Perspectives

chapter 2 - emma

At first I was pretty stressed out when I realized I had put on some weight since getting married. Owen and I had been married a little over nine months, and were definitely enjoying the newlywed life. We were eating whatever we wanted, and having sex all the time. He couldn't keep his hands off me!
I only noticed that I had gained when I tried to put on my favorite jeans and couldn't get them buttoned. I couldn't believe it, I had worn the same jeans size since college and had never had a problem buttoning them. I guess that's why I was oblivious to it. In the mirror I did look chubbier to myself, but I know we are our own worst critics. It must have been only five pounds or so, and it was definitely not enough for anyone to notice, I mean nobody has said anything to me about it- not even Owen. And like I said, he's been all over me the last few months.
Besides, it's not like I'm the only one who's let myself go a little lately. Owen's grown quite a little husband belly since our wedding. I don't think he's even noticed, which is surprising to me, but he's always been a skinny guy so he probably doesn't even consider that he could put on weight.
I first noticed him softening up when we got back form our honeymoon. He really pigged out on the cruise. It's not like he's ever had the healthiest diet, but as long as I've known him he could always eat whatever he wanted and not gain a pound. He's an artist, and not the kind of guy to work out, so it's not like he had washboard abs or anything, but it's like a switch flipped when we got married. It seems like he's snacking all the time, and sneaking cookies and snacks into the cart when we go grocery shopping.
I'm not that worried about it though, I think his belly is super cute! Sometimes when he stays up late painting he comes to bed with a little extra paint dribbled on it. And I love the way it squishes into me when we are having sex! The added contact feels so good.
The rest of him has softened a bit too, but not much. It's hard to tell if his face looks any different because of his little beard, but I have noticed some softness on his chest and some extra padding on his cute butt :)
A couple weeks ago we were having sex (from behind! first time in years) and afterwords he fell asleep, and I stayed up watching him. I imagined him growing even more, into a big fat man...I'm sure he won't, but it was kind of exciting to think about! Not that I'm extra into big guys or anything, but for some reason watching my new husband change is a warm positive feeling. Like he's settling into a happy life with me, and he's so comfortable in his new life.
Since that night I've been a little bad and have been feeding him extra heavy meals. A lot of pasta and pizza (his favorite), followed by rich fattening desserts. It's not like I'm trying to fatten him up or anything, I just don't want to discourage it.
Unfortunately I've been eating those meals and desserts with him. Oops! I guess that's why I've gained a little bit. But it won't be too hard for me to lose it, I've never had problems with weight before. I'll probably start a diet soon, but for now I'm not gonna worry about it. When Owen notices his belly he'll probably freak out and it will make him feel better if we can "get in shape" together.
He's gotta notice it soon, anyway. I feel like it's getting bigger by the day. Even if he doesn't notice on his own it won't be long until his Mom says something, or his brothers. Owen has always been the skinny one of the three boys, I'm sure they'll be happy to tease him about it.