Its OK don't worry I totally get where you are coming from

A farm customer came in my office and said he had an appointment with our farm manager.
I had him take a seat and called my boss to tell him his appointment was here.
I could tell something was going on because I was getting all flustered and warm down there and quite tingly.
My boss came in and he heard me sigh rather loudly after they left.
That is the only time that ever happened in my life.

I reached a plateau a few times and did not gain any for quite a while.
I just kept on my plan and started to gain again.

I have always preferred fat guys even back in high school.
My friends thought I was crazy and told me I could take my pick of the boys but I liked the fat boys because they were friendlier and more fun.
Cuter too.

I read somewhere it has a lot of GMOs and I try to stay away from foods like that.
You don't know whats in them.

Thats a really good idea pillbug

I'm sure some get off on those questions if they have a fat fetish.
For me fat comments 99% of the time came off as mean and judgemental.

If he is too lazy to even make an effort he really doesn't want to.
I would kick him to the curb or make him think I would if he doesn't get his butt in gear.

When I used to binge eat my belly got hard as a rock because it was literally packed full of food.
The next morning it was flabby and jiggly.

Maybe it does pull you back because you really don't want to stop indulging in the fetish.
As long as its not controlling you and causing problems you should be fine