(wow life story time, sorry I kinda suck at writing lol)
As a female feeder in a non feeder/feedee relationship, it’s been working out but I’ve only recently have gotten to the point where I am even comfortable with talking about it.
I kept my secret of liking the idea of someone getting fatter or inflation for a loooong time, and it sort of developed into an eating disorder for me, especially when I had family who was shaming me for my weight when really I was just eating what I wanted.
But I grew up never wanting to be the ‘fat’ one, and over time I’ve become infatuated with chubby bodies, and would never mean to insult someone on their weight just because me, myself, was afraid of gaining weight. I love da chub lol

My relationship with my boyfriend has been great with lots of highs and lows, but there was a point in the relationship past our one year and I still never mentioned my main kink, since I knew he liked slim female bodies.
He has been with me even before I was even diagnosed with anorexia, which is a battle in itself but after I was diagnosed with that, that was when I realized how much it was weighing me down as a burden that I was essentially ‘hiding’ myself to him, and sex just didn’t feel right.
One night we had been in an argument and I told him I still felt like I couldn’t be open with him, but I knew it was because he didn’t know that other side of me. so I was like fuck it I just gotta get it off my chest, and it took a bit to come out but when I told him he just loved and accepted me, which I was kinda surprised.
I knew there were times of pretending to not be attracted to larger bodies, and I felt like such a hypocrite cause like, I freaking love it but I was too prideful in myself for trying to stay skinny, and it also just seems like everyone around me would be head over heels for a guy or gal with a six pack. So i wanted to fit in.
Nowadays, my boyfriend is not really a feedee but he knows that I love to watch him eat and I am always one to want to pay for fast food for him lol. Plus he really doesn’t mind adding the weight so I would say i’m very lucky. Although for me myself I do have body goals and workout, but that’s because I’ve grown to love fitness and going to the gym after being afraid for along time.
I still deal with anorexia today and can even get anal about going out to eat since I don’t want it for me, I want everyone else to be eating, which is difficult. But my friends and family have helped me and I’ve grown a lot over the past couple months.
I’m just glad to be at this spot of feeling comfortable with chatting a bit with others online about this funky kink and hope maybe this could help others to reach out, cause it can only get better by talking and understanding with yourself, and others

(also I typed this on my phone I feel my story’s kinda all over the place but uh yee thanks for reading. also feel free to ask questions or just also share ur own feelings