Fat experiences

Clothes & other people’s actions.

Definaely other peoples reactions.
The people I am around every day are encouragers for sure and opportunists.

There is a pair of a pants and a a bra from two years ago that I have hanging on the wall in the back of my closet that I see every damned day that I get dressed.
I put it there a while back trying to shame myself into losing.
Now i think its just a curiosity.

Getting up and around and feeling new jiggles and bouncing. Seeing my reflection out of the corner of my eye from time to time. Feeling how tight my pants are on my thighs lol

Pulling my kitchen chair out before I start running dish water

Ah the old sitting down to do the dishes. I've seen that before :-)

Feeling my thighs smoosh into the underside of my belly with each step everytime I have the climb the stairs.

Seeing people that you see once in a while and they look at you after they give you a hug or just are looking at you and how tight your clothes are when you just got them and they bring up how much larger you are than them. Most the time I’m twice the size of them almost three times the size.

When you’re at fast food with a friend and you try to order light and they look at you in disbelief of how much you’re getting, 20 nuggets, 3 quarter pounders, large fry, McFlurry and 2 cheeseburgers and a 12 pack of cookies lol i guess that is a lot.. and still end up finishing up their food too. She could only eat 1 cheese and no fries so i just finished it off.

When someone says let’s celebrate me losing 45 pounds and then they say oh and celebrate you being almost 300 lbs? Lol

When your belly sways back and forth with each step because it hangs so low that each step sends it swaying in the other direction. When u realize u are running out of lap. When u don't have to wear a belt with your "fat pants" when ur belly FINALLY touches the steering wheel in smaller cars. When you are sooooo greedy you are thinking about the next thing u are going to eat while eating.

When you stand up and you have a wegdie in your underwear, pants, and shirt

When you stood too long yesterday, so you just want to sit and eat today.