Chapter 3 - 3

After that the girls seemed to get snakier and the guys though Nate claimed it was just good natured teasing began to take some rather pointed joke from his buds over Liz's extra padding. At first it didn't seem to really get to him although in Liz's case even though she hid it well it very much did. And what was worse because she felt so miserable over the whole thing she fell back into what she had always done and began to eat her feelings. It was long before Liz really had packed the pounds back on and it seemed to her Nate had stopped finding her cute little pot so cute anymore. He had even stopped holding her hand or touching her at all in front of people. Sometimes even suggesting that she might want to try the small size of whatever she ordered if they went out. It wasn't too much longer after that Nate stopped touching her at all. Liz was beyond hurt by all of this and she decided it was time they had a little talk about all of it.

Nate came over to her apartment that night and sitting down on the couch as he had the last time they had a serious discussion he waited for her to basically get on with whatever it was she was going to say. This time he did not even attempt to pull her down into his lap the truth was he had a rather sneering attitude in his head about how she would likely squish him to death if she did. Liz sat down next to him and tried to take his hand. Nate allowed it but it was like holding onto a dead fish. "It's more than a little bit obvious something is wrong between us,' Liz began,' you don't touch me you barely look at me what have I done that was so awful?" Nate seem almost reluctant to express what was in his head at this point in some respects he knew part of this was his fault hadn't he encouraged her to just let go? To not worry so much and just have fun with him? Hadn't he even told her she was to the too skinny side and he liked his girls with meat on them? Hadn't even become more aroused at her fresh curves? The truth was he had been turned on by it all. He felt like such a jerk! The he got angry. He wasn't going to be held responsible for any of this I mean hey she's the one who let it go too far. A few extra curves were one thing but now looking as her face he saw nothing but the double chin forming and the chipmunk cheeks. The hallows she once had were complexly gone and to him all he saw was a blubbery blur not her beautiful eyes, perfect skin and perfect bow of a mouth. Looking even further down he saw those amazing double d's but the problem was they were beginning to sit on a shelf of a tummy that used to be just a sexy little bump. He hadn't noticed until now just how much bigger she really had gotten. Standing up Nate dropped her hand. He knew what he was about to say was going to sound really really bad but it was the way he felt. Or at least he thought it was the way he felt. He really had not noticed at all just how out of control Liz had gotten until his friends had really started to drag her down to him.

At first Nate defended her saying they didn't know what they were talking about yeah ok so she had a little bit of padding but she was healthy and they were just to use to the skinny little things they had always dated. And that worked for a while until Nate noticed that Liz was getting more than a little bit of extra fluff on her middle. She stopped wearing things like bathing suits or anything tight. Nate knew very much why when he should up at her apartment one night for a surprise visit and Liz had not had time to pull anything over the top of her tank top. it was skin tight and while he could appreciate the cleavage involved it was the pudgy love handles on the side that got to him. The strange part was he was at first sort of turned on by them but then his friends seemed to get into his head and he was horrified at himself it was just wrong to be even remotely turned on by pudge wasn't it?? He had heard nothing but put down remarks from his friends lately and it wasn't just them he saw the looks Liz sometimes got on the street from other people or if they were in a restaurant they sometimes gave her a pointed look when she ordered anything but a salad. He never thought it would bother or embarrass him to be seen with her in public but the sad truth of it was he was bothered. It was with this sort of anger and embarrassment he lashed out at her," the thing is Liz I am just not attracted to you anymore." Liz dropped her jaw ,"what do you mean you aren't attracted to me anymore?", she snapped. "Well quite frankly I was ok with you getting a bit more curve, but, you just out right let yourself go. You went from a little chubby to outright fat quite a while ago and I am sorry. I just don't want to *** a whale." Liz could not find the words. She simply looked up at Nate and putting a hand to her middle closed her eyes and felt the tears over flow. Nate could think of nothing else to say except, "I'm sorry but it's over." Turning toward the door again he walked out without looking back as Liz slammed the door closed behind him. A few moments later Nate had driven away.

Liz wandered blinded by her own tears into her kitchen and flipped on the lights. She saw the chocolate cake sitting on her counter and remembering how she was going to share it with that low life jerk earlier picked it up and was about to throw it in the trash when she decided that she would show him he didn't matter to her and instead began eating huge hand fulls of the confection. She didn't care about the mess she was making of it. It seemed like she had to finish the thing or she would not be able to breathe again. Her tears mixed with the chocolate all over her face and she just didn't care. by the time she was half way through it her tears had stopped and yet she still could not stop herself from finishing the whole thing. Her hurt and anger seemed to spur her on and when she was finished with the cake she opened the door to her fridge and began taking things off the shelf scarfing down the cold left over lasagna and anything else she could get her hands on. Her stomach was now very full and hard like a beach ball blown up to a capacity that she had no idea she could fill it to and yet she still could not seem to feel full. Ripping open her cabinets she found her stash of cookies and chips and pulling them down to the counters began popping open packages and simply stuffing it all in her mouth. By the time she stopped her stomach was beyond full the buttons on the jeans she had just purchased last week were cutting in her gut and running a hand over her distended middle she whispered to herself ,"screw it ." and pushing with everything she had she got a rather satisfied smirk on her face as the button finally popped right off and pinged against the wall.