Chapter 6 - Sophomore Year

It was the weekend after finals week, and Haley was dreading going home for the summer. Even though finals week had been extremely stressful, Haley felt like she was able to squeak by. The mountains of chocolate and gallons of ice cream she had eaten while studying had helped keep her at ease. Over the course of her Sophomore year, Haley at least felt safe from scrutiny in her single dorm room. Sure, this year hadn't been nearly as fun as the last, and yes, Haley had felt terrible about her breakup for way too long. However, Haley had done nothing at all to try to fix her weight problem. Without a doubt, Haley had ballooned up even further as the year progressed. For Haley, hiding in her room and eating sounded much better than going back to her hometown for the summer.

Remarkably, Haley had convinced her parents to let her stay on campus over the last winter break. At the time, she didn't feel like she would have been able to face them at her size, hoping that she'd be able to pull herself together to start a diet and slim down before the summer began. Her new year's resolution to start a diet and lose weight lasted a day and a half. It had been many months since her parents had seen her last. Haley knew they were going to be shocked. In fact, she knew everyone from her hometown would be surprised to see just how much further she had let herself go.

Haley wasn't blind. She knew she had gone from borderline fat to unquestionably fat over the course of her Sophomore year. It was certainly hard to watch the fat rolls and pounds pile on herself, but Haley had felt nearly powerless to stop it. Food had become her warm blanket, and it felt so hard to give up. Luckily, Haley's face had remained untouched by her massive weight gain. The rest of her body was now a body she didn't recognize when she looked at herself in the mirror. She just wished everyone else wouldn't recognize her either.

There had been a few run-ins with old friends on campus that Haley had in her second semester. They all were painfully uncomfortable. It was so embarrassing to be noticed by someone she knew previously while in the fat body she now had. None of them had confronted her directly about how hefty she had let herself get, but Haley knew what they had been thinking. Their eyes always showed surprise as they looked from her face down to the unrecognizable body underneath it. As they tried to maintain a polite conversation, Haley still saw their gaze linger on her belly.

In the few run-ins with her old friends, not a single one of them had hinted that they should hang out or catch up. Haley knew why. All of her friends had been superficial and shallow, just like her. Why would they want a fat chick hanging around their parties? She knew that the first thing her former friends would do after their run-ins would be to text everyone. Haley wasn't wrong.

Stacy: OMG! Remember Haley? She got Fatttttt!!

Taylor: What!!? Haley from last year? No. Freaking. Way. I always wondered what happened to her.

Stacy: I know, right?! She was like, super hot, I was like, so jealous.

Taylor: Totally!! Can't believe someone with a figure like that could let themselves put on a few.

Stacy: No, she didn't just put on a few; she's massive.

Taylor: Massive?! Seriously?! I mean, last time I saw her she was looking a little curvy, but it was working for her. How much bigger did she look?

Stacy: No joke, it looks like she's put on 100 pounds since then, probably

Taylor: Shut up!! Wow! She must look so huge. I still can't believe it. Hahaha, she was always hanging in the cafe.

Stacy: You have to see her, seriously! She's such a fat pig now.

Taylor: hahahaha, Haley the Hog. This is too good. Wait until I tell Brad about this. He had such a crush on her last year, remember?

Fortunately for Haley, she wasn't exposed to the gossip that was swimming behind her back. Sure she knew some people were probably talking, but not to the extent that it was occurring. Haley the Hog was the butt of many jokes at parties. If a guy wasn't having luck with the ladies, his friends often joked "We could always get Haley the Hog over here. I'm sure that oinker would be more than willing to give you a ride". Someone had even taken a picture of her walking across campus, and it was spreading around her old circle of friends like wildfire.

Outside of the scrutiny, she was getting from her old circle of friends, Haley wasn't getting any attention from anyone else. Quite frankly, when Haley spent time outside of her dorm room, she felt entirely invisible. Before, Haley had turned heads wherever she went. Now, if anything, people actively averted their gaze from her as she waddled around. Once and a while, Haley thought she even saw a few looks of disgust. It was probably due to her inability to properly conceal her figure with her ever shirking wardrobe.

Haley would hang on to an article of clothing for far too long, well past the point where she had outgrown it. In her mind, it felt like she was surrendering to her weight gain if she retired one of her older outfits. Even if she could stuff her body into an outfit eight sizes too small, at least she was still able to get herself into it, and that was worth something, right?

Though Haley had no issue satisfying her growing hunger throughout her Sophomore year, there was a separate hunger that Haley was having problems with. It had been just about a year since Haley last had sex and it was starting to frustrate her. Sure, she felt less attractive and more disgusting than she ever had in her entire young life. However, that didn't mean that her naturally high libido had gone anywhere. Without any guys hitting on her like they always had, Haley resorted to masturbation to scratch her urges. In many of her classes, there were plenty of cute boys she would have easily bagged in her prime. Now all Haley could do was ogle them, be too shy to talk to them, and fantasize about them fucking her whenever she touched herself in her bed. She knew that no guy would willingly sleep with someone as big as her. Still, by the end of Sophomore year, Haley's desperation to get laid was hitting an all-time high.

With the knowledge that it would be much harder to bag a one night stand when she went back to her hometown for summer vacation, Haley resolved that she would have to put all of her efforts into bagging someone before that. Fat or not, Haley wanted cock. It was beyond terrifying for her to realize that a guy would have to see her naked body, but Haley didn't see any other option. Her best bet was to pick someone up a club. There she'd be able to find someone drunk enough or desperate enough to take her home. The big problem Haley saw was that she had nothing to wear out.

Begrudgingly, Haley sought to solve this by a quick trip to the mall for a dress. None of her old dresses fit her like dresses anymore. As hard as she tried to make one of her old dresses work, her ass was always hanging out the bottom, she couldn't get the outfit over her belly, or the fabric wouldn't stretch enough to accommodate her fuller hips. At the very least, her old dresses could work as t-shirts. Haley was just worried about how big of a dress she now needed.

It was when she got to Forever 21 that Haley realized she needed to determine what she could fit into. She found dresses in size 10, 12, and 14. After a sweaty session of struggling in the changing room, Haley found that none of the dresses fit her. Not even close. With extreme reluctance, Haley made her way over to the small plus size section of the store. Never before would she have thought she'd ever end up buying clothes for herself in place such as this. A few other girls were poking around at the clothes on offer in this corner of the store. All of them fat like her. It felt utterly humiliating to be too fat for regular clothes.

This was her new reality.