NoMoYoYo:
My lifelong dream was to become a fat, flabby guy. A few months ago I reached my highest weight of 275lbs. But I had a big ball gut with little flab.
Since then, I've lost about 15lbs. I decided to eat better/healthier and walk some more. It seems like most of the fat I've lost is of the visceral type, leaving me more flabby.
But in a strange turn of fate, I'm not enjoying it as much as I'd hoped. I don't know if it's because I'm in the process of losing weight (don't know how far I'll go), or if I don't actually lile it.
I'm so confused.
Munchies:
Do you prefer the soft flabbiness? Or do you prefer the ball belly you had?
NoMoYoYo:
I've always wanted this body. I've gained and lost so many times over the years and never been able to achieve it. I think the difference is I haven't been below 245lbs in 2 years so the fat I've accumulated has distributed itself more, leading to more subcutaneous fat in my belly area which was hidden because the visceral fat was so dominant. Now that I'm eating healthier, the visceral fat is disappearing and I'm appearing flabby. I've never had this happen before. Previously while losing weight, I just tended to lose my ball gut and that was it. Yes, I had some loose skin, but this isn't that...at least not yet.
To answer your question, I don't know. I think I just discovered that I was a fat guy hidden behind a beer gut. I didn't realize it was the case until the big ball gut started to go away. I just didn't expect it so it's surpising to see.
Munchies:
That's fascinating to me. A fat guy behind the ball belly. Would you say that you placed most of your fat identity on your belly shape?
NoMoYoYo:
I wouldn't say that I've put my fat identity on my belly shape, but that ball belly shape has been my identity. Every time I am in a gaining phase, I wind up with a round ball belly. But it's not the belly I've wanted. And now I've accidentally unlocked the belly I did want. I started to eat better because I felt like it and added in some walking. And, naturally, I've lost some weight. I'm in a good groove, but discovering the squishier me that I've always wanted, has become somewhat a reality and now I don't know what to do. I didn't expect this result.
Good luck to ye figuring out what you are wanting.