chapter 3

Ashely Jones hadn't always been so open about what she desired from life. For the first two decades of her life, Ashton (not yet Ashley) had lived with the stigma of knowing her chosen life was a lie. It daily tore her up living the life of thin young man. Everyone commented on how handsome he was, but likewise guessed as to why such a comely boy never had a girlfriend.

On the outside Ash looked like a fine featured and handsome young fellow, but on the inside, Ash was somebody completely different. She was a "thicc", or maybe a "chubby", or maybe even a "fat", but always sassy and gorgeous woman. Ashley always knew she wanted to both feminize and fatten herself, while at the same time she ran track, hit the gym and always watched her calories.

It was pure hell, living a life that was so desperately different from one's own desires. It caused her to suffer from bouts of depression which would ultimately lead Ash to go to therapy.
It was a slow and arduous task, but by her mid to late twenties, Ashley had learned how to released herself from at least one of her private hells. When she finally came out to her friends and family she seemed more surprised than many of them. From then on she would be referred to as Ashley!!!!!!.........

And while yes, It was liberating to be "out", as a transgendered female, Ashley's other desire, the one to be fattened grew stronger with each day she outwardly denied it. Somevtimes she imagined growing stronger when working out. Sometimes she would imagine growing thicker as she drank her protein shakes. Sometimes she would imagine growing softer when deciding to take a day off from the gym. Sometimes she would imagine fatter when enjoying a treat day. And sometimes she even imagined becoming truly obese. Her fantasies were as wide and varied as the days of the week.

However, through all of this, the one fantasy that drove Ashley sexually insane, oftentimes while masturbating, was the fact that she could, and probably would, eventually destroy her "perfectly sculpted muscular and yet feminine" physique. The idea of totally ruining her gym sculpted muscles and hormone attained feminine curves totally got her off.

But that was it... She never truly indulged any of her feedee nor feedee tendencies, not ever.... well, not until she met Tom.