication they actually prescribe to underweight people and experienced nothing but extreme drowsiness.


It's normal, Periactin is, like Benadryl, a first generation antihistamine. Both cause a lot of drowsiness.

Periactin is the medication many patients of African origin buy in pharmacy to encourage weight gain in girls deemed "too skinny". It's available without a prescription in Canada.
1 year

Appetite stimulants

Finickyfeedee:
I don’t know about the OTC ones you have listed, but I want to say on the general topic: don’t get prescription strength appetite stimulants unless you actually have a medical need for them because the side effects can be brutal. Having battled an eating disorder, I’ve been on both Periactin and Megace before at different times. They work very well, at least at first (I found they lost effectiveness over time) but they are only worth it when the alternative is eating so little it’s dangerous because they can really mess with your mood, energy levels, and general health.

MarshmallowMinotaur:
Agreed … mirtazapine for depression and metoprolol for blood pressure are notorious for causing weight gain … BUT! mirtazapine can knock you out, and metoprolol can kill your sex drive. I have used both, for their intended and prescribed uses, but I stopped them. The benefit of weight gain is not worth the side effects.


As a pharmacist I have to disagree about Metoprolol causing weight gain in a significant % of patients.

It's very true of Mirtazapine, however.
1 year

Any accidental gainers on?

Which is why I never have beer or pizza but I'm still unable to maintain my weight. It just keeps rising.

If I get fat I think I'll just embrace it and let go of the control.

Why suffer if I'm going to get fatter no matter what I do?
1 year
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