what you wrote is very similar to how i feel.

after spending 20+ years of my adult life going to the gym 4-5 times a week, maintaining a high degree of fitness, it was a real switch to give that up -completely- and become more hedonistic... but oh my gosh, once that switch was flipped, it became so delightful.

like you, some of the limitations i experienced due to my size and lack of fitness have been exciting and enjoyable, too.

recently i've been changing my lifestyle, lost a little weight (like 2% lol) to address some health issues... when the health or fitness issues become an impediment rather than something that you enjoy, that's when it's an issue. my hope is i can find that balance where i can live the lifestyle i enjoy, but do it for as long as possible.

anal play for many is a psychological leap. if you're brave enough to experiment, like by trying a butt plug, it can definitely open up a portal to a new kind of pleasure!

i was always fit and athletic. it wasn't until i was dating a ssbbw around the age of 41 that i started to unintentionally gain. her lifestyle started to rub off on me!

then, after a bit, we decided to dabble a little more intentionally, giving into the hedonistic lifestyle... and then it became uncontrollable from there, lol!

they don't have them in canada. truly this is why america is the greatest nation in the world.

what is a cow force feeding machine?

the journey is an incredible experience! even though i have had moments of stress, panic and doubt along the way, i still think it is amazing to have experienced this. enjoy your journey!

definitely, somewhere around 350 it became a very different experience.... getting up from chairs, climbing stairs - these went from feeling like work to feeling near impossible, lol.

and i think i already had a fupa by the time i was 350... but yeah, it really started to expand a lot between 350-400 lbs.... when you combine that with the reach issues i mentioned, it uh creates new challenges, lol

i was 150-165 lbs and going to the gym for most of my adult life. when i stopped that and started gaining, by 190 lbs i was already noticing the effect! even just while bending over to put on my shoes, lol!

one of the reasons i kept gaining after hitting 300 lbs was that, it didn't seem like such a big deal. after getting used to being over 200, 300 seemed bigger but not a lot different. but i noticed by the time i was 350 lbs i *really* started to notice. it really impacted the distance i could walk, for some reason i passed a point where my endurance really suffered a lot.

now standing is chore, but at my current size the way i notice my size the most is in how my reach has grown more limited. not being able to reach parts of your own body is a strange realization. my belly forces me to sit away from most desks and tables. and i can't reach the higher shelves in the kitchen because i can't get close enough, with the counter pressing into me.

i think this is good advice. i went cold turkey off of exercising when i started to gain, and now - several years later and a few hundred pounds heavier - i am really struggling to get back into it. but one of the other side effects of starting to exercise again has been that i sleep much more soundly!

when it happened it was like unintentional bondage, in a way... and that feeling of helplessness combined with the power and dominance my partner held over me in that moment... it was very, very hot!

this kind of submissiveness has been the most surprising change for me, coming from gaining weight - and whether it is traditional bondage, or this kind of helplessness, the power dynamic is a big change for me (compared to when i was fit and thin), and just thinking about it is arousing to me now.