Maybe they just get bored? like some people will jump from hobby to hobby. or get a gym membership and then after a month or so stop going.(wrong example here i know... i know..)
Some people have a personality that keeps them going... others can only stay interested for so long?
5 years
oops... word count got me. PART 2
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So I start my senior year at 260. Well over doubling my weight from when I started college.
As my friends come to see me in my apt I can see the initial look of shock. I end up cancelling our second study session and they all freak out because it’s their senior year too and they need to keep their 4.0 GPA to secure the best jobs.
They pretty much take care of me round the clock… knowing their success is tied to me tutoring and studying with them. Someone calls to wake me e very morning and in addition to the boxes of food I get delivered from my blackmailer… my friends always have food around for me. It seems like every waking moment I’m nibbling or horfing food down.
Senior year… September 260 lbs… with their help… totally self centered help… no thought to my well being…. My body has become a calorie storing machine. 4.5 lbs a week. by finals week I have packed on over 50 lbs. and my graduation things have leveled off so another 50…. not including the weight gained during holiday splurges and binges… almost 370 lbs.
I waddle across the stage and take my diploma with my chubby sausage fingers…. My friends… they get their degrees and forget about me. The days turn into weeks as I stay at home depressed…. Eating… reading the emails from my oppressor…
This was the fun part. The dark part is …. Well… dark.
5 years
Dark Fantasy… I’ve been kind of lurking and talking with people on this site. Most are really nice and fun. IRL I had a dark side and I’m submissive. Words do it w ay more for me than photos or talking. If I can read it then I can be there and feel it. I work with numbers a lot so stats and numbers do it for me. Here is one of my fantasies…or as much as I’ll tell.
I would like someone to blackmail me into gaining.
Maybe I cheated on a test and the other person found out or caught me shoplifting or just doing something that would get me in huge trouble so I would be willing to do anything to keep them from telling. Maybe I need to keep my reputation good to keep a scholarship for college.
It goes like this... lots of details left out of course:
One day I get an email with a video attached and watch it and its me and I’m stuffing jewelry and perfume in my purse and pockets as I walk around a store. I, of course, beg and beg them to not turn me in and they begin to give me instructions on what and how much to eat.
I only gain a pound a month. (in real life I am having zero luck gaining) After 6 months or so this increases to about 1.5 lbs a month so in my freshman year my gain would be a modest 15 lbs.
They use the video as leverage to get me to send nude photos of myself and in turn use these to made me do more… heaping the amount of control they have over me.
After a year or so I start gaining 2 pounds a month and then 2.5. It becomes easier to gain as I’m always nervous and anxious about what they could do and I have to have the scholarship to finish my degree. By the end of my sophomore year I have gain 12lbs in 6 months and then the second half of the year another 18 lbs. I’m miserable because I’m not allowed to go to the gym or workout and they give me all these goals of what to eat and drink.
Six month gaining intervals below….
So freshman year : 6 lbs and then 9 = 15
Junior year = 12 and then 18 = 30
So I start my junior year 45lbs heavier than when I started college.
125 lbs and adding 45 more…. = 170.
Junior year they make me send a daily photo standing in the same place wearing the same outfit. Side view and front view. Head to toe. Several times a week a box gets delivered to my door and I have to eat everything in the box and show gains or they send me more threats. I am to have a candybar with me at all times and have regular and frequent eating goals. Not to stuff… not while I go to classes and stuff. just something with a lot of calories on hand and I have to be eating anytime I’m with people… like a study group.
Junior year - - I cant tell anyone whats happening and my best friends are concerned and worried. I’m told to convince them that I’m a nervous eater and the carbs make me feel calmer… when actually the opposite is true. Soooo in addition the the fattening food that is delivered…. My friends rally around me to help me keep my 4.0 and right before any test or an all night study group they make sure that there is plenty of food around. Cake, Ice cream, snickers, frozen uncooked brownie mix. You see they really need me in the study group because I’m tutoring them to get them through with their degrees too. The hardest part is pretending to be happy that they bring me more food. They even encourage me when there is just a little brownie batter left or a few cookies…
Junior year by the time Halloween comes around and I’ve gained 3 lbs both months and between then and Christmas break…..4 pounds a month… putting my first semester total at 11. Over Christmas break it’s easy to put on 6 more pounds so I start the second semester of my junior year gaining about 25 lbs. 195 lbs…
The gaining ramps up the second semester. My metabolism slows. All I do is read and study. 1 pound a week for the next two months… then the next two 1.5 lbs a week. so 20 more pounds by the end of the semester. 215 lbs.
I come home for my summer job which this year I’m supposed to work in a legal offce… paid intern. Usually interns don’t get paid while in college but with my grades! I’m really excited to do this
BUT
I get an email that has an application for a job at a country buffet for the summer and I’m told to resign my internship.
So for the next 14 weeks of summer i was on my feet all day making me tired and sore so I would go home and lay down and eat what ever I brought back from the restaurant for the first 4 weeks I gained a steady 3 pounds week for the next month 3.5 and the last two weeks nearly 4 pounds a week. bringing my summer total to…. Wow.. 12 + 18 + 8 = 38 lbs…. throw in a few more for some of the binges and birthday parties where I was instructed to take the leftover cake home… = 45 for the summer
So I start my senior year at 260. Well over doubling my weight from when I started college.
As my friends come to see me in my apt I can see the initial look of shock. I end up cancelling our second study session and
5 years
I would just like to gain 20 lbs to see whats its like. ive gained two. naturally thin here
5 years
Jshep2158:
Are they nicer now? Or can a person be fat and mean?
I don't know. But I'm sure everyone is different.
I think she is sad or depressed. Or been lessened
5 years
Hi,
So, This girl I went to college with seemed to have an edge to her. I steered away because I didn’t need to drama. I don’t know that she even made fun of anyone for being fat but she was definitely not someone that I wanted to hang around. She got her degree in accounting and packed on a lot of weight. I guess she sits at a desk all day. One of my friends said she had two kids and never lost the baby weight. She just looked tired.
Hope this fits into your question.
5 years
curiousv:
For all those who desire to gain a significant amount of weight (or who, in the past, intentionally gained a lot of weight):
How did this desire develop in the first place?
1. No, Not always or when i was younger.
2. My interest came from two places. I had an Ex who was a feeder when i was younger. and I want to know what my sister is going through.
3. I definitely just want to gain a little, compared to what i see on here.
4havent really gained yet
5. Any gaining i do will be intentionally.
6. something else?
5 years
FoodDreams:
Not sure how to report this, but I believe I've been approached by a new member hoping to obtain my personal data and banking information. He offered me in-home employment in our first conversation and wanted me to contact someone via Google Hangout and later when he offered to buy me food he didn't have PayPal, but wanted my banking info. -- both RED FLAGS. I ended our conversations, but feel I need to warn others to be aware!
did he have a name?
5 years
Pasta is cheap and can be made to tastes really good. Sauce.... buy the sauce that costs a dollar a can and add heavy cream and sugar and oil to it.
Pizza cheap too. but the inexpensive ones and add topping like crazy. Bacon, but dont cook it first. Salami, pepperoni etc.
Desserts can also be made cheaply and heavy on calories. Make your own icing and add sugar.
6 years
