i am not sure if this is a site issue or an issue on my machine, but i seem to be getting no response to the "quote" button on forum posts, and when i reply the circle just spins.

(yet i am able to create this topic!)

i am using firefox on linux.

as a former fitness/gym nut for more than 20 years (and now a big fatty), my advice is: eat as much as you can, especially protein. if you are starting to lift heavier weights to gain muscle, you are going to need to really increase the calories you're taking in.

i found it hard to put on weight when i was exercising a lot, but i wasn't stuffing at that time. if you can keep fueling your muscles (and your chu you'll do great! you'll want to target well over normal calories, though (shoot for 5,000 a day or more if you can manage it).

if you liked alien romulus, definitely go back to the first one - there are lots of links that you will appreciate! even though it is from the 1970s the visuals still hold up really, really well.

great movie all around!

just doing the math... 1 litre of breast milk contains 700 calories... it takes 3,500 calories to add 1 lb of fat... so someone would have to drink 5 litres of breast milk to gain 1 lb?

so... a lot!

check out some of the classics, if you can... the exorcist. the omen. psycho.

if you like sci-fi horror, john carpenter's the thing from 1982 is among the best ever made. there is also a (pretty good) prequel made years later, with the same title. the john carpenter film is the best, though.

i hope that there will be tags on any a.i. stories here to allow those of us who are not interested to avoid them.

for me, the whole purpose of reading a story is to see that world through the eyes of the author. their intentions for the characters, how they imbue those characters with their own motivations. right down to the choice of words.

the fact that the a.i. doesn't even have a point of view is the fundamental problem.

the choices the author makes are what make a story interesting, to me. it's not just stringing sentences together in a way that disguise it into tricking the reader that, hey, maybe someone actually wrote that?

this plays into my fantasies of being held against my will, being dominated, controlled by my captor...

ever since learning of the fairy tale of hansel and gretel the thought of being fattened against my will has been a thrill.

hansel and the witch brings vore to mind, and while the thought of the peril of being eaten, and being seen only as food is thrilling - the actual act of being eaten/consumed doesn't really do much for me for some reason.

dating a ssbbw was what caused my accidental gain, starting me on the path to becoming a ssbhm!

she was not into gaining, but she loved good food and booze. she was the one that opened me up to food as something to be enjoyed, not just as a means to survival (or gaining), but for its textures, flavours, how it made me feel...

i tried to lose weight a couple of times while i was with her, but it was too difficult. plus i was getting too lazy and more interested in joining her in her indulgences.

i think the unfortunate side effect of that was, she preferred my fit, muscular body (her current bf is *very* lean and athletic). that didn't cause our break up (i moved for work), but who knows, it may have in the long run?

if your gal is keen on your softer body, then why not go with it?

the only places i bare my belly are typically at the beach and in the change room at the gym (i live in canada... it's cold a bunch of the year... seeing people without their shirts on is not a typical thing in day-to-day life).

most people don't care. even if they find it repulsive, 99% of the time they're just going to pass by and not think of you again.

at the beach, i would say the fat people who won't take their shirts off stand out more than those that do. you know how they say confidence is attractive, maybe the opposite stands out, too?

i found myself in a similar situation last year.... cholesterol, sugar, blood pressure - the full monty! i was daunted by the changes that might be required, too.

don't panic, you don't have to boil the ocean - you will just have to make some measured changes. first, take stock of you are consuming now, and address the biggest offenders.

for me, the first thing was alcohol. that was tough because it was a part of my habits and lifestyle, but cutting that out was probably the single biggest help. i am not a teetotaler now, but i drink very little, very irregularly. not drinking beer also improved my eating habits, oddly enough, as i would often eat less-than-healthy food while drinking.

then look at the things that you eat most regularly. what are the biggest contributors? mine were pizza and fast food. i still eat pizza and fast food, but far more occasionally whereas they were staples before. i made small changed, like milk instead of cream in coffee. i am lucky to have a partner who is very creative with meals, so even though we've made changes, i don't feel bad at all about them, and rarely find myself missing things (i still get a twinge for tiramisu from time to time)

working out was tough for me, too. having a buddy who can motivate me was key for me. and i am still not great, and often skip sessions. but i'm doing something, at least - more than nothing.

my results are much improved this year. i lost some weight as a result, but i am still plenty fat and over 400 lbs.

you can do it, it doesn't have to be really hard, just take on one change at a time, don't beat yourself up.