Chapter 1

It’s ok to be scared.

The others were scared, too. It’s natural to be afraid of the unknown, of not being able to discern your fate.

But you already know your fate. You’ve seen what I did to the others, how beautiful they became. It wasn’t easy on them, and it won’t be easy on you. It will hurt, most days. You won’t enjoy it for a long time, but eventually you will.

I know the thought of doing this to you terrifies your soul. The embarrassment of being turned into some freak, a useless pile of flesh and lard, will be too great to ignore. But you don’t have to be embarrassed. You’re never going to see another human being again, with the exception being me. And while you probably hate me now, you will come to need me. To want me. To desire me.

I will rewrite your brain, erasing any past semblance of who you were or wanted to be. It’s okay to be scared, but you can’t fight it. I’ll condition you like an animal, rewarding you for good behavior and punishing you for bad. Trust me, you’ve never felt pleasure like I can give you. You’ll become addicted to my touch, and all you have to do to get it is eat like you will never eat again, every single day.

You’re mine now, I own you. You don’t have a say in your body anymore because it’s not yours-it’s mine. Like I said, this will hurt you. Your first heart attack won’t be pleasant. Your stomach will be pumped to just before bursting, and you will cry real tears during it. I know it’s not going to be easy, but I’ll reward you with so much after. Your eyes will solely exist in the back of your head, the things I’ll do to you will leave your brain cells dying from a sensory overload.

You will become dumb. Complex sentences and thought will be lost to you, with the only thing that will be important to you is pleasing me. It’s okay to be scared now, but you won’t be in a few years. The mental and physical transformation will bury any previous doubts you had.

All of this will end eventually. I’ve perfected my craft but can only take the human body so far. Perhaps you’ll go further than the others, or maybe you’ll fizzle out early. But no matter what, you won’t be scared by the end. Your heart will struggle to beat, your vision will blur, your arteries will be clogged and your muscles will atrophy but you won’t be scared.

You’ll just beg for more.