I am, and have always been, a gainer. I joined this site, and other's like it because I wanted to find a place where I could fit in (without overflowing haha). You could also say that I'm a wanna-be feedee, which is to say on the market for a feeder or FFA to appreciate all my fluffy goodness.

Must get to work on escapee

That's because the Universe is a contrary bastard. *shakes fist at the Universe*

It's pessimistic but I'm sure that it's also something that's tracked through all of our minds at some point or another. I know it's gone through mine.

I've even occasionally taken a short "leave of absence" from FF in the past when the novelty begins to wear off. I don't even generally "miss" the site very much when I'm away. The longest I've gone without checking FF has been a little over a month. But when I come back it feels new and fresh again. So that might be the answer for you, to just take a little time away and let your life fall back into place.

As for trying to make lasting connections with people, the best way to do that is go into the chat and take part in the general discussions, and be genuinely yourself. You won't find yourself gravitating to anyone in a real way by being a lurker. And you won't find anyone gravitating to you. Not to sound harsh, but you get out of a relationship what you put in, no matter what kind of relationship we're talking about.

I'm not sure if I've posted in this thread, and I don't really want to sift through all the pages, so I shall post again if I already have posted.


I live in Southern Virginia, one of the deadest dead-zones with regards to FF

*ba-dum tsch*

I actually lost weight my first year at University. I don't remember if I gained any weight when I was attending Community College though.

But anyway, I put it all back on and then some my second year at University.

I thought I'd posted on this thread...maybe I dreamed that. But yea, I also appear to be wasting time because I ain't tellin' ya. Whenever I say it out loud it jinxes me.

So I'll just keep that safe in my head for now.

I just figure a fat face is part and parcel to being a gainer. So might as well appreciate it as another sign of increasing body-fat percentage.

^^^ Many kudos and respect for the Star Wars reference there man.

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Now back to the subject, I agree. Loneliness is something that needs to be experienced.

It can be crushing at times but it's necessary. Though it can also be dangerous. When I was about 19-20 I had just started at ODU, where my social awkwardness and inability to make friends easily meant I spent the next two years alone with no one to talk to but people here and family when they called.

I think that's what helped me realize I needed to start being more active in pursuing the things I wanted. Because after two years of loneliness and borderline depression I finally decided that I needed to find a group of friends. And so my last year at ODU was the best, because I had friends who I saw every day.

More of a general story of isolation, but I think it's suitable. Perhaps I just need to be more proactive in finding others who are into the heftier side of humanity.