It's a dark demon. And it's swallowed me again
Any coping strategies? I don't want to go back on antidepressants.

To be able to change my weight at will.

To be able to sense FAs/ feeders.

To be able to spend my time however I want and not have to work.

Biromantic asexual here.

I see asexuality as not being sexually attracted to others. I've never had a crush on someone. Never wanted to rip someone's clothes off. I can understand that people are pretty but it's not sexual attraction.

It's hard to describe. Like if I'm out with my friends. They'll go "ooh he's a hottie" or something along the lines of they'd fuck him. But I don't even notice them/ it doesn't even come into my mind.

I'll have sex but it's the act that turns me on not the person.

I'd love my belly to be so big I'd have to lift it out of the way to play. At the mint I just have to squish it to one side to make room

This is honestly one of the biggest turn ins. When someone encourages you to choose the most fattening option. Or when someone else takes over your order and adds extras to it (like cheese or an extra burger)- just to make it extra fattening.

I'm a carb-aholic. It's pretty much all I eat. All my weight collects in my boobs and belly.

Not sure if it's the carbs that play a factor

I've fantasised about it for years and I would absolutely love to get to the size of the likes of Candy Godiva.

I'd love my belly to reach my knees and to have he struggle of panting after doing things hat seem insignificant now.

I'd have to be a in a completely committed relationship though. But the thought just makes me melt

I've always said my belly. I love a great big belly on me and on girls. Recently I've become more and more happy with my legs. They seem to have suddenly grown. My calfs seem huge.

I guess I just love every bit of being fat.

1. Been fed IRL
Yes
2. Ate myself to sleep
Yes
3. Had sex while being fed at the same time
Yes
4. Stolen food because I�m just a piggy
No
5. Been called a fat name in public
Yes
6. Had a stranger pat or poke my belly
No
7. Been fatter than my current weight
Maybe (only by a few pounds though)
8. Ripped clothes or popped a button
Yes
9. Broken furniture because of my weight
Yes
10. Seen an actual pig and got turned on
No
11. Fantasized about immobility
Yes
12. Ate until I threw up
Yes
13. Got stuck somewhere because of my size
Yes
14. Posted nudes of myself online
Yes
15. Been fed online
No
16. Been told I need to lose weight by a family member
Yes
17. Had a partner who worshiped my fat
Yes
18. Started rubbing my belly in public
No
19. Been called a pig
No
20. Been weighed and measured by my partner
No
21. Been in a gaining competition with another gainer
No

My best friend has gone from a 14 to a 24 (uk sizes) in the past 2-3 years unintentionally! Kinda fun to joke with her and call each other fatties