all the time, barely notice i even do it

well it seems that it s normal thing to happen as it happen to me to. perhaps admiting to ourselfs the sexual pleasure of gaining alows is to feel confortable and curious to try other things

i think about being traped in one of jigsaw s trapes were he tells me i haven t lived my life and that i hadn t be my self cause of others and that for me to be out of the cage i need to step on a scale and weight 100lbs more